Chapter 2

I glance down at the beautiful ring on my left hand finger before glancing down at the new and just as beautiful, if not more because it looked like it was made for just for her ring on my best friend's finger and wonder if her ring felt the same as mind did.

Heavy.

Doubt it.

She wants to flaunt her ring. She wants to flaunt it to the world. She gets to marry the love of her life and she is happy there is proof of it on her finger.

"So when do we get to start the wedding planning?" I ask making a huge grin come to my best friend's face that makes her take her attention off of my son to me. I remind myself I'm happy for her. I really am. She waited for this moment since before the two were official and now she finally got it. My uncle, the smart man he is, he made them wait until the timing was perfect. He wanted the two to do things the proper way which always felt like a slap to my face even though it wasn't suppose to be. My best friend and uncle were doing things the proper way while I sat back and made a mess out of not only my life but unfortunately my children's lives but I cleaned that mess up and did the right thing. I got married to a great man who loves me and my children. Did I get married for love? Not for a second. At least not the kind of love you get married for. You know the kind where my heart skips a beat at the thought of him or where you see the light in my eyes at his appearance or where I want to rip his clothes off and show him how much I love him? No. It's not that kind of love. But there is love. We love each other and we are making things work but deep down I knew I was still holding on to the past and it was making me hold back. I'm not married to the man I always thought I would be married to and couldn't help but wonder if what I had was enough for forever or if it was going to blow up in my face and if it did I don't even want to think of the mess it is going to make out of my life and more importantly my boys.

"Soon" she answers, glancing down at her ring, "Josh and I were thinking of a New Year's eve wedding at the ski lodge."

Her answer made me raise my eyebrows and she must of notice my doubts at the sound of their plans because she continues.

"I think it would be romantic to go to Mount Sun Lodge and have a really intimated winter wedding with just close family and friends and make it a little weekend getaway with everyone."

I nod. "It is a cute idea" I agree on second thought. I could envision my best friend in a long sleeve lace wedding dress that showed off her curves in a cabin in the woods as the snow fell and she said "I do". "You do realize New Year's Eve is just around the corner?"

"I know" she nods without a care in the world.

"Do you think you have enough time?" I continue wondering why she wasn't more stress about how much time she has to toss together a wedding.

She nods again but this time with a huge smile. "I'm not worry. I'm sure everything is going to be perfect because I'm marrying my Boing."

I couldn't help but roll my eyes at her pet name for my uncle.

"Look at who just showed up"

I look over in the direction she is nodding her head and see Farkle glancing through the crowd looking for us. I watch as my best friend waves catching his attention. I swallow hard knowing I have put my mask on and pretend. I smile huge when he takes his seat next to me and kisses my cheek. I keep the best fake smile on when he laces our fingers together.

I could feel Maya's eyes on me and I just know she is on to me.

Please don't be a silent reader.