"Trust is like a flower. In this planet, it is a beautiful and precious thing meant to be respected. Trust needs to be planted and taken care of to grow, just like a flower. However, this unusual flower is more difficult to break. People believe it's easy, but it's not for people who have a caring heart. Not for those with the perception that everybody has to choose from a good side or a bad side when making decisions, and that's true. The loyalty of someone who wants to believe in you is hard to lose because they constantly forgive you. But, like any plant, it will slowly and dreadfully wither until, at last, it can no longer bear it and die."
~ Cora N Harris
Preface of Blue Moon
I have learned to trust, love, live, and be happier with my life every day since I acquired a new family. I learned a lot of new stuff from them, right? And more than that, too. Yet, I feel far away from you no matter how much we talk. I'm not learning much from you, except how to get away from you. I'm not sure why that is. I didn't do that until you started telling me what I ought to do. You have pushed me to become everything I wanted to become. But you took whatever I wanted to figure out for myself. You did all this by lying to me ... by murdering me ...
I had forgotten what the sensation of pain was like. I had forgotten what the pain of loss was like. I had forgotten grandma's advice that told me, "Never forget that at any moment everything could be stripped away." I still braced myself for the day when something would be taken away from me. I have long forgotten how to deal with these horrors or how to respond to them. I got so used to thinking I was all right that I became ... all right ... Uh, with him. Now, again, I broke into little pieces, and this time nobody was there to help me.
Note to self : A deceitful person doesn't care how they hurt or even kill people… They only care if they benefit from it. Only when they are the ones to die, because of their lies, do they care. Why do you think lying is the best method of defense if it causes you, or a billion others, to die? Lying is never the shield of security that guards anybody — not even you. It's just because you're too lazy to deal with the labor or consequences that you get to tell the truth. Were you conscious that lying just makes things even worse? I'm pissed you're an idiot! Don't worry. I still love you… But, let's see if your lies help you, or destroy you.