Sorry that I haven't written another chapter sooner, i have decided that i'm going to be working on other things in RL too but!
I had a review that asked for a weekend treat and another chapter so here is the next chapter.
Unfortunately i don't know when I will be writing another one so i do apologise for the time between chapters but i do hope you enjoy this one and thank you for your patience.
For those who will probably want to know what happened in Syria, i can promise that there will be a flashback chapter but that one will probably take longer to write!
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"Brains and Fingers were badly hurt and it's touch and go right now" it seemed to repeat in her head as they headed towards the hospital that they were in. It wasn't the first time that she had sat in a car travelling to a hospital were her team mates were in. Only last time it had been Charles and Smurf.
They had headed in and found out as much as they could and then it was just the waiting game.
Molly spent her time between the two rooms and she honestly hoped that they would be alright. The last thing she wanted to do was go to the funerals of two of the guys that had been her friends since Afghan.
A few hours later and Charles had brought her a cup of tea, the hospital tea was pretty grim unfortunately but at least she had something in her hands that would keep them still for a little while. He sat down in the chair beside her and looked towards the window that looked into Fingers' room and he wasn't sure what he really felt especially when he had survived and yet two of his team were lying in hospital beds and they weren't sure if they would actually get any better.
"What happened out there?" Molly asked after a moment but her eyes were down looking at her hands and the tea that she had in one of them.
Charles was quiet for a moment before he looked over at her "I don't really know" he said but cleared his throat. He looked away from her before taking a sip of his coffee.
Molly looked over at him at that moment and pushed her eyebrows together because how could he not know what had happened out there. When she came back from Afghan it was literally all she could think about and it had got her in such a state that talking about it to someone who wasn't in the Army was difficult, trying to make her mother understand just what she had gone through was hard and she knew that Belinda wouldn't understand even if the poor woman tried.
She felt like he was hiding something from her and yet Molly knew that she couldn't get him to tell her if he didn't want too. Molly felt like he was pulling away from her even if he had got her a cuppa and had sat with her for all of those hours but it still felt like he wasn't completely here.
"I'm going to stretch my legs" Molly said after a moment before getting up and walking down the corridor anyway without Charles even saying anything.
His eyes followed her down the corridor away from him and there was a voice in his head that was playing over and over again and that belonged to Bones, a voice that he heard every time he had been in her presence. "She never told me the name of the guy but i knew that she had been hurt; for Christ sake stop putting her through so much"
Charles hated thinking this but maybe Bones had been right, maybe he needed to stop hurting Molly. There was only one way in which he could do that.
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Molly came to a stop outside and she sat down on a bench, the same one she had sat down on before and then sighed to herself as she dug into her pocket and grabbed out her mobile. She rang up to find out how Adam was and promised that she would be back home later but it could be late. Elizabeth had told her that Adam could stay with them for the night so that she didn't have to worry about that and she felt really bad about being away from her son. More than anything she just wanted to get back home to him.
She put her mobile back into her pocket and was about to get up when a familiar face came walking up to her and she gave him a soft smile.
"How are Brains and Fingers?" Elvis asked and looked over at Molly who honestly looked glum.
"No change" she admitted before playing with her empty tea cup. More than anything it felt like everything was going against them. Molly knew that she had been in this same position years ago but more than anything she wanted them to be okay, it was a long road from here especially with getting back to the Army but their families who were both in with them would want them to wake up.
Elvis frowned a little before looking away and watching as a red car was parking up. "Hows Charlie?" he asked and looked back at her.
Molly sighed, she wasn't sure how he was because he just kept everything from her. "I don't know" she admitted before bringing her eyes up to look over at him. "What happened over there Elvis? I mean you had first hand account of what happened out there"
Elvis watched her for a moment and knew just what it was that she was on about but knew that it wasn't any of his own business, Charlie would probably have a go at him rather than pat him on the back thanking him for his involvement. "It's nothing to do with me Molly, I only went out there to find him and the team to bring them back home and I did that" he nodded at her.
She went to open her mouth when her phone pinged and she got it out of her pocket. The message was from Charles.
"Brains is awake" Molly spoke before looking over at Elvis who looked just as relieved as she felt. She stood up and waited as Elvis did too before walking back into the hospital, putting her empty cup into the bin as she did so.
When they got to where Brains was they saw Charles was looking in through the window and as Molly came to the window she to saw that Brains was coming around and she was so glad about that. Now they needed Fingers to come around. Brains was getting a kiss on the forehead from his mother and Molly couldn't help but smile softly at that. He would probably be confused and a groggy for a little while but at least he was finally awake.
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Due to the fact that it could be a while for Brains to wake up properly Molly and Charles decided that they were going to head back with the promise that Brains' parents would let him know that they were there; they promised they would so the two of them left.
They were on the motorway when Molly finally decided to bring up what she had been asking him earlier. "Why are you pretending that you don't remember?" she asked and glanced over at him.
Charles kept his eyes on the road but he knew what she was talking about especially when he knew that she had seen how tense he had been when she asked the first time what he remembered. "Not everything is worth remembering" he said after a moment and knew that he should tell her the truth but honestly he was tired and just wanted to get to his own bed. He might ask if he can stay on base near her for the night because there was no way he was going to be able to drive any further than that.
But the truth was that there was just so much that he was guilty for. Not listening when they were told to get out of the area before the strikes started, for Fingers and Brains getting hurt and now laying in the hospital. For hurting Molly all those years when he didn't fight hard enough to keep her.
Now he wanted so badly to keep her, he wanted to be the man that she loved again but there was always the fear that he would lose her. When she had been taken in Sierra Leone he knew that he would fight so damn hard to get her back and then they did get her back he found out about Adam and his mother tried to come in between them once more. Then he was sent into Syria and almost didn't make it back to her. He didn't want to keep doing this.
Molly took that and she looked out the window at the cars that passed them and really wished she could snap him out of it.
The silence stayed with them all the way back to her place. Which was a long way from the hospital.
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When they got back Charles turned the car off but kept his eyes forward; the silence was so thick that he wasn't sure if he should say anything or not.
He slowly moved his eyes away from the window and over to her, she was beautiful and more than anything he wanted to be able to go home to her but at the end of the day they were still separated even if they did have Adam. Charles moved his hand away from the steering wheel and put it against her cheek and let his thumb caress the skin there. It was still just as soft as it had been earlier when he had pulled her into the kiss with his hands on her cheeks. "I've been thinking" he said after a moment.
"Oh dear, that's dangerous" she said as a joke to just lighten the moment before she looked over at him, a small smile pulling at her lips.
"Well my teachers did say that if i had half a brain i would be dangerous" he replied back to her with a small smile too.
A memory pulled at her mind of them when she had said that before and it had been so much more simple back then but now everything seemed to be so complicated.
"What have you been thinking about?" Molly asked this time and her eyes watched him.
"I'm thinking about leaving the Army"
Molly's mouth fell open at that before she closed it back up and then finally managed to speak "Why?" she hadn't expected that at all and now that she had heard it she wasn't sure whether or not she was dreaming.
"Because I'm tired of leaving you and having things like this happen most of the time. I want to be your husband and a father to Adam and I don't want you to always wonder if i'm going to come home. I love you Molly whether you are Dawes or James I just want to be with you"
Molly listened to it and found that her heart was pounding hard in her chest and she watched him. "You don't have to leave the Army to be with me" she hadn't wanted him to leave the Army.
"I know but I would eventually leave so why not make it now" he said with a soft smile at her.
"So, what do you say?" he asked her "Do you want to get married again?"
"I.." she started.