Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This

Chapter 94

Author's Note: If I could stop hacking I'd be happy! Oh well, reviews make me happy. Thank you to ValkyrieReneStark for pointing out that in my feverish writing state that I mixed up Axel and Oscar. Oscar's dead, Axel's alive. I fixed it. And Carol is getting close with Axel not Oscar, since he's dead. Shakes head. Note to self, if you're running 100.5 temp, don't try to think! I've had this idea for a while, so here it is. Review please. Oh yeah, tissue warning.

Jewel, Rick, Carl and Michonne POV:

Jewel held onto Rick's hand as he drove. She looked out the window as they drove past a man with an orange rucksack.

"Stop please!" the guy yelled.

Jewel squeezed Rick's hand as he continued driving. She would usually say something about stopping and helping but there family was in danger. They were the first priority, everyone had to make decisions in this day and time and sometimes those decisions were the ones that they would never have made before.

"So, exactly what is the plan?" Michonne asked from the back seat with Carl.

"We're getting weapons and any medical supplies we can find," Rick answered.

"How do you know anything is going to be left?" Michonne asked.

"We don't, but we got to take the chance," Jewel answered as Rick rubbed her palm with his thumb.

"So we could possibly be wasting gas and time on a pointless mission? We could be helping with fortifying the prison," Michonne said.

"My dad worked at the Police Station, he knows what was left. Jewel worked at the clinic, she knows where medical supplies were kept," Carl told her.

"That was a year ago, there's a chance that it's been raided, that both of them have been raided," Michonne told them.

Jewel squeezed Rick's hand. She knew he was about ready to say something that he might regret later. "It's a chance, but there's also a chance that people had evacuated the towns when they were supposed to," she told the other woman. "Let's just do what we need to do and get back as soon as we can. You're going to take a left on the next turn," she instructed Rick.

Rick nodded as he gave Jewel a grateful look. He turned onto the road as she instructed.

"How far did you live from here?" Carl asked.

"About twenty minutes. We passed it," she said as Rick drove up the road. "The ambulance shouldn't be here, looks like a hospital ambulance."

"Could someone have brought it back here? When it got back at the hospital?" Rick asked.

"Yeah, a couple of the doctors, maybe Jane. I mean, the only people who ever came to the clinic was people who couldn't afford medical care. We all had committed staff, Jane and Dr. Park only hired people who would go the extra mile…." Jewel said.

Rick looked at her as he parked. "We got to be prepared for walkers," he told her as he squeezed her hand.

"We're always prepared for walkers dad," Carl told him as they got out of the car.

"He means I might be walking into walkers' who were people I knew," Jewel told him.

"So, if you and the other woman were nurses, shouldn't you have been at the hospital when all this went down?" Michonne asked.

Rick turned and looked at her. "You need to shut up now," he warned her.

"Rick, it's alright. We weren't at the hospital because a very good friend called us to tell us not to come in….Summer, Mar and I are alive because of her, probably a couple of the other nurses got the same call," Jewel answered as she looked at the clinic.

Rick touched her face. "Hey look at me," he told her. "You sure you want to do this? We can go inside. Just tell us where we need to look."

Jewel shook her head. "It's just easier to go in then try to tell you Rick. Let's go," she said as she took her knife out of it's pouch.

Rick nodded. "Keep in formation," he told them. Rick nodded at Jewel who pounded at the door.

"I don't hear anything," Carl said.

"Maybe the ambulance just got brought here before the people evacuated," Jewel said as she pounded on the door again. Jewel nodded at Rick who kicked in the door as they went in. "The far door on the left, that's where any supplies would be, Jane always ordered more then necessary…Dr. Park used to tell her she was always preparing' for the worst," she said. Jewel walked with Rick, with Michonne and Carl behind them. Jewel turned the knob with her knife up and walked into the room.

"Walkers!" Carl yelled as he opened a door to an exam room.

Jewel turned and went out of the room. "NO!" she screamed at Michonne as the black woman raised her sword at the slow moving walkers coming toward her. "Jane….Dr. Park…" she said as she moved Michonne out of the way. She raised her knife and put it in the Dr's. head. She pulled it out and turned to the walker that was Jane. "I can't Rick…I can't….." she said as she fell to her knees.

Rick walked up to the walker and looked at Jewel before shooting her. "Carl you and Michonne go outside, find something to dig two graves," he said as he dropped to his knees next to Jewel.

"Come on," Carl said as he pulled Michonne's arm gently.

Rick put his arms around Jewel and pulled her close to him. "Shh," he told her.

"She wasn't supposed to….she said that she would take her own life before….she turned into one of them. I should have went to the hospital…I should have made her come with me," she cried into his shoulder. "I should have known that she…could never opt out…she didn't…she didn't believe in it."

"Hey, shh…this is not your fault. What if you went to the hospital? What if you were there when the soldiers came in? I saw the body bags, Jewel. Shane told me that the soldiers came in and shot doctors, nurses, patients. We're going to bury her and the Doctor. We're going to give them the respect they deserve. I owe this woman that respect," Rick told her as he cupped her face. "I owe this woman half my heart. She gave me you. For whatever reason she was here, she was probably trying to help people out. That's the type of woman you said Jane was right?"

Jewel nodded. "Yes…" she answered as tears came down her cheeks.

"Don't think of her like this, Jewel. Think of her as that woman who you took you in and supported you, the woman who was like a grandmother to Summer. Remember all the good times. Remember her smile, remember how she made you laugh. This is just her corpse, not who she was," Rick told her as he kissed her. "What about this doctor? Tell me about him?"

"He was young, grew up around here. His brother had died….when he was 13 because he didn't have proper medical care….he worked at a bar to put himself through medical school, came back here. Had worked here for three or four years," Jewel said. "He asked me out a couple times…"

"Maybe we should burn him," Rick teased as he kissed her.

Jewel gave a small laugh as she wiped her face. "Jane definitely would have liked you…would have loved you," she said. "She would have made you work for her approval though…" she said as she looked at her two friends corpses. "Give me a minute? The supplies are in the back…."

Rick touched her face. "I'm not leaving you. I'll stand back and give you a minute," he said as he kissed her as he got up.

Carl came in. "She ok Dad?"

"Not right now son, but she will be," Rick said. "Did you find something to dig with?"

"Yeah, there's already two graves back there, with hand made crosses," Carl said as he looked at Jewel.

"Go back outside with Michonne, I'll come get you when I need help moving them out," Rick told his son.

Jewel moved what was left of Jane's hair out of her face. "God….I always hoped you were out there somewhere. I always hoped that you survived. God knows you were a fighter. I hoped that you'd be kicking…" she fought back the tears as she continued. "I hoped you'd be kicking some walker but…I never…I didn't even…think that there was a possibility that you were here. I…guess I wasn't thinking two steps ahead huh? You'd like the group Mar, Summer and I are with. God…you probably already know about all of them. You and Hershel…you two would have got along real good….Merle's back. That's why I'm here, because I couldn't let go of the anger I've felt for him….still teaching me lessons in your death huh?" Jewel said as she kissed her fingers and then placed the kiss on her forehead. "I'm going to take this necklace….you always said you wanted Summer to have it if something happened…to you," she said as she took off the necklace shaped like a heart. "I love you….I…hope you knew that…I hope you know how many people's life you made better by just…being you. Just…by caring. You gave your heart…to everyone..you made everyone better by just knowing you. You shouldn't have died…like this Jane…you shouldn't have….you deserved better," she said as she touched her face. "I'm sorry for both of you..I know you both were probably trying to save someone….that's what made us the best..you know?"

Rick bent down next to Jewel. "You don't know me, Jane, but I heard a lot about you from Jewel and Summer, some from Daryl and Mar. My name is Rick, Rick Grimes, I have to thank you. If it wasn't for you, I would have never met the best thing to ever happen to me. I would never have known Summer, she's my daughter. I'll promise you that I'll give my last breath for Jewel or Summer, Mar too. Jewel talks about how you thought about everyone else, well she has that same tendency. Don't worry, I won't let her get to far ahead of herself. We've got each other. You rest in peace, know that your girls are in safe hands. We're going to bury you and the Doctor outback. We bury the ones we love. I'm real sorry that I didn't get to meet you before all this, I think you would have been a good ally in getting this one to say yes to a date with me," Rick said as he kissed the top of Jewel's head. "You took care of her, now I've got her. Mar's got Daryl. Thank you for taking care of my wife for me until I got to meet her. I'll always be grateful," he said as Carl came back in.

"We're ready dad," Carl said as he went over and hugged Jewel. "I'm sorry Jewel."

Jewel stood up. "It's alright, I've got my family. Let's get them buried and get what we need then go to Kings County….we got people alive who are counting on us."

TBC