Chapter 4(Riley)

The wedding weekend was finally here. We arrived to the lodge late last night and spent today getting last minute wedding decoration prepared for the big day. Thankfully, my parents kept the boy in their rooms so I could rest before the big day.

I smile feeling my husband get in to bed next to me and pulling me close to him. I tilt my head giving him better access to my neck.

"With the New Year coming soon and Maya and Josh starting their new beginning as husband and wife I was thinking we could start a new beginning too."

I freeze. What did he mean a new beginning too?

"I was thinking next year would be the perfect timing to bring a new life in to the world. I know you always wanted a little girl so what if start trying to bring one in to the world?"

I take in deep breaths. "You want to have a baby?" I ask making him give me a huge smile.

"I do"

I return his smile.

"I know it may take time to get pregnant and then we have to wait the nine months for a baby. Jacob will be at least two."

I nod.

"I think it's time we try to have a baby."

I hate myself for nodding again and being the one to lean in for a kiss and letting him ravish my body. I pray we wouldn't be successful at making a baby.

I need a breather. Time to think. As soon as I heard Farkle's light snores I was out the door. I walk down the stairs to the lobby surprised to my uncle sitting at the bay window watching the snow come down. "Shouldn't be in your room with your soon to be bride?" I ask catching his attention.

He gave me a bright smile. "We actually have separate rooms tonight" he answered shocking me. Maya never mentioned wanting to do things the traditional way. "Something about I shouldn't see the bride on our wedding day."

"I'm surprised Maya is sticking to that tradition" I chuckle.

"It was me who put it out there because I know Maya wants it to be traditional even though she wants everyone else to think she doesn't care about traditions"

"That's why you are the perfect husband for her"

He smiles looking back out at the beautiful large flakes that was still falling from the sky. "You know Riles, no one will be mad if you walk away"

"What?" I frown

"I'm not blind. Maya's not blind. I'm sure everyone in our family is not blind. We all can see it"

I shake my head "I don't know what you are talking about"

"Riley" Josh sighs.

"Josh" I say back using the same tone.

"You're not happy in your marriage" he continues as if he didn't hear me. "You can walk away and no one will judge. In fact, we all will be here like we were when you left Lucas-"

I had enough. There was no way I was going to ruin the family my boys deserved and I wasn't going to let anyone talk me in to it or talk bad about it. "For your information, Farkle and I are happy. In fact, we are so happy we are trying to have a baby so take that fact and let Maya know you and her are both wrong. Stay out my business" I fire at my uncle. I know I'm wrong all around. I'm wrong about us being happy. I'm a horrible person even thinking about bringing a baby in to the world with a man I'm not in love with but just maybe the more I thought about as I walk back up the stairs to my husband. Maybe, a baby is our answer to everything. Maybe having Farkle's baby would be what makes me fall in love.

Please R&R. Thank you.