Chapter 19

It was just the two of us, sitting alone in the same warm drafty, old cave, were once in The only thing we were listening to is the sound of crickets playing their tune, out in the wilderness. I didn't know, if I was either waiting for her to speak first, or the other way around. As the sound of crickets passed us by, I was growing more and more irritated with the silence, that was in the air. "Are you gonna start talkin', or not?" I snapped, having enough of the silent treatment.

"O-Oh, okay." It was quiet for a moment, before she spoke up. "How am I suppose to start?"

"Look, you don't have to tell me, if you don't won't to. Sorry, that I even ask." I gently told her, not wanting to make her feel uncomfortable. I hated it, when she was like this. For some reason, her sudden change of mood always seemed to bring me down. I went to leave, when I felt a hand grasp my wrist.

I turned to see her looking up at me, with pleadingful eyes. "It's okay. I'll tell you everything." she said, gesturing me to sit back down. "It was back, when I was in the present. Remember when I said, that I didn't want to attend the festival?" she reminded, looking at me. I gave a nod. "It isn't the first time, that I actually attended a festival. I didn't have any friends, or family, so the only choice I had, was going by myself. Everyone around me, seemed to be having fun. Children running around, their laughter filling the air. I, however wasn't really enjoying myself, like I thought I was. I was alone, like always. Until this guy came along, of course." I felt my heart clinch. I didn't like the idea of her meeting another guy, other than me. Whoa. Where the hell did that come from? "He was a really charming guy, when he wanted to be. He was nothing like the rest of the humans, that hated me. He was so nice to me, despite the fact, that he knew that I different from humans. I thought that I could trust him, but..." she paused, before looking down at her hands. "...sometimes you can get too comfortable with the people, you trust...then the next thing you know, you're in for a rude awakening." She stood up and walked behind me. The only thing I'm face to face with, is her back. "I wanted to keep this between Kagome, Sango, and me, but it looks like I have to reveal it to someone, I really trust, sooner or later." Before I could ask what she meant, I quickly turned away, when I saw the last thing I would find her doing in front of a man; slipping off her kimono.

"You idiot!" I panicked. I quickly tore off my haori and wrapped it around the naked girl, that stood before me. "What are you doing?" I asked, surprised that she actually did that. I was so embarrassed, that I barely notice that I was blushing furiously.

"Inuyasha, look at me..." she spoke softly. I looked at her as if she completely lost it, but suddenly froze. She lowered my haori off her body, a bit and pulled her hair aside, revealing half of her back to me. I could only gaze at her back in pure shock and horror. Half of her back was covered in scars, but not many. What the hell happened to this girl? "Do you see them? The scars on my back?"

I gulped, before I spoke up. "Yeah. I see them."

"They're from him." she said, turning around to face me. I tried to focus my concentration on her face, instead of her half-naked body. "The guy that I told you about, not too long ago...he gave them to me." she said. "He had reinforcements too." she added, looking away from me. "I thought I was having fun, with the one person I trusted, but I guess it didn't seem that way, when I woke up, somewhere else with nothing on. Him and his friends...standing around me, mocking me, humiliating me, and tormenting me. It was a never ending fun for them, but for me...it was a never ending suffering. I've been told, that no man will ever want me, with the scars I have. They were right. I took what they said about me the truth. After they were done having their way with me, I was angry. Angry at them...and surprisingly myself for letting them take advantage of me, in the first place." She spoke. "Sometimes, I would ask myself, if I'm consider to be beautiful. Will I ever find someone to love me, despite of what I am and look like on the inside?" she said, before she paused for a few minutes. "But there is one thing that I've once learned with myself, while being here..." she started again, before smiling faintly. "Beauty is a concept, I struggle with—what it means, why it matters. I struggle to keep a smile on my face, because huge chunks of my life have not been beautiful. They have been ugly, marred by trauma, with pain, and anger." she trailed, her eyes casting away from me. "It's been made clear to me, that no man will ever look at me as beautiful."

I stared at her, drinking in her emotions that didn't seem to pour out. I had no idea, that she had these kind of things to experience, let alone scars on her body. Ever since the day, we first met her, I've only notice how sad she looks, even when she smiles. Despite the scars, the false smiles I see, she was still beautiful in my eyes, no matter how much I didn't want to admit it, myself. I didn't see her scars...I only saw Moka. And only her... "I'm looking at you..." I simply said and this time, I didn't have any regrets saying it.

"I-Inuyasha?" she whispered, looking at me, with a filled-shock expression. "What did you say?"

"I said I'm the only one looking at you. And in front of me, all I see is you." I replied, staring at her. "...and standing in front of me, is a beautiful girl."

"You...think I'm beautiful?" she asked, the color of red slightly on her face.

"Of course I do." I said, staring into her emerald eyes. "If I didn't think you were beautiful, wouldn't I do this?" I leaned forward and captured her lips. I felt a spark surge through my body at the warmth and softness of her lips. They really were soft as they looked, the last time I saw them up close. I licked her lips for entrance, but quickly pulled away, when I realized what I was doing. I got a good look at her shocked face, her face flushed as the color of roses. "Moka...I...I'm so sorry, I didn't mean-" I was instantly shut up by her lips crashing onto mine. I immediately kissed back, wrapping my arms around her. I ran my tongue over her strawberry flavored lips, asking for her to let me in. She moaned as she opened her mouth. I growled in pleasure, when our tongues finally touched. As our tongues danced with one another, I carefully lowered her onto the hard ground. Luckily, she was wearing my robe of the fire rat, so I was pretty sure she'd be comfortable, lying on the ground. I softly kissed her neck, earning a moan from her. I roamed my hands over her body, giving myself a little "exploring trip". I felt her shiver under my touch as I continued to explore her body. "What's wrong?"

"I can't-I don't know how to do this." she whispered, her cheeks flush. "Inuyasha...it's my first time. It's wrong."

"Hit me." I commanded.

"What?" she said, looking quite unsure, if she heard right.

"Hit me." I repeated. She gave a faint laugh, before giving me a tiny slap across the face. That was pathetic, Moka. I pinned her right arm beside her head, with force, but not so much as to hurt her. She gave out a squeak in surprise. "C'mon, you hit like a girl. I know you can do better than that." I smirked, trying to get her angry as much as possible. I felt a hard slap across the face. I didn't have time to adjust what happened, when I felt another slap across the face. I grabbed one of her hands, trying to avoid her puny punches and slaps that were being thrown at me. I leaned in trying to plant a kiss on her lips, with her still punching and slapping me. I got to her lips, grabbing her hands and pinning them above her head. She finally gave in and kissed me back.

"Inuyasha...I want you..." she murmured in between kisses. "I want you, Inuyasha."

"Are you sure, Moka?" I asked her, with concern. "Once we do this, there's no turning back."

"That's what I want. To change and never turn back, without any regrets." she whispered, her eyes boring into mine. "I want you to be the one to change it and I never want to go back as long as I'm with you." I felt shocked for words. She was willing to give herself to a half-demon like me, despite the fact that she may never turn back the hands of time. Is this what she really wants? To offer herself to me, without having any regrets of doing it? With my mind made up, I kissed her once more. "Please be gentle with me." I took in the beautiful sight, that lied before me. "Please, don't look at me like that. It's embarrassing."

I reached out and brushed her blossomed, color hair out of her face. "You're beautiful."

"Really? I am?"

"Yeah." I answered, leaning down and kissing her on the neck. It was hard enough to do, with that necklace of hers being in the way. I kissed my way from her neck and down the valley of her body, until I got to her legs. I parted her legs, revealing her sacred place to me. I gave her one long and hard lick across the folds of skin, nestled between her legs as she let out a yelped.

"No...not down there!" she cried, trying to pry my head away. "Don't kiss me down there, it's dirty! My mother always said, that if a man kissed me down there, I'd go blind!" I ignored her typical nonsense and continued on what I was doing. I couldn't believe how sweet she tasted; I couldn't get enough. I began sucking and nibbling at her little nub as she moaned and groaned louder, her breathing becoming heavier. The sounds she was making made me moan against her, and she let out a deeper moan. "Inuyasha..." she moaned, breathlessly.

I lifted my head from her folds. "Mother doesn't always know best, Moka." I chuckled lowly.

I watched her breath in and out, her face flustered. "Inuyasha, please... Revive me again...make me feel alive..." she begged, her eyes shielding with lust. That's all I need to hear. I positioned myself above her, I entered her slowly and carefully, making her let out a moan of pain.

I kissed her face, trying to calm her down. "Does it hurt?" I asked.

She shook her head. "No. I'm okay. It's just a natural feeling." she said.

"I'm sorry. If you wanna stop, then-" I was silenced, by Moka pressing her lips against mine. I looked down at her and gave a nod, understanding that she wanted me to continue. I began thrusting into her. She whimpered. I knew she wasn't use to the pain, she was feeling. I knew I wasn't doing anything to hurt her, because like she said; it was a natural feeling. I felt her nails rake down my chest as she kept flinching from the pain. I quickly tore away the white top, that seemed to be covering half of my body. It took a few minutes, before I heard her moan slip from her lips. I smiled at this, knowing she was fine now. I started to increase the speed, hitting her walls a little harder. She moan louder, when a hit a certain spot inside her. I smirked and held her hips in that position, so every time I would hit that special spot, which in turned will make her moan a little louder. Soon, she was moaning out my name. I grunted, when I felt her walls tighten around me. I knew she was on the edge of releasing herself. I leaned forward to her shoulder, biting into it as I felt her walls clench tightly around me. She moaned loudly, before quieting down after a few minutes. I continued to thrust inside her, riding out the remaining of my pleasure. I raised myself above her to see, if she was okay. Her bangs were shadowed over her eyes. I carefully brushed them aside to see that her eyes were closed. She was asleep. I carefully pulled out of her, trying not to wake her. I lied down on my back next to her, pulling her towards me to lay her head on my chest. I pulled my haori over the both of us, so she wouldn't get cold. I softly planted a kiss on her head.

"Rest, my Moka..."

I know the lemon didn't really satisfy any of you, but I tried the best I could to make explicit for you. I know some of you are finally happy that Inuyasha and Moka are together...there is just one little problem. Moka knows about Kikyou and Inuyasha doesn't know it. If you think Moka and Kikyou should meet, just vote on the poll on my profile and I probably do something about it. I hope you guys enjoyed it.