The chapter's going up a day early cause ya girl has work and exams tomorrow! Enjoy the thing that emotions do when they get too much in this installment of: "Taani telling us exactly how bad we fucked up and how much we are NOT at fault, even though we are."
Dear Bhai
I know that no one saw this coming. Everything over the last year has happened so fast that I'm still unable to wrap my head around it. I've attached two letters to this one bhai- one for Rey and one for the team. Please make sure they get these.
Bhai, I have no words to describe how lucky I feel that you are my brother. We may not be related by blood, but you've fulfilled every responsibility as if we were. You've been my protector, my savior, my confidante, and the big brother I always wanted. When you first left home and decided to attend college in a different state instead of the one close to home, I thought I would lose you to the glitz and glam of the city and our bond would weaken over time. When I finally got the opportunity to attend St. Louis with you, I thought that tauji would never let me out of the house! After all, a young girl, the first girl in the family to be accepted into such a prestigious college! But he allowed me to attend because he trusted that you, as his son, would take care of me.
I know it wasn't easy to be a brother, a parent, and a mediator when you had all this sprung on you, but what can I say? I have the best big brother in the world, and he has never let me down. I know you and I have had our ups and downs too. You've been so torn between defending me as your sister to the whole team but also supporting your team when facing Taani, the student body president. Bhai, I don't blame you one iota for anything you said during those days. You taught me valuable life lessons, just as an older brother should. The most important thing I learned from you was how to look at situations practically, and think with my head, not the heart. Yes, family is important, but what needs to be done, must be done.
I'm sorry that I left without so much as a goodbye, but it got too much for me. Everyone will call me weak for running, and maybe I am, but you know what? That's okay. Because those who matter know the reality of this situation and that's enough. I know Rey is your best friend and pretty much family when it comes down to it, which is why I'd rather leave than make things worse between you guys. You and I are a family, and always will be but the loyalty that Rey has for you is hard to come by in someone who isn't related to you in this day and age. Never blame him for what happened between us. He made some mistakes, and I made some mistakes. Neither of us is blameless. But both of us have to try and move on.
And just like we have to move on, you need to resolve your issues with Sharon bhabhi. I know that compared to you guys, I'm still a novice when it comes to love, relationships, and heartbreak. But bhai, what you and Sharon have? It's so pure. You both radiate love when you guys are around each other. You get lost in each other and everything and everyone around you seems to disappear. All I want is for this love to blossom and for you to make her my bhabhi as soon as you're done with college (and no arguments! I know you guys have been dating for months, trying not to let anyone find out. But I'm your sister, you couldn't possibly expect to hide it from me for long). No ifs or buts about it, only Sharon is allowed to be Taani's bhabhi or I'm going to tell taiji not to let you back in the house.
One last thing bhai, I have handed in my resignation for my post. Please help Rey select a better AGS. He doesn't need more conflict and another person challenging him at every turn.
Please take care of yourself, bhabhi and Rey. Hold the team together bhai. They'll look to you for guidance.
Love,
Taani