A/N: Time for the next installment. It took me a little longer than planned, but that is because of the sheer length of this monstrous chapter. Thanks to Kareneb for reviewing the previous chapter. I can understand how this story is pure torture for a lot of the B&B fans, but trust me when I say that there is really no need to worry. Life just isn't always a fairytale.
WARNING: Someone is using the F-word and some associated words are going to scattered around as well.
Lilly had told the female officer the short version of what had happened. Every question that had touched upon an occurred rape she had denied feverishly. From her readings, she knew that even the slightest clue towards a sexual psychical assault meant a rape kit. It wasn't that she thought it wasn't a good system, but unless it was absolutely necessary, she didn't want to undergo one. She was just very glad that Stein hadn't been able to get that far.
Instead, she had tried to steer the conversation with the cop towards harassment and stalking. You know the usual offenses that officers of the court and law enforcement had to deal with. Unfortunately, she wasn't sure how convincing she had been. Lying never had been her strong suit, because she usually didn't see the point in doing it. The truth was usually easier in the end anyway. A white lie wasn't that hard to pull off, but this charade she had just performed made her feel like only Oscar-winning actors would be able to achieve successfully.
When she had seen Booth arriving as Stein's body had kept her entrapped against that pillar, it had brought tears in her eyes from relief. What was next, had happened so fast, that she hadn't even been able to blink away those welled-up tears. The way she remembered it, Booth had gone from appearing into her sight somewhere about halfway on the staircases, to cuffing Stein within seconds. Then Booth had yanked the lawyer further away from her and kept him painfully pressed against the hood of his car until the uniforms had arrived a little later.
Then there was a gap in her memory. Next thing Lilly had heard, was Booth telling the officers that he would bring by his report in the morning. Lilly didn't even know on what charges Booth had arrested the lawyer. Truth be told, it wasn't that important to her. Especially since she knew there wouldn't be any evidence for whichever crime Booth had chosen in one of those split-second moments. She wasn't stupid enough to know that Stein would be released as soon as he would be brought in front of the judge. Released on his one recognizance, after maybe a night in jail, would be the most that would be happening to that asshole.
However much it sucked that her offender would get away with it, it was nothing to the last words to her had been before the MPD had put him in the patrol. This isn't over, because we weren't done. Thinking about it now, she still didn't know if the threat was real or that it was just a mental game, but nevertheless, the words had made her freeze in her movements again and had made her breath hitch in her throat. Somehow those words really stung, like this night hadn't been horrible enough.
She couldn't believe she had frozen up in the first place and had just let him run his hands all over her. The concept of fight or flight had been going through her head the whole time though. Like it had been stuck on replay. Fight or flight, fight or flight. But just thinking the words hadn't helped one bit; she hadn't been able to do either one. She hadn't even been able to pick which one was the better option. It had felt like she hadn't known the meaning, the concept seeming strangely unbeknownst to her She had been too stunned by surprised that it had really been happening.
The next thought that popped in her head now, was how on earth this had happened. Thinking about the cause, she knew Stein was stubborn, heck all lawyers and paralegals were. Persistent? Sure. Annoying every once in a while? Definitely. But what she hadn't seen coming, was that he would get psychical with her, fighting dirty while not using (only) words. As soon as he had started touching her, she had been completely shocked, not willing to believe that what was happening was real. Maybe she had indeed pushed her luck too much by defying him. She was sure Booth would be remembering her of that soon enough…
Booth squatted down beside his car next to where Lilly sat. "Hey", he said softly, waiting patiently until she came back from the place her thoughts had brought her. He could only imagine the thoughts probably weren't very pleasant. When her eyes met his', he gave a timid smile that he hoped was reassuring at the same time. "The officer said we can leave, if you're ready." It had taken him a lot longer to tell the young, still doing everything completely according to protocol, cops how he had made the arrest and that yes, he was an FBI-agent, but that shouldn't matter at that point. The jurisdictional wars were always so annoying.
Lilly nodded. "Yeah that would be best, I'd really like to get out of here. It has been a long day."
A look of worry appeared on Booth's features. The dispassionate tone of her voice was almost scary. Denial. That was fast. "Would you mind if I drive us back to my place? It was a long day for me too. "Driving to Lilly's apartment would take at least 40 minutes, whereas his apartment was only 15 minutes away.
"What why?" Lilly asked alarmed, her defenses on overdrive.
"Hey I am tired too", he said calmly, as he let Lilly make the connection between their current location and his and her apartment. Being tired wasn't really the reason he didn't want to drop her off at home. Right now he was hesitant to leave her alone. He knew a little too much about PTSD and he didn't want Lilly to be alone if a panic attack would strike. If the panicky way she responded to his suggestion was in any way a tell, a flashback would probably happen soon. Probably really soon. According to the officer, Lilly had been rather tight-lipped about what Stein had said and done. It was obvious it hadn't been consensual, but what had happened exactly was still unclear. As frustrating as that was, knowing that a full-on rape could hardly have happened between Hodgins calling him and him cuffing the bastard, for now, he was satisfied with Lilly just being safe for the night.
Lilly's only response was a little nod. "Yeah okay."
"You can sleep in Parker's room", he said reassuring her that he had no ulterior motives.
The ride back to Booth's apartment was a silent one. To prevent the drive from being a too quiet one, Booth had turned on the music, which Lilly had found really relaxing as she focused her attention on the softly playing song.
Booth, on the other hand, hardly noticed the radio. It had been a crazy night. Now that Lilly was saved from that neanderthal in a suit, Booth let his mind wander to earlier that same evening.
Bones and he had finally had their much-needed talk. He still had a hard time believing that Bones was starting to believe in love and maybe even marriage. For as long as he knew, she had been hell-bent on rationalizing that love was useless, unnecessary and nonexistent. Now, she somehow had found a way to rationalize her believe that it did exist. Not that was complaining about that. He couldn't be more than happy about that, but he was absolutely thrilled that they had talked about their fears, the last couple of months and hopefully a future together. It had been an awkward conversation, but he had felt better afterward. For the first time since the Hoover conversation, he felt like there was a chance for them. But then, after he had dropped off Bones at her apartment, the lightness of the evening had been blown away by Hodgins' phone call.
From that point, on he was just worried about Lilly's wellbeing. Glancing at her as he turned the last corner to his apartment, he didn't feel as reassured as he wanted. Even with his best guess, he wasn't able to tell how she was holding up. Either she was shutting down - and with that shutting out the world, or she was still consciously going with denial. He wasn't sure which one was worse or more dangerous for her mental health in the long run. After pulling into his parking space, he killed the engine. "Do you think you'll be able to sleep tonight?"
Looking at him, Lilly managed to give a timid smile. "I am sure I will. I've just tried to stay awake so you wouldn't have to carry me in."
"Hey, I could have carried you in."
"I know, but I've been around long enough to have heard about your bad back. I am not as light as a feather."
Welcoming her into his apartment, he walked towards his room. "I'll get you a shirt and some pants and then we both can get some sleep."
Lilly nodded as she hid her yawn behind her hand.
Coming back with a set of night clothes, Booth handed them to her and showed her to Parker's room. "Maybe you should take a day off tomorrow, or just have a late start." It wasn't unusual for any of them to work on the weekend, but having some 'me' time could be good for her. Oh no, I am starting to think like Sweets now, with all his talk of taking the necessary time to relax from our stressful jobs.
Lilly nodded, just overcome with sleep. "Maybe, we'll see. Thanks for the clothes and … stuff, goodnight."
NEXT MORNING
Lilly walked into the kitchen, still feeling a bit sleepy. "Good morning." It had been quite weird to wake up in a boy's room. It had taken her a second to remember where she was and to find the way to the living area.
Booth turned around. "Hey-hey you're awake already?"
"What time is it?" She felt a little uncomfortable. Standing in the kitchen of her coworker, with whom sleeping over could have all sorts of possible meanings, standing there in one of his – on her – overly large shirts and a pair of sweats.
"About 7. What kind of breakfast can I make for you?"
Hearing her belly rumble loudly, she remembered that her last meal had been a quick lunch with Caroline – over 15 hours ago. "Whatever you're having is fine."
"Alrighty-then, pancakes coming right up," Booth said. As soon as the stack of flaps were ready, he placed a plate in front of Lilly and set down beside her. "I hope you don't mind but I asked Hodgins and Angela to run by your place to get you some clothes."
Lilly looked at him her eyes big with a mixture of emotions. "What? You told them about what happened last night?" Her voice was flat from the disbelief.
"No," Booth said calmly. "You called them while... After you left the courthouse."
"Oh God", Lilly said softly.
"How did you think I found you?"
Lilly shrugged, she hadn't really considered the what, why's or how's. All she had known, was that she had been really glad he had shown up when he had. "I don't know, I am not sure it really matters anyway," Lilly said straightening her shoulders as she tried to cope with the idea of facing the married couple.
Booth didn't dignify that with a response as he ignored her comment he carried on. "As for the Hodgins' coming over: I promised to give them a call after I found you yesterday's evening. I kind of forgot..." His voice doing the apologizing for his omission. "... and now they insisted on checking up on you in person. I told them I didn't think it was a great idea, but they wouldn't take no for an answer. You know how tight-knit the team is. So, since having them over was kind of inevitable, I asked them to pick up a set of clothes for you. I know that you gave Angela a spare key to your apartment. That way, you at least can get dressed without having to re-dress in yesterday's outfit."
"Thanks", Lilly said, glad that Booth was thinking ahead. Maybe she would burn yesterday's clothes later. "Not just for fixing that I'll have a... different, clean, set of clothes, but also for being there yesterday too."
He noticed her swallow to even acknowledge that in fact, something had occurred. Booth nodded. "No problem, glad I could help." Looking a little worried at how dispassionately she was eating, when she should really be starving. "So, do you think we can talk about what happened? Metro told me they need a more detailed statement from you. If you want, I can go with you."
Lilly took a sip of her tea. "Talk about what? You wanna say I told you so?" Her tune not being unkindly.
"No, what?! No, of course not. I am just worried about you."
Lilly looked up at him. "There is no need to worry."
Booth kept silent, holding her gaze with his eyes as he tried to read her emotions. He was pretty good at reading people's emotions, but with Lilly always being so straightforward, he apparently hadn't learned to read hers. Or maybe she had a poker face that could rival his at a blackjack table.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that? Don't you believe me?" Her tone becoming fiercer, piercing through Booth's apartment.
Still, he didn't answer.
"Nothing happened", she said firmly but a little softer, as she tried to contain her emotions. "He was up in my face, you stopped it from worsening, that is the end of it. Truth be told, I am a little surprised it even got to that point, but it is what it is, right? It is not like I can change the past." Great job, lying at yourself and a concerned friend.
His emotionless mask changed with a mixed look of worry and disbelief. "Come on Lilly, you cannot really believe that?! It is definitely not the end of it. First of all, the cops probably have finished their rapport from what they learned yesterday. I will write one as well and then I'll take over the investigation."
Lilly wanted to cut in, but Booth silenced her with a single stern look.
"I know you think I won't have jurisdiction but I will. You're a federal employee who was standing on federal land, I am federal police. You know that it is that simple. Secondly, I was standing next to you when Stein told you it wasn't over. Pops taught me that the threat of violence alone is enough to have a lasting mental impact. So, forgive me for not believing that this is over, even if Stein will leave you alone from now on. The immediate threat has lessened, sure, and I am more than happy with that. However, that is not the same as everything being as it was before you left your office yesterday. You are going to need to acknowledge that."
"There is nothing for me to acknowledge, just as there is nothing to investigate for you. Because nothing happened." Lilly repeated, her voice all businesslike. "You won't be able to find proof that anything illegal happened, therefore according to the law, nothing illegal happened. All that you might be able to prove is that a conversation took place on the steps to the Justice Department. Not the most pleasant conversation I've ever been a part of, I'll admit that, but still: just a conversation."
Whose lawyer was she exactly? Maybe she was right, maybe she was not. It pissed him off that this Stein-idiot thought he could intimidate and possibly assault one of his team members and get away with it. He was used to hotshot lawyers talking about or to him like he was an idiot, just for being a G-man. That normally didn't really slow him down, but this dude crossed that line. Stein had crosses that line so far, that now Stein was just a little dot at the horizon. Angela and Hodgins would give their statement when he asked them to. Maybe they even had recorded the telephone conversation. If Lilly would just concede that the last words Stein had spat out while cuffed were a threat, he could at least work with that. It would be circumstantial – for now, but it would be a better start than her current complete denial.
"Fine," he conceded. Pushing her now, would just upset or anger her and that wasn't what he wanted. Right now, he needed to protect her, especially since she kept denying that there was an issue, to begin with. Maybe Sweets would be able to get her to open up. And then there was a risk for Stein trying to finish what he – according to Lilly; only allegedly – had started. "But there is no harm in me investigating anyway right? I am fine with wasting a day or so to try and find out if you're right."
Lilly shrugged. It wasn't like she could talk him out of that and she wasn't in a position to tell him what to do during business hours. "Suit yourself."
"Great. Then there is another thing. Call me overprotective if you want, but I think it would be best that you stay here, with me, until I conclude that investigation."
Lilly gave his request a second to think about. Would staying here mean she had to admit something had happened? It wasn't that she really valued living alone that much; as a child, she had found it a lonely endeavor and at her boarding school she had enjoyed living in the dorm. But she didn't want, no she couldn't have, Booth thinking she was weak and unable to continue living her life after being cornered for what in reality could only have been 10-15 minutes tops. She was not in need of being babysat. "What? No, that won't be necessary."
Booth looked her dead set in her eyes. He had tried it the nice way first, right? "Okay, but if you don't stay, I'll set up a security detail for you until I know you are safe."
"Why? Stein is in custody."
Booth chuckled softly. With any other person, he would be deadly annoyed if they played dumb. "We both know that won't hold up for long. He'll probably be in front of a judge today, even though it is a Saturday, and then he'll be free to roam around the city again. He'll be free to roam around your apartment, either hoping to successfully intimidate you into not filing a report or to try again." He knew she needed someone to tell her this, he just hoped he wasn't being too harsh.
Shocked that Booth pretty much spelled it out, it took her a second to get the images in her head to go away. "How long would it take for you to conclude that I am safe or to conclude your investigation. It is already sounding like you're planning a longer investigation longer than a day."
"A week, maybe two weeks tops. Booth said, hoping that a short period like a week could win her over.
"Why do we have to stay here?" Lilly asked, a sliver of defiance resurfacing.
Good, she has re-found some of her bargaining powers. "My place is closer to both our offices, Stein doesn't know where I live, whereas he might know your address. And also, very important; do you even have a guest room?"
"No, I don't have a guest room." Knowing that she had been beaten.
"Well, that is why," Booth said. "We can pick up the stuff you'll need to survive during the next two weeks before we go to work. We'll see what will happen in the upcoming week."
Lilly nodded her okay.
Satisfied that he had been able to convince her that her safety could still be in jeopardy, he got up to clean up their empty plates. Looking up, he saw the vintage Mini parking in front of the store below his apartment. "Oh, Hodgins and Angela are here." Glancing at Lilly, he noticed how she wasn't ready to talk to her colleagues. "If you're not feeling like talking, feel free to take a shower. I'll make sure your clothes are in the bedroom by the time you're done showering."
Happy with a way out of answering the well-intended questions for at least a little while, Lilly nodded. "Yeah, I should get cleaned up and ready for the day." Maybe I can scrub away the feeling of Stein touching me. " I am sure Caroline will be working on the case as well."
By the time Lilly had turned on the water of the shower, there was the knock on the door. After opening the door, Angela barged in grumbling her good morning, quickly making her way through Booth's living room, to drop the bag with clothes for Lilly in Parker's room so the intern would be able to find them.
Looking at a retiring Angela storming through his home Booth let out a wow. "What emotion is that?!"
Hodgins sighed. "She's angry with you." From the way Angela had stormed through their home this morning, he had known that Booth had been in for one very unpleasant surprise. He had tried to remember his wife to what conclusion they had come the previous night, but it had and now still seemed that she didn't really care about not confronting Booth.
"Angry with me?" Booth asked surprised. Not that he expected a medal from the president or anything, but he had just saved Lilly within the last 12 hours or so.
"Yeah, uhm, that guy on the phone kind of gave away that you and Lilly were or are involved," Hodgins said, a little uncomfortable, knowing all too well how Booth thought about people meddling with his private life. The FBI agent wasn't wearing a suit yet, so his gun probably wasn't laying somewhere on the countertop of his kitchen, right?
Not the type of person to be shocked into silence too easily, it was surprising to see Booth gasping for air, needing a second to recover. Shit. "Well... I suppose nothing really stays a secret for long anyway. Do the rest of the squints already also know?" Like Bones...
"No, but considering how Angela has been acting ever since waking up this morning I am sure it won't take long."
Booth nodded, running his hand through his hair. "Thanks for the heads up." Leave it to a squint to be brutally honest without even knowing that he is.
"Yeah...", Hodgins said half-heartedly, knowing his wife was going to yell at either him, Booth or the both of them pretty soon. And then Angela telling the rest of the squints would soon be the least annoying thing for Booth... "How is Lilly doing?" Hodgins asked, trying to change the subject.
"I am not sure, Booth said. "She is denying anything noteworthy happened, so that worries me a little. She's taking a shower now. She'll be out soon enough, though, because we're going to work today. With the case needing to be court-prepped by Caroline and by extension Lilly and I want to check up on the reports of yesterday night."
Hodgins nodded, not a stranger to working on Saturdays. Though it was a little weird, that most of miss Julian's work actually started after the Jeffersonian team finished the case on their end. "Did you get to her in time?"
"I think so. Although I can't be sure when Lilly isn't willing to talk about it." The frustration in Booth's voice was more than audible. "You didn't hear anything more than what you've already told me yesterday?"
"No", Hodgins said. "After him saying something about smooching there wasn't anything that was very audible."
"Did you guys record the conversation?" Booth asked.
"I am not sure, but I know that Angela has installed some automatic program for recording the team's conversations, ever since you got kidnapped by the Grave Digger. I don't know if it applies to conversations between just us as a team or all conversations. If Lilly's phone isn't part of the automation, then the conversation could at the very least be recorded from Angela's phone."
Booth nodded. "Well, I am hoping that Angela has the recordings."
Hodgins stared at Booth. "Yeah of course you do, you're FBI, so every type of intel on every American must be very much appreciated, right?
Booth looked at Hodgins, a little annoyed with bug man for bringing up one of his most hated subjects: The United big brother States of America. "I am not in the mood, Hodgins. Besides, it is your wife who made this program to protect all of us against crazy people's vendettas at her own peril, not me."
"Yeah, I know, sorry man, I let myself go for a second there. So, what is going to happen next? You arrested that dude, right?"
Booth nodded. "Yes, I collared him and let MPD take him away from a night in the joint. Though, I am pretty sure he'll be out at the end of the workday tops. Which is a potential problem, his last words before he got pushed into the back of the police car were that it wasn't the end of it."
"So, is it safe for Lilly to go back home after work?" Worry crossing Hodgins' features.
"I am not sure, but I am not really willing to take the risk. I asked her to stay here until an investigation has been concluded.
That was the exact moment Angela had chosen to come back into the room. "I don't think that is a good idea", Angela said. Her body language giving away that it was taking all her strength to stay somewhat calm.
Oh boy, here we go.
Hodgins shot Booth an apologetic look.
"Well, she shouldn't be alone right now," Booth explained, hiding how his patience was already running thin. "There is the risk that Stein, the guy the two of you heard on the phone will try to look up Lilly and try to finish whatever it was he had started before I put an end to it. Aside from that, Lilly is in denial, from my years in the Army I know that is a really dangerous thing after such a stressful event.
"Well, if she shouldn't be along, maybe she should stay with us until everything is cleared up," Angela said dryly and curtly.
Placing his hands on his hips, Booth sighed. "Angela. Just spit it out already. You know I am not patient enough for beating around the bush. I am trying to protect Lilly here. What are you going to do when Stein comes knocking at your door, huh? You have Micheal Vincent to think about. Staying with you won't be convenient as a means to protect her."
Angela looked tense, barely able to contain her frustration. "Okay, you know what, you are right, I am done beating around the bush here. Do you really think Lilly staying here is the right thing? That shitty lawyer guy mentioned that you and Lilly slept or heavens knows maybe still are sleeping together. I suppose her staying here with you will make continuing that a lot easier, huh? In fact, that is exactly what happened here last night too, isn't it? Mr. White knight swooping in, all ready to comfort the damsel in distress." The sarcasm dripped from the artist's voice.
Hodgins looked shocked. He thought that he and his wife had come to an understanding that mentioning any of this to Booth would be a bad thing.
Out of his increasing anger, Booth stepped closer to Angela his angry eyes piercing through her. "Look into my eyes, read my lips, whatever will make you able to catch my next words best. Because I want you to understand that I would never take advantage of her or off any woman. Lilly is part of our crime-solving family and I deemed it irresponsible to leave her alone. In fact, I still deem it irresponsible to leave her alone. Now, I am not sure what kind of man you think I am. But I have and would never force myself upon a woman. I wouldn't even suggest sex anywhere around Lilly now, especially after something none of us knows has happened to her. It would be great if you were able to show her some compassion, be supportive, but I'll be more than happy to settle for you leaving her alone until you regain your fucking senses."
"How could you even have sex with Lilly? She is way younger than you."
Booth looked at her dryly. "Oh, I am sorry? I didn't know my personal life was in need of your approval. I don't think I need to explain to you of all people how things like this sometimes just happen."
"It damn well is now", Angela said angrily. "In fact, I should have interfered much earlier, then maybe, you wouldn't have been so stupid to parade Hannah in front of Brennan, to begin with. You know that it will kill her to know that you slept with someone else again."
Booth left out a sole chuckle, anger really starting to course through his veins too. "Ah no, that is just great! May I remind you that you slept with Wendell and dated him right in front of Hodgins here?"
"Yeah, well, at least I wasn't Wendell's boss, like you are Lilly's."
"What? I am not her boss. Caroline Julian is and via Caroline and Hacker, Lilly is an attaché to the FBI."
"True or false: she is your responsibility in the field."
Booth rolled his eyes. "That doesn't make me her boss. Lilly and I aren't even in the same hierarchic pyramid. If I take any of the Jeffersonian squints into the field, I am responsible for your safety too. And not that it really matters, it isn't like it is illegal."
Knowing she lost that point, she decided to take a different approach. "Oh, and I am so glad you brought up Wendell, because whatever happened in my situation, your mess will be a lot bigger. You are not only going to hurt my best friend, but you'll upset Wendell too, big time." After letting a second of silence fill the room for dramatic effect, Angela continued. "Yeah, you heard me, Wendell likes Lilly and Lilly likes him back just as much."
"Well, that is great for the two of them, I am pretty sure I am not standing in the way of the two of them going out on dates. Hell, if Wendell wants to have date nights right here in my living room, I am fine with that. Now if that is everything you feel you needed to get off your chest, I think it would be better if you would leave."
Feeling very dismissed by the owner of the apartment they were standing in, Hodgins tried to Angela to the door before their fight would worsen. His wife, however, wasn't having any of that and pulled herself from him. "Well, yes, as a matter of fact, there is one more thing. We both know that there will be a giant rumor buzzing around the Hoover AND the Jeffersonian about this." The threat of Angela starting said rumor hung between the two. We both know that it would be better for Bren if you told her that you banged an intern, but I won't tolerate anyone other than you or me telling her, so in the hopes it will spare Bren some pain, I am giving you until the end of the business day on Monday to tell her about your little slip up."
Not really impressed with that threat, Booth huffed. "Well, if we both know that, why don't you just butt out completely, huh? You don't get to decide who I tell what details about my private life. It is bad enough that Stein is unfoundedly talking about my private life anyway. I understand you want to take revenge for something that doesn't concern you in the slightest, but you might want to think about what it will do to Lilly. I thought you and her got along pretty well, so you might want to take a second before you ruin that. And yes, it is true that I don't like my private life being the newest piece of gossip at the Hoover, but let's face it, who is and who isn't part of my supposed sex life has been one of the favorite pieces of small talk for years now. So you throwing this out in the world, won't make much of a difference for me."
Not impressed by the neutral face of the agent as he tried to hide the fears that came with disappointing Bones, Angela stared him down. "Having Bren resent you for it, will definitely make a huge difference to your life. I stand by my deadline, it is your choice whether she will be disappointed or furious with you."
To the relief of Hodgins, Angela finally made her way to the front door.
"Oh, and one more thing, Angela", Booth said before the Hodgins would walk through his front door. "I don't want to hear you talking to Lilly about this. She has enough demons at the moment to deal with."
"I am fine with not talking to Lilly for a while."
A/N: Well, that is finally out there! I considered cutting the chapter in half, but I promised the confrontation between Angela and Booth. I hope I did them justice, it was a lot harder to write than I had thought. Talking about the writing: I am afraid it will take me a while to get the next chapter(s) publish-ready, so please do bear with me, even if it will take longer I haven't given up on this! Until the next time :).