Previously*

"He's your son Hermione, you're his mother."

There was a pregnant pause as the words left Draco's mouth. I couldn't believe we'd actually reached the point that he thought so highly of me to actually think of me as a mother to Scorpius. I couldn't deny I loved this family we'd formed, it may have not been normal and a lot of people didn't seem to understand but it worked for us.

"That's so sweet of you Draco, I think of Scorpius as a son, but I do want to make sure he always knows his mother." I said softly turning around to look at his silver orbs only to find them looking disheartened. He shifted up onto his elbow avoiding my eye.

"No Hermione, he IS your son. Your flesh and blood." I couldn't help but laugh, he was being so serious but he had to be joking. There's no way that could be true so I knew he was winding me up. He had to be. He looked up at me confused as I laughed.

"Oh come on Draco it's very good, but I think I'd remember giving birth." I exclaimed feeling my heart rate rising slightly. Why wasn't he admitting this was all a joke? Why was he being so serious?

"You wouldn't if I made you forget." Draco muttered barely moving his lips as he stared determinedly staring at the bed. He really wasn't joking. I felt my heart move into my chest as my hands began to shake and my anger began to rise.

"That's not possible." I replied through gritted teeth trying to stay as calm as possible but feeling my patience slip away from me. Draco's eyes flickered towards me and as if realising how angry I was becoming he seemed to snap out of his trance.

"I can explain." He replied simply taking my hand in his. I snatched my hand out of his and pulled away from him to the edge of the bed wanting to be as far away from him as possible. His voice was making me angry and I knew I couldn't sit here and listen to his excuses.

"Give them back" I snapped quickly.

"What?" Draco said looking confused again. I was starting to wonder if I was speaking gibberish to him. How was that a difficult phrase to understand?

"Give my memories back to me" I replied slowly knowing that the Obliviate curse could be taken back by the castor, that was the whole reason I'd chosen that spell for my family, although I'd never imagined my parents wouldn't come back as instructed but that had nothing to do with the curse.

"I don't know if I can." I glared at Malfoy standing as I waved my wand and was dressed in a flash.

"Obliviate is a curse you can reverse if you don't damage their mind!" I snapped furiously as Draco too stood up and was dressed in a heartbeat. He tried to come closer to me but a furious glare kept him at bay.

"I used dark magic, I had to. If you just let me explain." He replied calmly but somehow his calm voice infuriated me further. How could this morning have gone so wrong so quickly? How could I look at him with so much hatred when ten minutes ago I knew I loved him? I just needed answers now and every time he opened his mouth it seemed to be proving difficult for him to give me the answers I wanted.

"I don't care what you have to do give me back my memories!" I yelled feeling the lump bubbling in my throat.

"I can try but I can't promise…"
"NOW DRACO" I roared causing him to flinch slightly. I was acutely aware of his heart breaking in front of my eyes and the strength it would have taken for him to tell me all of this when he knew he could lose me but in this exact moment, none of that seemed to matter.

"Ok ok but you will have to actually let me near you." He replied carefully holding his hands up as though in surrender. Softening slightly I let him near me. Carefully he placed his hand on my shoulders and took a deep breath.

"Loco eius Maledictionem in me avertet illud" He muttered carefully closing his eyes. I felt the room getting warmer and warmer before it faded to darkness.

I stared around the burning house surrounded by death eaters all laughing and jeering. My house was gone. I tried to stay calm but I couldn't help but scream as the bodies of my parents lay in front of me. Their faces frozen in fear. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I stared down at them praying for them to start breathing again feeling like a child as I clung on to them. Suddenly arms pulled me up strong arms that I struggled against but they held me still.

"They're gone Granger" Malfoy's voice hissed in my ear. It was him, he was the one holding me, he'd done this, he'd killed them, and now he was taking me. I struggled against his strong arms until my world went black.

I felt so weak so frail, the scene before me was death eaters there was some sort of scuffle before he was in front of me once more. His silver eyes glassy as he stepped closer and closer towards me. I felt the fear rushing through me as his breath reached my cheek and he smiled a crooked creepy smile. It was like looking at a complete stranger. He was kissing me, touching me while they all leered in the back. It made me feel sick to my stomach. I closed my eyes hoping to ignore the pain and the shame as it hurried through me.

I woke up in a cold dingy stone room, it was dark and looked very much like a cell. I was struggling for breath as I sipped the water that had been left in front of me. Pain shredded through my stomach and the last thing I saw before pain blinded me once more was Draco Malfoy's face hovering in the shadows.

I was screaming as pain soared through my now enormous stomach it was moving and shifting in front of me. Narcissa was in front of me looking concerned as she yelled towards Draco. The scene kept fading in and out as pain overwhelmed me but in a flash the child was out and Draco took him away before I could say a word. I screamed and cried as my child was torn away.

***8

"He's dead. And soon she will be too." Draco was saying as Lucius and Bellatrix stood next to him.

"Don't make it quick Draco. Make sure she feels the life leaving her lungs." Bellatrix whispered cackling into Draco's ear as they all stared down at me.

"Don't worry, I will." He said smirking nastily and with one final gasp of air my world went black.

I blinked as I woke up a few soft blankets surrounding me and tried to focus on the room. I can't have been out for very long as I noticed the sun still rising across the bright blue sky. Panicking as my memories covered my mind once more I felt my heart thumping against my chest. I couldn't believe that all of this was him. My parents hadn't come back because he had killed them, he had forced me to have Scorpius and he had torn my heart apart making me believe he was dead just to wipe my mind of it all. It didn't make sense but everything led back to him. Why was he getting close to me now? Was this another one of his sick games?

I glanced around the room and froze when I saw him sat in the window seat with his head in his hands. His soft blonde hair fell loosely through his fingers and clearly he was both deep in thought and incredibly worried. He somehow looked a little paler than I'd last seen him. I could feel the panic rising within me looking at him and I knew I needed to get away from him. Sitting up Draco's head shot up as he heard me moving. He jumped to his feet concern written all over his face.

"Hermione…Please let me explain, whatever you remember…" he trailed off slightly looking down. Clearly he didn't know exactly what I remembered but he knew that whatever it was, it was bad.

"How could you do all of that? How could you let me get close to you?" I said getting out of the bed quickly and trying to focus on everything going around in my mind.

"Please let me explain…" Draco said softly stepping closer to me. Seeing him come towards me caused my breath to halt.

"No… Stay away from me." I snapped feeling shaky before I slowly backed out of the room leaving Draco frozen in his spot. As soon as he was out of sight I turned and ran toward the door. I had to be alone and I had to think. I had to just get away from it all.

Half way down the drive I ran into Blaise. He stopped me looking concerned and held onto my shoulders. His eyes studied my shaking form and looked worried and that's when It dawned on me. It was almost as if he knew why I was panicked, as if he expected it.

"Hermione what's happened?" He said trying to calm me as my mind reeled.

"You knew didn't you? You knew I was his mother? You knew what happened?" Blaise stepped away and looked down slightly and that gave me all the answers I needed and suddenly it was all falling into place. They all knew that's what all these little meetings had been about that's why Harry and Ginny had been so friendly with Draco and Blaise. How could they all do this to me? How could they think that was ok?

"I did but tell me what's happened" He said, he looked like Draco trying to approach me carefully as though I was made of glass. It all made me so sick.

"I can't believe all of you would do this to me. All of you stay away from me, please." I said before reaching the boundary of the manor and disapparating away from it all. Landing at the edge of the caves I had come to the only place I could think of that no one would come looking for me.

It hurt knowing that they were all in on it, they'd all just carried on like nothing had happened. Even McGonagall had pushed us together but somehow none of that hurt as much as knowing how much I loved him.

Thinking fast I sent my patronus calling for someone to come to me. It was the only thing I could think of I needed someone right now. After watching the patronus vanish away I sat against the edge of the cave and waited for him to arrive. A few minutes later there was a slight pop and I ran over to hug him finally letting it all out. Feeling his arms wrap around I could finally just let go and accept all that I had lost in the space of a day.

"Hi Ron" I whispered into his familiar embrace.

********end of chap****

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