Jane

It's been a week since I found out my son was alive. I didn't say anything to Kurt. I didn't even know where to start, but sooner or later I'd have to talk, but I was putting this moment off as long as possible. I slept with him a week ago and since that day we couldn't help but get together a few more times, but I knew that at some point the bomb would go off and everything would go down the drain.

I had arranged a meeting with a man named Rossi at a bar in the suburbs. Roman and I found him investigating the clues to my son's birth. We went to the hospital and got a contact from a nurse who worked there at the time and she talked about this man. I was trying hard to pretend that everything was fine when I was with Ellen, because I knew that if she found out, she'd find a way to stop this meeting.

- Hello, Remi. - I heard a male voice behind my back.

- Hi Rossi. Thank you so much for coming. - I thanked the man who had medium stature and baldness and seemed to have a bristle of sixty years.

- I wondered what the conversation was all about and I brought this to you. - He spoke by handing me an envelope. - I can't stay long. I just came to give you this. - He said he's leaving.

- Wait. - I asked to get up.

- I can't do that. I just came to give you this. - He said disappearing through the bar door.

I opened the envelope and came across a copy of a birth certificate exactly four years ago. Avery. A little girl. It couldn't be mine, because from what Ellen said, I had a boy. But the date, time and place matched and it could only be her. Oh, my daughter. Once again Ellen had deceived me. I let the tears roll down my face like I didn't allow in a long time.

"Roman. I need you." I left a message on his cell phone and went back to the FBl. If the sandstorm investigation wasn't enough, I'd have my daughter missing now.

At the end of the day I was with Kurt from outside the FBI building and told him that I was tired and also that I needed to go back to Ellen's because I had already slept outside the night before.

- It's all right. - He pulled me to him and gave me a light kiss on the lips. I enjoyed the contact for a few seconds and let myself be hugged and kissed by him. Oh God, as I needed him by my side at that moment, but I couldn't tell him everything without hurting him.

- Tomorrow, I'm going to have to do it. - I said I'd let go of his arms.

- Remi, i'm sorry. Do you really believe it's your daughter's? - Roman wondered when I told him everything.

- He'd have no reason to lie. - I said.

- How do we find her. - He asked.

- I'm still thinking. - I was distressed. I wanted to know exactly where she was, who she was with, if she was well taken care of. I couldn't stand the thought of knowing my daughter was out there anywhere.

- You could ask your FBI friends for help. - He suggested.

- I don't want to involve you in this. - I spoke by looking away.

- You're not going to tell Kurt? - He provoked me.

- I still don't know how to do that. - I said.

- You're afraid you're going to lose him again.

- Roman, I don't know what he's going to do when he finds out I had a daughter and she was taken from me and I never told him. - I spoke distressedly. - He will never forgive me.

- You don't know that. You won't know until you tell him.

Edgar

- Oh, my love. I said pulling her near me on the couch.

- Hum, what's going on? - She grumbled asking.

- You could move in here. - I suggested.

- What's going on? - She was startled by my suggestion.

It had been a few days since I wanted to have this conversation with her, but I hadn't had the guts yet. The truth is, I couldn't stay away from her. It seems that every night apart I had the feeling that I could lose her again. I couldn't take that blow again.

- I'm serious, Natasha. - I stroked her face with my thumb in an attempt to make this conversation smoother. - We spent a lot of time together. Most nights you're here with me. And you keep paying rent needlessly.

- Edgar, I don't want a man to support me. - She said she was offended.

- I'm not suggesting that. Not at all. - I denied it. - We can share the accounts the way you want. I just wish we were always together, it's so good when you're here.

- I like being here with you, too, Ed, you know. I just don't want to rush anything. - I didn't know if she was confused or scared, or if she didn't love me enough to move in with me.

- It's all right. - I said sad. - In your time. I wait.

- Hey, what's going on? Don't be like that! - She spoke touching my face.

- It's just that I love you so much, Tasha. I'm afraid I'm going to lose you again. I don't know what I'd do without you around, I...

- Eddie, what are you doing here? - She scolded me. - Look at me. - I looked at her and her look was one of sweetness and understanding. - It's not because I'm saying I don't come to live here that I don't love you.

- What's going on? You...? - I choked on my words.

- Of course I do. - She confirmed it with tears in her eyes. - I love you, Ed! I really love you. And I love being here with you. It's just... - She stopped for a moment. - Let's wait a little more, okay?

- That's good. - I agreed.

- Come here and I'm going to make it up to you. - Natasha pulled me and kissed me.

It was not calm and not sweet, the kiss was intense and striking, it seemed that she wanted to prove something to me. Natasha pulled me into her and took me to the bathroom. Our clothes were outside. The bathroom was small, but it was enough for both of us. We delighted with each other under the shower, our actions were urgent and we made love underwater that fell on us.

Jane

- You're ready or aren't you? I knew I shouldn't trust you coming home like you don't want anything. - Ellen asked when I was with Roman at the breakfast table.

- What are you talking about? - I questioned her.

- Rossi. - She said she was defiant. - I heard you met him, Remi. But now he won't be able to help you anymore.

- What did you do? - I asked upset.

- I only gave him what he deserved.

- You suck, Ellen! - I screamed in anger. - What did you do to my daughter?

- Oh, so you heard? She was a weeping little girl. But now you must be being taken care of by some wealthy family. - Sarcasm was evident in her words. - You could never give her a good future.

- You can't say that! I was willing to go away with her somewhere safe away from you. - I exploded in anger. - She's my daughter! I'm the one who should decide what to do. - I cried with hate. - I'm going to find her where it costs me! - I said out of her house in anger.

Kurt

We were all gathered in the morning at the SIOC where we discussed the next steps. We got some proof of Ellen's plans thanks to the help of Jane and her brother, and also thanks to Nas' access to Patterson's confidential research.

Jane hadn't arrived yet. I was always worried about her. I knew she wasn't a helpless woman, quite the contrary, she did things that few men could do, but I had a certain notion of how dangerous and perverse her mother was and every day she came back to them I was afraid. Afraid she wouldn't come back.

We spend a lot of time apart, but the tuning is still the same, these last few days that we meet again we are rediscovering ourselves and it's been wonderful. She's an amazing woman. Sometimes I feel a little distant, but I know she's been in a lot of trouble, and I'd rather not press her to tell me what she doesn't want. I want to let it all happen naturally, I know that we will soon be able to arrest Ellen and dismantle the terrorist cell she commands and then yes we can live our happiness again, without hindrance.

- Guys. - Jane enters and sing said through the door. - I need your help.

- What happened, Jane? - Patterson runs up to her and asks worriedly.

- We need to find my daughter.