I know most of you are disappointed in Riley and probably will keep being disappointed in her. Riley is about to take you on an up and down emotional battle until she hits rock bottom and has to climb her way back on top. Don't worry, Joshaya will not be cheating on each other. This is my longest chapter yet! Please R&R.

Chapter 7(Riley)

Today was a holiday I love to hate. Valentine's day. Everyone who is in love loves to make a big deal out of it so I was going to too. Since I made the mistake, I was doing everything in my power to be the best wife I could be to Farkle. Like right now I sent the kids to my parents for the night and was making him one of his favorite meals and desserts and planned on surprising him at his work since he was working late tonight.

"Knock. Knock."

"Who's there?" I joke at the sound of my best friend coming in to my home.

The newlywed grins as she flops down at the table and taking a banana out of the fruit bowl and eating a few bites before putting it down with distaste written on her face. I frown but go back to my task at hand.

"Shouldn't you be with your husband? Today is Valentine's Day and his birthday" I ask, putting the finishing touches on my husband's favorite dessert. I look up when she doesn't answer and see her looking miles away. "Maya?"

"I'm going to be. We are just having a simple Valentine's Day at home and we are going to celebrate his birthday this weekend but I told him I had an errand to run. He told me it's fine and take my time. He has the wine and is starting dinner at home and will be waiting for me to get home. I'm running late...I'm late"

"But he knows" I shake my head looking over at my best friend and the sirens go off of why my best friend looks like she is on a different planet. She has one reason about being late. "Ohh, by late, you mean your late with a...honeymoon baby?"

"More like wedding night baby" she laughs and instantly back on the planet with me, taking out one of the pregnancy tests from the plastic bag I failed to notice until now.

"Are you sure you don't want to go home and take the test with Josh?" I ask. I know the results was going to change both of their worlds but Josh would be excited to be having a baby. The two were married and more than ready to have a baby. I turn off the stove and remove the pan so my best friend can have my full on attention.

"I'm sure" she nods. "I want to surprise him with it tonight if I am but I need to make sure first because I don't want to tell Josh and give him false hope if it's negative"

I nod "Go do your business" I urge her, smiling as we both hurry up to the master bedroom's bathroom.

I patiently wait for my best friend and my mind goes back to Maya's wedding day and to my mistake with Lucas. I shake it off as my best friend comes out with tears in her eyes and smile on her face. I get up and hug her. "I'm so happy for you two" I say because I was. I may be deep down jealous of my uncle and best friend and wish I had what they had more than anything but I was happy for my best friend.

"Thank you" she pulled away. "We will have to talk about this more later?"

"You should get home to your husband" I tell her, knowing Josh is at home waiting for her.

She nods and glances around my bedroom. "Where is Farkle? Why isn't he home?" she asks almost like it just hit her he wasn't there and I was home alone.

"He is working late" I answer and I can see the questioning in her eyes.

"On Valentine's Day?"

"Yes on Valentine's Day"

"Does he work late a lot?"

"He gets busy and he has hours he has to make up because of Liam being in sports. It's no biggie" I shrug even though her blue eyes narrow in more. "I'm going to surprise him with dinner and dessert tonight"

She shakes her head and sighs, "Riles. Something is going on. I've felt this way for a while and I know something is off. Riley if something is wrong-"

My mind flashes to me and Lucas in the heat of the moment and I start to rub my temples and I couldn't let her break down my walls and confess when I was trying so painfully hard to hold them up."Don't!" I yell at my best friend, surprising her. "You and even Josh keep questioning my marriage! Which means you said something to him! Do I ever question your marriage? Your relationship? You and Josh pretend to be this happily married we did everything right couple but don't think I forgot about the abortion you had a couple of years ago" I threw in my best friend's face no matter how wrong I knew it was. She was the one pushing me to the edge when she shouldn't and I could only take so much and right now I was holding on for dear life not to fall. I was hurting and because of it I wanted her to hurt too. I wanted her to see her relationship wasn't perfect and she could be just as easily judged too. "Do I judge you on that? Do I judge the fact you should be having your second baby right now and not your first?"

My best friends shakes her head with wide teary eyes. I can see I succeed in hurting her because the hurt was written all over her at my outburst but seeing her hurt doesn't make me feel any better.

"I didn't have an abortion, Riley" Maya murmurs, swallowing.

She sends chills down my spine with those words. What does she mean she didn't have an abortion? She told me she did a short time later after telling me she was pregnant. I was there for the aftermath and held her through her heartbreak of making the hard decision she made.

"I had a miscarriage" she chokes out her confession. "But pretending I chose to end the pregnancy was easier for me to move on than knowing my baby chose to end itself on me. Did you ever think about why I would come to you after and not before I had an abortion? The pain you saw was me in was the pain after my baby decided it was time to end its life. Not me choosing to"

I felt regret as I watch my tears roll down my best friend's cheeks and the heartache written on her face. Just moments ago she had happy tears and now they were painful tears all because of me. She should be celebrating the new life she was going to bring in to the world not mourning the one she loss.

"How dare you throw that up to me? I was only trying to help you but I can see where I'm not needed"

I feel my own tears come down my cheeks as I watch my best friend gather her things before walking away. I knew I messed up and would have to find away to get her to forgive me. If she ever will. I start to clean up the boxes and pregnancy test and noticed she left one test unopened. I quickly put the test in a safe place. My best friend wasn't the only one who needed answers but right now I needed to clean myself up and get to my husband. I packed up our dinner and dessert and make my way to his office.

I smile and yell out surprise as I open his office door. I can see I surprised him and my heart drop at a beautiful raven hair girl sitting on his desk.

"Riles, what are you doing here?" he asks nervously.

"I came to surprise you" I answer, holding up our dinner but my eyes on the girl.

"Oh, let me help you with that," he stands up and comes over taking our dinner out of my hand and gives me a quick kiss.

"I should go"

The other woman says.

Farkle nods "I'll see you tomorrow"

I return her smile as she walks pass me. "Who was that?" I ask after shutting his office door and he begins to set up our dinner.

He tries to play it cool as he answers but I can tell he is shaken up by my surprise visit, "Oh, that's just one of our new partners. Her name is Isadora Smackle."

Isadora Smackle, I repeat in my head and I know I'm in trouble and in for a long fight.