Natasha

It's been over a week since we've all been drinking at Kurt's house. Edgar and I were together. I mean, I slept at his house a few times in that time, but we didn't talk about anything official, we were just getting carried away, no promises, no declarations of love, nothing that could bring disappointment if it didn't work out. But deep down I knew it wasn't quite like that, we were just afraid to put the relationship on the table and lost it. It was good that way. We worked together during the day and a few afternoons we would leave together for Edgar's apartment where we watched games, movies, drank beer and even cooked and at the end of the night we were together in his bed where we loved each other until we reached the limits of exhaustion. I was living one day at a time aware of everything that had happened in the past and I didn't want to hurt him or hurt me.

We were all gathered at lunchtime when Jane made a strange expression when answering the phone and left worried.

- What's up, Kurt? – I asked him who was the person who knew most about Jane, they were always close to each other. They always looked at each other before they decided something. Although I was pretty sure there hadn't been anything between them yet.

- Looks like it was Roman's call. Kurt replied.

- And you think something serious happened? – Edgar asked.

- I don't know, but these days she's really worried about her brother. – Kurt seemed worried about her.

After a few minutes Jane came back distressed.

- I have to go. – Roman needs to talk to me and he says it's urgent.

- I'm going out there with you. – Kurt offered.

- Ok.

- What do you think, hum? – I spoke to Edgar as soon as they left.

- I don't know. All I know is that jane has a very complicated family.

- Oh, that's true. – I agreed.

- But come here. Let's talk about us. – He took my hand.

- Ed, we're at work. – I rebuked him.

- I know, I know. I just want to know if you're leaving with me today. – He was sitting next to me and put a loose lock of my hair behind my ear. I felt a shiver running through my spine as I felt his touch on my skin.

- Don't you think we're going too fast with this? – I said the stare in his eyes.

- Oh, Tasha, we've wasted so much time. – He whispered. – I don't want to leave your side...

- She's gone and she's supposed to call me to break the news. – Kurt came in and pulled us out of the trance. – What's wrong with you two?

- Nothing. – Edgar spoke with a giggle and we walked away.

We went back to work and finished the research for some clues that we had started in the morning. We spent the rest of the afternoon in the lab where we focused on the clues we had already plotting our next steps.

At the end of the day I was a little late studying the last details with Patty in the lab. I met Ed in the locker room. He stood in front of the closets and displayed a seductive smile.

- Hey! – I said.

- I'm on my way. – The way he looked at me disarmed me in a way that I felt very lost. The depth of his dark eyes seemed to undress me. My reaction was missing in those moments and all I could do was let myself hypnotize for him. – Are you coming?

Ed approached and trapped me with his body against the closets. Feeling his gaze made me awkward, but to feel his touch, his body against mine, it completely seduced me and I let myself get carried away by this feeling that plagued my being for a long time. My gaze was stuck in his and his hand stroked my neck to my ear. Luckily there was no one else there. The touch of your lips on my face completed the moment. I closed my eyes as he traced the path to my mouth, but it was just a time-consuming seal. I knew what he was doing and I felt surrendered by his contact.

- Yes. – My voice failed when his body distanced itself from mine.

We left the building together eager to get to his apartment and continue what had been insinuated in the locker room.

Jane

- What are you saying, Roman? – I asked Roman as soon as he mentioned that he heard Ellen saying that my son didn't die, but that it was given.

- That's right, I'm going to get you – He said. – I listened in all the letters. I just didn't walk into the room because I wanted to talk to you first, and if she knew I heard the conversation, she'd find a way to get rid of the kid for good.

- I need to talk to her. – I spoke furiously. – She owes me a satisfaction as to why she did this to me.

- No, Remi, listen here. – He asked me calmly. – If you talk to her, you're going to ruin everything! You're involved in this investigation there, and if you confront her now, we could lose that clue.

- You may be right. – Maybe we should try to control that first. – But I can't look at her face today. – I didn't have the stomach to face her knowing what she did.

- Where are you going? – He asked.

- I don't know. I'll turn around. – I said it and I left.

Kurt

- Jane? – She was at my door and seemed very worried. – What's the matter? Come in.

She walked in quietly and sat on the couch and I knew there was something going on.

- I don't even know why I came here, but I needed company and I didn't want to go back to Ellen's today. And Patterson's definitely too busy with her research, and I didn't want to get in her way, and Tasha must be with Edgar, so... – she was all messed up.

- So you only came here for lack of another option? – I asked with a sarcastic smile.

- For God's sake, Kurt, you understood me! – She gave me a lost look. – I just need a nice company. Can I stay here today?

- Of course I do. I was just kidding. – I sat next to her. – What do you want to do? – I asked. – We can watch a movie, order something to eat.

- You don't have to worry about any of this because of me. – She justified herself.

- Look, you come in here all worried and you don't think I'm going to do anything for you? – I received an affectionate look after my words. Let me take care of you, okay?

- That's good. – She agreed with a smile.

- I have an extra room. You can have it. There's towels in the closet. Feel free to take a shower if you want.

- I'm going to go. – I showed her the room and left her there.

- I'm going to order us some food. – I said get out of the room. – When you're done, you'll choose a movie.

I left her there and went back to my room with the thoughts a thousand in my head.

Jane

- Is there anything you want to tell me? – Kurt asked me while we were done eating the pizza.

- No. It's okay.

- You left worried to talk to Roman and when you came back you didn't say anything.

- It was no big deal. – I looked away at the movie on TV.

- I want to ask you something. – I looked at him again in fear of what was coming.

- You can ask. – I shrugged.

- Have you been pregnant? – And I felt a slightly accusatory tone in your question.

- Why are you asking me this?

- We investigated your disappearance for a long time and talked to many people and in one of those conversations stated about a pregnant girl who lived nearby. – I didn't know what to say. At best deny it was me. I don't know if I should tell him everything. Especially now that I've heard that my son, our son may be alive.

- I gotta go... I have nothing to talk about.

- Then it's true. – The tone of accusation was still in the air.

- Look, I'm sorry. What happened to me is my business and I don't want to get into something that was too painful for me...

- I'm sorry. The accusatory tone has disappeared. – I just thought that... – He stopped talking for a moment while he was looking at me. – Let it go.

- All right. – I got up on an impulse. – I'd better go.

- No. – He stood up too and held my arm firmly. – You don't have to go. – Your tone has become sweeter and your gaze too. – Stay. Please.

The way your look stuck in mine reminded me of our past. Everything we've lived for the time we've been together. It was all very complicated, but very intense. We were each other for as long as we could. We both knew and we know it wasn't just about us, but everything that happened, our priorities, my family. I wanted to, yes, I wanted him very much, but I couldn't fight hard enough for him and now we were so close, so close together and we could have another chance.

I let myself go with the kiss he gave me and let me go with his touch on my body and it was nothing simple or calm, everything that happened that night was intense, it was worth all the time we spent away. I allowed myself for one night to forget everything that bothered me. I just wanted to live that moment with him and go back to the past and let the love and desire I felt for him speak louder than any rational thought I could have.