Remi

About two months ago I lost my baby. I still have no ground, but I am slowly recovering. I've already decided what I'm going to do with my life, I don't want to spend the rest of my days in that house. I know that Ellen prepared me for different situations, I studied several languages, I had an intense physical and resistance training and was thinking about it I discovered an organization that saves people and I want to work on it. I got in touch with some people and managed to get called in for a test and I'm leaving. I want to change and for that I need to make some decisions. I have some money saved that I intended to use for the baby and I decide to use it for another purpose. I want to change my life, change everything, become someone else.
In the midle of night I say goodbye to Roman and I don't tell Ellen anything and I ask Roman not to say anything, at least until I'm away from here. I go without looking back. I don't intend to go back.

The days are intense, we wake up at dawn, train and do most of the day and do the rescues mainly during the night. I almost forget who I am and everything I have lived. My baby I will never forget. They told me it was a boy, I didn't even get to hold it, I would give anything to go back to that day and hold myself back so I wouldn't pass out just to catch it for even a few minutes before I passed away. I know that the imprint of the pregnancy will remain in my heart forever, I will never forget the sound of that cry.
I still think about Kurt. My relationship with Oscar didn't work out again, I think we have different ambitions and we were always falling out over anything. With Kurt, we understood only by looking. I still think, how much compatibility is possible in two people who appear to be so different. I let out a long breath and go back to my training. There are things that need to be forgotten, or at least kept deep in our soul so that it doesn't stop us from moving forward, but you know it's there if you ever want to remember it.
I made some friends here. We work together and the harmony we have during the rescues is something incredible. I'm happy to have these people here that I can trust.

Natasha

In the middle of the afternoon the phone rings and I hear my grandmother calling me. I run to the living room and she is shaking.

- What is it, grandma? - I ask worried.

- Edgar had an accident.

I freeze, my feet feel like a magnet on the floor, I can't move or open my mouth to ask how he's doing. Edgar, my Ed, no, it can't be. This must be a nightmare.

Mart, my youngest brother arrives with a glass of water, I try to swallow a few sips, but I can't, I need to know news. I go out into the street towards his house, Liz opens the door with red eyes and her mother is sitting on the couch crying. Liz manages to explain to me that it doesn't seem to be serious, but that he was already on the highway close to home and is being brought to a hospital here in the city. I call a taxi and go to the hospital to wait for him. I ask at the reception and the woman inform me that he has arrived and is being attended to.

After an eternity a doctor comes to us and informs us that he is fine, the car overturned, he had a concussion and some broken ribs. Emma enters first and I look forward to waiting outside. We haven't met for almost a month and he was just coming to see me, because this week I received the news that I'm going to join the NY police. That's right, I did it, I was selected. I was very happy. When I told Ed he said he was coming this weekend to celebrate, and now it happens. I don't know what to think.

It is my turn to come in to see him, I am very afraid to see him in this situation. I take a deep breath, open the door and enter. He isn't connected to devices, just a needle in his forearm where he is receiving medication. I approach the stretcher, look at him and smile weakly.

- How are you feeling? - After asking I see how stupid the question was, but I don't know what to say.

- Come here. - He calls me closer, takes my hand and brings it to his lips. - I'm in a little bit of pain, but they gave me some medicine, so I think I'll be fine.
I put my hand on his face and stroke him. Edgar is my life, if something worse happened I don't know what I would do. I find a chair nearby, sit down and we are together for a long time. We talked a little, he looks tired, from the accident and also from the effects of the drugs. I need to let him rest, I say goodbye with a long peck and leave.

I come home relieved, because he is fine, he will spend the night in the hospital and tomorrow he will come home. I almost can't sleep a wink, I keep thinking about our relationship, although I think it's not my fault, he was just coming because of me, he was certainly running to get there before it got dark. It is only the first year of college, with three more to go. The little I sleep I have strange dreams, I see Edgar bloody on the floor, he says he loves me and closes his eyes. I get up, cry and pray that this night will end soon.

In the morning I go to the hospital and together with Emma we bring Ed home. I pick up some things at my house and I will stay with him. The doctor told him to stay home at least a week before going back to college, I want to be with him for this period.

Kurt

Patty called me this morning. Since I asked her to help me find Remi, she has been updating me on any leads she finds. This time she managed to locate Roman at an American army training center, but nothing more, because when she tried to speak to him, she had already disappeared. Each day Remi's tracks are further away.
The blonde nerd asked Rich for help, even though I told her not to involve others in this search, and the computer technician hadn't found any moves by Remi Briggs in over two months, nothing like using cards, travel, etc. Something doesn't seem to fit.

Edgar

I had the accident a week ago. My car is still in repair, so I must go back to college by bus. I was very afraid of dying, it was all so fast, the deer got in front of the car and I got scared and ended up throwing the car off the track. I was unconscious for a few hours and only came to me when I was being treated at the hospital.

Natasha has been very careful with me since the accident, not that she was not before, but I don't know, it looks different. She has also been having nightmares, she wakes up scared in the middle of the night and catches her crying, she says it was just a bad dream and that it is nothing big, I hug her and try to calm her down.

This afternoon I'm going back to college, I wish I could stay longer, but I've already stayed a week and I have all the contents late, so I need to go back. I'm finishing packing up when Natasha enters the room.

- We need to talk. - She is very serious, I try to smile, but her expression doesn't change.

- Sure, what happened? - I take her hand and make her sit on the bed with me.

- Look, I know it won't be easy to hear what I have to say to you, but it won't be easy for me to tell you that either. – Natasha looks at our hands together as she speaks and I feel that she is sweating cold.

- You're scaring me, Tasha.

- Excuse me. It wasn't my intention. - She takes a deep breath and looks at me with wide eyes. - I want to break up with you.

- You ... you can't do that. - I'm sorry to choke on my own words, I'm out of action, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to think. My Tasha, the woman I love the most in this world is breaking up with me.

- Listen, Edgar. - Natasha lets go of my hand and starts to shake her own hands together. - Our relationship isn't doing well for either of us, it's getting harder and harder to take this away, we're getting more and more away from each other and I see that you're the one who is sacrificing the most for that, you're leaving your studies side to be with me, comes flying every time that I have a problem.

- So this is about it? About the distance? I can drop out of college and come back, in fact I've thought about doing it several times.

- No! - Natasha gets up and I feel that she speaks louder than she intended. - I don't want to be a burden on your life! I would never accept to be with you if you left college because of me. You're going back to college, you're going to study until the end, and that's the way it has to be. I go to the police, I go on with my life and you do yours.

- Natasha... - I get up and try to reach her, but she is already gaining the exit door.

- Don't come after me.

Natasha was firm in her words and I just watched her leave. I never imagined that this moment would come. We were fine, well at least I thought we were. She broke up with me. I fall into bed and burst into tears, I don't know if I'll be able to get up to travel. What did I do wrong? I tried to be a good guy for her and it happened! I don't know if I can live without her.