Ahsoka had just descended the final steps of the jedi temple, never looking back. Tears flooded her bright blue eyes as she recalled the recent betrayal of everyone she once considered family, as much as she didn't want to admit it to herself, it hurt.
But to stay strong she knew she had to walk this path alone, find her own way of life in a world which was ripping apart at the seams from the corruption that had rooted itself deep into the republic.
One thing she had picked up on was to let go, and trust no one, because the betrayal would cut deeper than any knife could.
For the first time in all her life, Ahsoka Tano felt empty and without a purpose, like a void had formed in her soul, and with it erased any sense of serenity she had ever known.
Determination she once felt has been replaced by a searing hot pain in her chest that made her wonder what the point of breathing even was anymore. Over time, her insecurities have grown and begun to fill the void.
1 day later..
With no financial support from the jedi, she had to find a way to make a living. What a better way to start than Dex's diner. She used a mind trick on the Taxi driver to get to there. When she was there, she took a job interview for waitress and was accepted for the job, explaining her case to the friendly Besalisk who offered her a place to stay on his couch for a week.
As the days dragged by, she felt empty without all the adrenaline of fighting and decided to make plans, staying as a waitress wasn't her piece of cake and she knew exactly the job which would suit her needs and create a more stable type of income.
For now, she would work at this place until the 3 month contract was up, in 3 days she would have enough to start renting, the low wage will be enough to get her settled into an apartment on level 1213. For the trip to the surface, she would push her luck into using a mind trick on the driver, that way, she could gather up enough money for a blaster and cloak in time to start bounty hunting.
5 days after leaving the jedi...
Ahsoka was working her normal 12AM - 11 PM shift, she made sure she worked long hours because it kept her mind off of the jedi, and extinguished any thoughts of regret about leaving the order.
Currently, it is 10 PM, people dont normally come to the diner at this time, as it closes at 11. Dex could sympathise with Ahsoka's current state of mind, and offered her some Jawa Juice, which she politely accepted.
Nowadays, it was obvious to Dex that Ahsoka was very troubled, so he allowed her to drink on the job to help her cope, he knew better than anyone the look of a fake smile, he remembered watching the biased trial on the bombing on the temple on holovid, and the poor teen was shook to the core.
Ahsoka's POV
She looked around the diner, with her pint of jawa juice in hand, she noted how there was only 2 occupied tables, tonight was a very quiet night at the diner.
She was wearing a blue shirt, and some skinny black jeans, which was presentable enough for the role of a waitress.
Dex was standing behind the counter, as there was no pending meals to cook, for no one had walked through the door in over an hour.
He gestured for her to take a seat at one of the tables, so she shuffled over, sipped the jawa juice and placed it on the table. She sighed and slouched forward, her hands rested awkwardly on the table and her back brushed against the seat. Nowadays, ahsoka found it easier than she expected to get drunk, one pint found itself double into two, three then four.
By lock up time, she was practically swaying, her thoughts kept thinking about the jedi, who forced her down this path. She found herself time and time again blaming the jedi for leaving her without a decent life. As Dex closed the door behind him, keys in hand, he bid her to have a good weekend, and advised her to get some rest, because she looked a bit hammered, the two parted ways and Ahsoka went to the Taxi pad, as she climbed into the taxi, she realised she wasn't in a state to do a mind trick on the driver.
She pulled some credits out of her pocket and gave them to the driver, she was contemplating going straight home to her apartment, but instincts told her to she wanted to curse at the jedi temple from a distance, so she opened her mouth, and said "Take me to the 500 republica".
The driver sped off the platform, and to the distant building on the horizon. To her left she could make out the silhouette of the jedi temple, in front of the setting sun and she cursed under her breath.
The Taxi lowered itself onto the landing pad, and Ahsoka climbed out, she swayed towards the pavement and collapsed next to the bin, where she sat and wallowed in her own self pity, mumbling to herself incoherent sentances.
Her lack of self control had her almost screaming, she stared at the jedi temple, stuck her middle finger directly up at the building and screamed " FUCK YOU!". All the once restrained emotions a jedi wasn't allowed to show all came out at once in a turmoil or anger, despair, hate and pain.
Her inner conscience kept speaking to her, telling herself she was a failure, pathetic and worthless, she felt like she wanted to climb up to the roof of the building and leap off.
With one last bit of energy she gazed at the temple, and threw an empty beer can at the horizon, envisioning it crushing the temple and she screamed one last time, "FUCK ALL OF YOU!"