Love Struck Delusion
Chapter 135 – A night together at last.
Raze's POV, Three hours later.
Gord and I had Raptor and Molly under lock and key. Mason was resting the hit Zeta gave him off in his room. Pierce had his men back out helping the city clean up. Juper however decided to stay here and watch over Raptor himself just in case something else happened during the night. And lastly was Zeta. She decided to go out for the night. I wanted her to remain inside but she said she had to take her mind off of what just happened. I can't blame her. Raptor was dead when we got to him. And when he came through I felt for his pulse. Before he pulled his arm away I swore I felt nothing. But regardless he's been known to show me miracles. I shouldn't expect anything less. But what Zeta told me got me wondering. Gord who was cleaning up Raptor's face with a wet rag noticed and asked.
"What's wrong doc?"
Looking to the man I replied.
"After we got everything under control Gord, Zeta told me more about what happened with Raptor."
"Anything important?" He then wondered as I nodded.
"She said Raptor went blind. Which has been known to happen to hedgehogs before. We both know that."
"Yes but hedgehogs tend to lose sight well in their sixties. Raptor is only in his late thirties." Stated Gord as I questioned.
"It's possible he could have had some form of glaucoma and just never experienced issues before."
Putting down his rag Gord then said back.
"Regardless Raptor has never had eye problems before in his life according to his file. The chances of any sort of disease just outright taking his vision away is little to none."
"Have you looked at his eyes?" I then asked as he shook his head.
"Can't. While he is asleep his eyes are covered up with his back lenses. I'd have to wait till he wakes up to get a good look at it. Regardless Raze, Raptor said he could see Zeta before we got him moved. If that's true then he isn't blind. Maybe he may have had some sort of issue before then, but recovered since."
"That's saying a lot Gord. Zeta said both his eyes were black."
"Black? Hmmm." Replied Gord as I shook my head to state.
"I don't know what to make of it ether. She was the only one to see them."
"His eyes probably are showing early signs of glaucoma like you said. When he wakes up we can run some tests to see. Okay?"
Nodding my head I then asked.
"How lucky is he to have pulled through that?"
Gord let out a small chuckle to reply.
"Nothing short of a miracle. Right now his vitals are good."
"Have you felt for a pulse?"
Looking to me in confusion Gord replied.
"No? He's alive. Should I think otherwise?"
In concern, I walked to his side to reach for Raptor's wrist. Placing my fingers on the base I felt for it. With seconds passing I grew worried and broke out into a panic to place my head on Raptor's chest. Gord stood up from his seat to ask.
"Is he okay?"
I was at a loss. Raptor was breathing, but I couldn't feel his pulse. Looking to Gord I replied.
"Can you feel anything?"
In confusion Gord placed his fingers where I had them on his wrist to feel for himself. I watched his reaction change as he instantly switched to his neck. Then going to his chest he looked at me to ask.
"What the hell?"
Nodding I replied.
"He's breathing. But I don't feel anything."
Gord now just stared at Raptor as I waited for any sort of response from Gord. Slowly he looked back to me to ask.
"Hand me my stethoscope."
Handing him the device, I watched as he put it on and placed it on Raptor's chest. After a few seconds he stared on with wide eyes and switched spots. He was right on his heart as he listened.
"What the fuck?" He questioned as I asked.
"What is it?"
Handing me the stethoscope he replied.
"See for yourself. I can't believe it."
Putting it on I did the same thing and listened for his heartbeat. Instantly I knew what happened. There wasn't one. Looking to Gord who stared at me in awe, I took off the stethoscope and asked.
"What do you make of it?"
Instantly Gord replied.
"He's breathing. But he's doesn't have a pulse or a heartbeat. I don't know what to make of it. If we are going by the book then he's dead."
"But he's breathing. How is that possible?" I questioned as he just stared at me. Up till this point I knew more about Raptor then anyone else. But with Gord here I now had a second person to bare witness to what I already knew. Raptor wasn't a normal person. He was something else. As Zeta said it, I doubt he's a demon, but god if he isn't seeming more and more like a living dead. Then I don't know what else to say.
"We need to try and wake him Raze." Stated Gord as I shook my head and replied.
"Not yet. Let him rest for now."
Immediately Gord questioned.
"Raze I've been a doctor for near on twenty years. Not once have I seen something like this. He might have something no one else in the world has. This is a medical discovery if he wakes up. We need to document this." He told me as I nodded.
"Agreed, but right now Raptor went through a lot to get here. Let's give him the night. Then tomorrow we can try and see if we can talk to him. For now tell Juper to come in and watch over him. Let's both get some rest and do this tomorrow morning. Agreed?"
Gord clearly was in the mood to figure this out. I understood more then anyone why he felt that way. I wanted to do the same exact thing. But letting Raptor rest and getting some energy back is far more important then waking him now and seeing if he can move at all. It's not worth it. Seeing that Gord was hesitating I added on.
"If he wakes up tomorrow we can document the whole thing. I agree with you one hundred percent that this right now is important. But letting him rest is more important. We won't get any answers if he can't stay awake for more then a few minutes."
Nodding Gord then replied.
"Okay. I'm going to tell Juper though if he wakes up at some point to come get us. I don't want him leaving this bed beforehand."
"Understood." I replied as we both seemed to agree. With Gord grabbing his rag back he then wondered out loud.
"If Raptor has something special going on it would explain a lot. From the blood leaving his eyes to him not having a pulse. It might be a groundbreaking disease. It has to all link up Raze. Look at him. His quills are coming in but what color are they?" He asked as I looked right at Raptor to reply.
"Black."
Nodding Gord then said.
"Mason showed me some old photos. Raptor is a gray hedgehog with green streaks. There is no reason he should be changing colors this far into his life. I understood he dyed his color to remain undetected to G.U.N back in Pakistan with you guys, but his color is gene related. Whatever is going on with him is something we have yet to see or understand as a species. It's honestly amazing."
"But for him it is probably torture." I stated back as Gord lowered his head. Sensing the mood shifting I then urged.
"I'm going to get Juper in here for the night. Finish cleaning him up then lets get to bed."
"Should we say anything?" Wondered Gord as I calmly replied.
"No. Not till we get some facts. Keep this between us. We can figure it out tomorrow."
Gord nodded and with that I turned to head for the exit. This secret Raptor was hiding was now more important then ever. It was killing me not to tell the world he could be a god. But if things keep going at this pace and he keeps going through all these changes, I won't be able to hide it for much longer. Cause with him there is nothing else out there I can use as an excuse. It just will have to come out in the open. Sooner or later. For better or worse. Only time would tell.
Zeta's POV.
It took some time and some effort but I managed to find a decent spot. This city was massive, but the views were everywhere. I found a nice rooftop near the capital I could get up on. From here I could see everything in all directions. Plus with this view I could enjoy the last of my drink.
Taking the last few gulps of the whiskey down the hatch, I gently gulped and tossed the bottle off the roof. I watched as it tumbled into the wall of a nearby building and shattered on the way down. The sound was nice as I knew at this point I was drunk. Not like I cared ether to be honest.
"Ahhhhh." Laying down on my back to stare at the moon, I wondered what to do. Part of me was ready to just sleep. But being out here was still taking a chance. Regardless of being with the rebellion I could still be tracked down at some point. Being alone is a great chance to get killed. Especially if they catch me like this.
As I laid here for a few minutes I began to get a wicked idea. Sitting up, I reached for my duffel I had brought with me. Inside was my viper venom tablets and the silver case I stole from Raptor's room. Reaching for it I slowly opened it to see three full shots inside waiting for me.
"Ummmm." I mumbled as I took one out to stare at the red liquid within.
Back in training I was introduced to this drug. But I was a chemist at heart. I knew just how to fuck with this kind of stuff. Especially if I wanted to have a good time and not worry about killing myself. Well...maybe I could still die but at least I'd enjoy it. I told myself as I gently took off the needle, just leaving the vial for me to sniff.
The smell reminded me of burning asphalt. Something about that drove me wild inside. To be honest if someone came up to me with this I'd probably lose more then just my cool. The thought of this stuff honestly got me horny. I knew better then anyone what got me off deep down and regardless of how well behaved I've been this far I can't ignore the fact that I'm still a druggy. Running for the past few years trying not to die kinda made me this way. Just an escape. Something to enjoy before I die. It's been at least six months since I did this last. Figure now is a better time then ever to get reacquainted.
Reaching back to my bag, I pulled out a small medkit I kept stocked. Never knew when I'd get hurt on the move. Always good to be ready. Opening the kit up I dumped the venom over into a small pill tray I had. Very carefully I evened out the doses into three good sniffs. With the venom there I then went back into my bag to pull out a small sandwich bag I had tucked on the bottom. Inside was what was left of my cocaine. Gently pouring a gram into each separate tray, I then closed the lid and began to shake them together. The red venom soon turned a brighter shade of pink as I carefully reopened the lid.
"Now all that was left was one of you." I said out loud as I took three of the smaller tablets of venom I had in my black case and began to drop each one into each separate dose. With the tablets quickly floating to the bottom, I then grabbed onto one of my lighters.
"Now to just melt you." I said again to myself as I put the flame right under the tray. It took no more then a few seconds for the tablet to break open and in an instant the pink shade went back to being a darker blood red color. Smiling, I put back down my lighter and prepared myself. Moving my hair to the side and clearing my nose, I took a deep breath and leaned into the first tray. With no regrets I sniffed up the concoction and threw my head back to breathe again.
"Oh fuck!" I muttered as I instantly got hit with the ride. The venom was strong. My whole body went numb in seconds as my head felt like it was on fire. My eyes I could feel went red. It was bound to happen taking this much of a dose regardless of the cocaine. But god damn did the cocaine help ease the burn in my chest and nasal passages.
"Aughhk!" Letting out a powerful cough, I reached up with my right hand to catch the blood leaving my mouth. I could taste it on my tongue at this point and without another word I held my breath and closed my eyes to lower my head down in between my legs. Using my arms and knees to squeeze my head together, I could feel my whole body coming around. From being numb the feeling of lightheartedness came as fast as the burn left. But I had to keep squeezing, it helped with the contractions in my brain. The venom and coke made a mean speedball. I haven't had something this good since I last saw Decor. God that guy knew how to make a powerful batch of acid. I wonder if he is still around? I thought to myself as I opened my eyes to stare into my crotch.
"Ohhhhh fuck." I moaned as I knew this feeling coming up better then the back of my hand. This shit drove my hormones crazy. God I wish Raptor or even Raze was here right now. I might lose my mind just thinking about the fun I would have.
Lifting up my head, I took a deep breath and tried to keep calm to the feeling of weightlessness I now had going on in my mind. For some reason the first thing I thought about what Raptor. What I saw. At this moment I wanted answers. I wanted to talk to him. Just ask him how he was. God before all this I couldn't help but be scared. I need to be better about being controlled. But god damn it if I didn't think I was starting to believe I actually loved him. He was perfect. A combat savage and a man that doesn't give two shits about what the world thinks of him. He just goes out of his way and does whatever he wants to prove he knows best. He was wild. Like me. But beyond that he was a god. Or maybe a demon. I don't care anymore. It was crazy to think about. Knowing only Raze and I knew this about him. What was also starting to make me wet deep down was knowing he completely abused and controlled me that night. I've been waiting so long to find a guy who can dominate me. God damn it I knew I was the best. I had to get a demon or some god to fuck me just to find my match. God damn it I wish he was here now.
"FUCK!" I screamed as I was going wild. This drug made me so horny. But I knew I was hiding this from them. Raze knew somewhat but Raptor thinks I'm a good girl. God if he only was here now. He'd think differently. I wonder if he would join me and try this shit?
Looking to the remaining two shots, I debated about taking another. I knew I could handle it, but I wanted to see an answer to that question come. Shutting the tray, I placed it back in my bag and now focused on my urges.
Running my hands down my chest, I shut my eyes and played with my boobs. I wasn't going to leave this roof without doing something to tame my urges. Licking my lips as I ran them down to my crotch, I bit my lip gently and began to play with the button to my pants. Before going further, I suddenly switched focus on what that demon told me. He said he could find Pepper. I wonder how? I really want to know. I was so scared he died because I knew if he did I wouldn't be able to have any sort of chance of locating her. But since he's okay and I knew it, I was going to at least start thinking about the future. I wonder if she's changed. I wonder if she would try to take Raptor from me if we did bring her back from whatever hole she's hiding in. I wonder if I would actually try to stop her. Even though I haven't seen her in so long I still knew some things about her that might not have changed. I knew she would get off on the idea of stealing my guy. It's always been nothing but fact to me that Pepper was the better looking wolf in the family. I also knew she knew. That's why she's always been tossing her weight around. Not saying I'm bad looking or nothing. I catch the looks people shoot me. Especially now. I just never had the open confidence she had all her life. I only feel confident around people I know like me that way. Kinda why it's easy to be that way in front of Raze and Raptor. I knew they didn't care. They just loved me for who I was. Which also led me to my last thought. Does he love me?
The question was the only thing on my mind as I even had to ask myself if I felt the same way. Up till now I never really thought about it. Maybe I did love him. Or maybe I didn't. God I don't know anything right now with all this. Being drunk and fucked up as shit doesn't help ether.
"Ohhhhh god." I moaned as I felt my hand hit my crotch at last. My pants were the only barrier that remained as I thought about what to do after this. I think I'll go back.
Undoing my top button, I gently sat up and pulled my pants down just enough to give me room to work with. I needed this. Next time I get the chance, be it with Raze or him. I'll be sure to start showing my love a little bit more. God knows both of them could use it at this point. With Raze working nonstop and Raptor...well being whatever the fuck he is.
Letting out a small giggle I inserted a finger and let out a soft moan. With my eyes going up to the moon above. I bit my lower lip and just thought about the one thing I've been ignoring for such a long time.
Just being alive. Just being me.
Raptor's POV. Three hours later.
Opening my eyes I sat up and looked to my side. Juper was there sitting in a small chair. His head looking down at the floor as I couldn't help but feel wide awake. Sending both my legs off the side of the bed, I took a moment to look at Juper. I could see him perfectly. Whatever happened to my eyes clearly had stopped. Placing my right hand on my face, I took a breath and then let it fall back down my lap.
"Braf!" Looking to my left was Molly. She was at the end of the bed and even though she was curled up she took immediate notice to me out of bed. Going back to Juper who was asleep, I refocused on myself. For some reason my body felt weightless. As if there was zero strain on my muscles. Not one ache or pain. Not one bit of discomfort.
Reaching down to pull up on my pant leg, I stared at where my stitching had been. But resting eyes on it I saw it was gone. Guess my body went into overdrive and just healed it all. Cause reaching back up for my chest I felt those gone too. I didn't even have to look under the shirt to know those stitches no longer existed. It just felt like everything wrong with me had been reverted. Like my body was new and fresh. Like nothing ever happened. And for some reason I felt the sudden urge to exert. Like I wanted to hit someone. Or at the least do something to kill some of the power I felt like my body now possessed. I felt like I was twenty five again. Or maybe I felt better. What happened to me? I wondered as I stood up. The instant my boots hit the ground Juper jumped in his seat to shout.
"I was just...?!" I stood right in front of him as he stood up out of his panic. His eyes and mind clearly understood that I wasn't Raze or Pierce who probably would kill him if he was caught sleeping on the job. But as our eyes locked he said.
"Jesus Raptor you...?" His eyes instantly widened as he stopped his sentence just to stare at me.
I didn't show any sign of wondering why he stopped. Slowly I just walked to the bathroom to look into the mirror. Juper who was stunned silent by the bed just watched as I looked at myself. More importantly my eyes.
"Hmmm?" Letting a small mumble pass under my lips, I leaned in to stare at them. My hazel color was gone. The one I lived my life with. Now they were nothing but two dark purple orbs. The pupil was black still but they had turned into something more. You could see it clear as day. The circle was now slightly smaller and covering it was a thin film of white. It wasn't bright white. It was more like smoke. It was hard to see unless you were actually trying to focus on it. But it was there. Juper who remained by the bed slowly asked and with caution to his voice.
"How do you feel?"
I couldn't stop from looking into the mirror as I gathered a response. Juper carefully began to walk towards me. I didn't even have to look at him to sense it. The feeling was abnormal. I could sense a lot of things now that my focus was on it. Closing my eyes, I looked down at the sink. Juper slowly said my name in worry.
"Raptor?"
With my focus spanning more then just this room, I could sense others. Someone was walking in the hallway just outside the door and just further I could sense Tusk still in bed. He was sleeping. With the sound of Juper getting really close, I instantly reopened my eyes to look left at him. The hedgehog stopped immediately and jumped as I stared at him directly. I could see he was scared. Pushing up off the sink, I turned my body to him to finally reply.
"I'm good."
"Your eyes?" He questioned as I felt this urge of power. Something had happened for sure when I passed out. Was this what Marcus said would happen? Cause the way I see it I'm turning more into him each time I wake up. With Juper waiting for an answer I replied.
"There fine. I can see."
I knew that wasn't what he meant but he wasn't about to ask again. I felt his emotion clear as day. He was to the core shook. Walking passed him I asked.
"What happened? How long was I out for?"
Juper had to take a moment to recover, but replied with a soft tone.
"Three hours or so. Everyone is ether out still helping with the city cleanup or they went to bed.
"Where's Zeta?" I then asked as I looked at the wall close to the door. Juper was watching me closely as I followed with my eyes as I could sense that person walking back our way down the hall. With each step they took I continued to follow as Juper just said with care.
"She came back not that long ago. She went right to bed."
This power was amazing. With the unknown person leaving medical, I shifted focus back on my body. In a sudden urge to move; I began to do slow jumps in place. Juper who watched went silent as I soon stopped my movement to ask.
"Why are you here?"
Looking back to him, I saw his whole facial expression change as he looked to see my eyes again. Caught on his own thoughts, Juper recovered after a second to reply.
"Raze and Gord wanted me to watch you just in case something happened. They also wanted me to wake them when you got up." He stated carefully as I quickly ordered.
"I'm fine. Go get some rest."
Juper was stuck in a weird spot. He was scared and confused on how or what to say. I could feel all this while I watched him. This had to be how Marcus always knew what I was feeling when he came to see me. It made perfect sense now to me.
In time Juper replied.
"But sir shouldn't we at least get you looked at?"
"No. I'm fine. I promise."
Turning to open the door, I got back from the hedgehog.
"Where are you going?"
In an instant Molly got off the bed to run for me. Juper who waited for an answer stood there by the bathroom as I replied with Molly at my feet.
"I need to find someone. I'll be back in a few hours."
As I went to walk Juper broke into a sprint to get out in front of me. Utterly lost he questioned.
"You just woke up! And it's late as fuck"
"This needs to happen. Regardless of what time it is; I'm awake and I want to do this now. So do us both a favor Juper and move."
The kid was scared but he had balls. He wouldn't budge as I saw he was trying to think of a response. Quickly shifting my mindset, I said with a calm tone.
"Or come with me. Ether way I'm going."
"To do what?" He asked back as I quickly replied.
"You have a choice Juper. Move and leave this to me or come with. Depending on what you decide to do will tell me just what kind of guy you are. What's it going to be?" I asked him as I walked by him. The kid was left in utter confusion as I was creating distance. Not to my surprise he soon ran for me to reply.
"It's my job to watch you. You already died once. I'm not letting you go alone for it to happen again."
Cracking a smile as I kept walking I then ordered.
"Then shut up for now and wait till we're on the road. I'll tell you what's going on when we're out of here."
"Yes sir." He replied as I was learning so much now about him. Even though he was scared he still didn't question me. He was putting trust in me and himself to do this. I'm sure Pierce didn't give him orders to follow me. This was his choice to make and the next few minutes would show me just how loyal he was.
mT Shadow.