Remi

Late August, I hardly slept at night. The day dawned rainy and windy so much that I can hear the noise through the cracks in the window of the old house where we live. We moved again last month, I don't even know how many times we did it in the last year. The city is small and the neighborhood doesn't seem to be very interested in us, so it is easier to take our life in our strange way. My belly is really big and I feel like it won't be long before the baby is born, I have been in some pain since yesterday. I wanted to run away to have the baby away from Ellen, but I just don't know how far I could go, if I could only count on Roman, but I don't want to put that responsibility in his hands. When the baby is older, I find a way to go to a distant place where I can take care of our life alone.

A sharp twinge in my belly takes me out of my reverie. I am used to feeling pain, because there have been times when I inflicted pain on myself in an attempt to forget something that bothered me or also as a way to feel strong. I already practiced resistance tests where the pain gets to anesthetize me to the point of not feeling it anymore, but now it's different, I feel it's time and I will have to warn Ellen. The pain is a dream.

We're on our way to a clinic, as Ellen told me, I don't know where it is. I hold my belly in my hand between contractions, I don't know much about baby births, but from what little I know, it seems that the moment is coming. Ellen and a woman in a white coat take me to a room looking like an operating room. I am instructed to remove my clothes and lie down on a stretcher.

Time goes by and the pain is intense now, the lady in the coat, Maria seems to be her name, instructs me to push and we stay in this for almost an hour until a man enters, the same doctor who saw me in the office a few weeks. Together with Maria he instructs me on what to do until I feel like I'm going to die of so much pain so I hear the baby's cry that seems like a song to my ears. I feel the tears fall from my eyes and then everything is dark.

Edgar

Today is Natasha's aptitude test, I am very anxious, I know I needed to be there, but I came back from vacation a few days ago and the disciplines are already accumulating and I can't miss it, but I'll be with her soon. I called her very early and I felt very nervous, we talked for a few minutes, I tried to reassure her, but I don't know if I succeeded, I hope she does well, she is very prepared, but when they put you to the test it is another story. In the written test she did very well, she is a very intelligent girl and has been preparing for a long time and nothing more than deserved to get this place.

It is late afternoon and she hasn't called yet. I arrive in the republic and go straight to my room. As soon as I put my things away and throw myself on the bed I get her call. We spent a long time talking and she tells me in detail how each part of the test went, so she tells me I think she did well, but she doesn't seem very confident, so I reassure her trying to make her anxiety less, because the result it won't be out until next week. We parted again in tears and I feel that she is calmer. "I love you" she tells me through tears.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing her well, not because I don't love her, I love her very, very much, but I don't know if it's fair to make her feel so alone due to the distance we are, I just wanted to be close to her, I already thought about quitting college, but I feel that our future depends on it, I never told her I would quit college to be with her, I don't think it's fair to make her feel like a burden in my life, I just wanted to be around, always.

Kurt

Today I am feeling strange since the time I woke up, I have been thinking about Remi and I feel that I need to find her, since the conversation with Edgar I have been thinking about talking to Patty and this morning I sent her an email asking for help. I need to find Remi. She hasn't answered me yet, but I know she'll do anything to help me.

Natasha

Today it was my tests for the police, I think I did well, but there was a lot of tension and there were a lot of good people competing, so I have doubts whether I will make it or not. I was strong during the tests, but when I got home and called Edgar I burst into tears, it's not fair every time I call him that I keep crying like that, I look like a weak girl who can't live away from her boyfriend. This year has been very difficult and if I pass this test it will be even more difficult next year because my workload will be very heavy and we will see each other even less. I don't know if our relationship will survive this situation.

When I'm getting ready to go to bed, an email notification arrives on the computer, I think about leaving it to read tomorrow, as it may be a random thing, but when I open the message box, it's an email from Eddie. I carefully read every word he wrote and soon I'm crying again, he reinforces that he loves me and that he is very confident about my test, among other things and says that this difficult period will pass, we just have to keep being firm and soon we will be together laughing at the whole situation.

After reading the message about three times, I reply in a few words and then fall asleep leaving this heavy day behind.

Remi

I wake up and see light through the curtain. I look away and I'm in my room. How is this possible? The last memory I have was at the clinic. I put my hand on my belly and I remember, I remember the crying. Where's my baby? I try to get up and Maria comes to meet me.

- Where's my baby? - I ask bewildered.

- Calm down, my daughter, stay seated, your mother is coming to talk to you.

Ellen comes in with a sad expression.

- Remi, the news is not good.

- What's wrong, Ellen? Where's my baby?

- He didn't resist...

- How can't? I heard the cry, and...

- He only breathed for a few hours, Doctor Ari explained that his lung was very weak and he couldn't…

- You are lying! I want my baby! - I burst into tears, and they need to hold me in bed, because I'm hysterical.

- You need to calm down and keep rest, because you had hemorrhage as soon as he was born, so you was unconscious and needed to be medicated. - I feel a needle stick. My baby, I didn't even have a chance to hold him. Everything goes dark again...