Before this chapter begins if you have seen the walking dead I guess you know what this is about. If you don't like anything to do with attempted suicide, skip the chapter.

Beth POV

Sadness. That was what all Beth felt, sadness.

She had lost her mother, her step-brother, and Maggie and her never really spoke anymore, since she was always talking with Glenn. Daddy was always very busy so she couldn't speak to him much, and her and Jimmy haven't spoken since Thier fight, and she didn't want to speak to him anyways. The only person Beth could think of was, Carl, but she couldn't burden her problems on him, he was twelve for god sake.

Beth was walking down the porch when, Blackness.

She woke up a little later, with Maggie, daddy and Lori round her bed.

"D-D-Daddy? What happened"

"You passed out Bethy, probably from dehydration, it was hot today"

Maggie looked at her worryingly.

"Yeah, was probably that Daddy"

"Well you're to stay in bed for the rest of the day"

"Ok Daddy"

After a little while, Lori came in with dinner, and when Beth finished, she looked at the knife, thinking about how it would be so much easier to just end it all here. No more pain, no getting ripped open by flesh eating monsters, a choice, her choice.

She picked up the knife and hid it under her pillow.

Lori came back and picked up her dinner tray and headed out. Not noticing that the knife was missing. Alls going to plan I thought to myself. That was until she heard running footsteps and her bedroom door opening with speed.

It was Lori and Beth knew why she was here, but still pretended to be asleep.

"Beth. You give it to me sweetheart"

Beth still late still

"You don't wanna do this"

Beth finally handed her the knife and Lori walked out closing the door behind her.

About ten minutes later Maggie rushes in closing the door behind her and shouted at her for a few minutes about how selfish that was and how it would break her and dad. How they all lost mom.

"What was you thinking?!?"

I finally turned around and looked her in the eye.

"I was thinking I had a choice, a way I wanted to die, Not being shot like Carl or being ripped apart by flesh carving freaks"

"Don't talk like that, that won't happen to you!"

"How do you know, because we have the others to protect us, Dad wants them all gone, and then who do we have, Dad, you, me, Patricia and Jimmy. You know that's not enough right, we'll die if it is just us, and I want to go out my own way."

"Think about all the people you'll hurt by doing it though, Dad, me, Patricia and Jimmy"

As of Jimmy would even care, he hadn't even looked me in the eyes since our fight.

"It'll devistate me and Dad. Think about us for a change and don't be a little brat"

Then it clicked

"We should do it together"

It's shocked Maggie for a few minutes as she processed this.

"What" was all she could come out with.

"Think about it, we could go out our way, together as sisters, and we could be with mom and Shawn, and Dad eventually."

Maggie looked horrified

"No Beth, you can't give up like this. I'll go and find Daddy and we'll talk more then."

Then she left. It had been half an hour when Andrea entered the room and sat down.

"Aren't you going to say something"

She handed out a key, the key to the bathroom

She said "Is this what you want"

I looked at her suprised

"The pain doesn't go away, you just make room for it, and if you can't do that, then there's only really one option in the end"

This is what Beth needed, someone who told her to make her own choices.

"Thank you" she whispered as she took the key off Andrea.

An hour later and she had been in her room all day, but she was ready, ready to make the biggest decision of her life. She walked over to the bathroom door and unlocked it. Funny, when the door clicked it sounded like a bomb hitting the ground. She walked in and smashed the mirror with a hammer. She picked up a price of glass and slit her right wrist, she then placed the glass over her left arm but then she stopped and thought about, Carl.

The way he smiled at her, the way her got easlily embarrassed around her, the way he looks at her. Everything about him makes her heart stop mid-beat. She then started to think about the future, their shared future, when they get together, their first kiss, their first time, his proposal to her, their children. This was when Beth realised that she loved Carl, Jimmy was right. It made Beth drop the glass and start to cry. It made her unlock the door and fall into Maggies arms, then she fell under.

She awoke with her arm stitched up and Carl sitting next to her bed, it looked like he had been crying.

"C-C-Carl?"

He immediately looked to and proceeded to hug her.

"Are you okay?" I asked him.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I've been here for about an hour now. I came the second I heard about wh-what happened. Are you okay?"

She smiled, then remembered why she didn't finish the job off. This boy, this twelve year old boy had saved her life, and he didn't even know it.

"Yes I'm fine thank you. That was lovely of you, you must be tired."

He shook his head "No I'm fine, we'll maybe a little tired."

"You should get some sleep then"

He shook his head again "I shouldn't leave you on your own, I can't let you die Beth, I l- care about you"

Was he about to say love, did he really love her to?

Instead of mentioning that, she replied,

"I'll be fine Carl, if I was going to hurt myself again, I would've done it earlier."

He looked unsure.

"Ok, but I'll sleep right here in case you need anything"

She smiled on the inside and outside,

"Ok, I'd like that"

He smiled back at me,

"Goodnight Beth"

"Goodnight Carl"

As Beth was drifting off to sleep she dreamt about the life she fantasised in the bathroom, and it was the best dream she had ever had.

The end of chapter 6

So how was it? Good, Bad, Ok?

So this was hard to right. I'm not a depressed guy thankfully and it was hard to write about someone who felt this way. I'd any of you ever felt like this, tell someone, it can make the world of difference.

If you didn't like this chapter I'd completely understand and hopefully the future will be brighter.

So until then

Goodbye