I don't own Hetalia okay? I would like to thank all those who have stuck with this story so far. While word count, it isn't that long chapter count due to format is kind of high. Anyway, enough of this A/N, on with the fic!
July 4th 1917
(from the diary of Natalya Jones nee Arlovskaya)
Today was Fredka's birthday and we went to the boardwalk to celebrate it and his brother's birthday. Matthew was born 3 days before Fredka. Just found it easier to celebrate both at once. Fredka thinks if he has happy things to do, he will adjust better and hopefully his shell shock episodes will lessen or even go away. We had given him the room that Vanya stayed in while he stayed over. It is right across from Nikolai's and he has taken to his uncle well. I am about 5 months along and have already started moving things around for the new baby's room when Matthew had stopped me once while Fredka was at work and did his best to move some of the clutter out. Said that he felt like he needed to do something to earn his keep. He had mentioned something that that jerk Lt. Col Kirkland had told him that as a discharged veteran, he might qualify for a pension but I told him not to worry. Just assisting with the housekeep and playing with Nikolai was enough for me.
He still does have flashbacks. He was nailing a portrait up for me when all of a sudden he hammered the nail fast, eyes widened and he dove behind the living room sofa hyperventilating. Thankfully Nikolai was napping at the time but this was as the neighbors dropped a bookshelf they were moving outside. Loud, thud like noises often set him into these which leave him shaking for awhile afterwards. Once he realized he was not still in the war he then went up into his bedroom until Fredka came home and talked to him. I tried to tell him I thought no less of him for what happened, but I think he will only accept that out of his brother.
While we were at the boardwalk he passed a tall white haired man and he froze and backed away from him. Apparently from what Fredka told me, he had to shoot a German who looked a lot like that man. Now I had not known Matthew as long as Fredka had, but from what I had known, this is quite a change. Matthew had a quiet heart and was very caring of a man before this. He didn't take too much joy in beating on criminals when he was a member of the Royal Canadian Mounted Police and was the one officer who would help the lost children and things like that. This has me worried about what will happen to big brother. He isn't in the same type of duty as Matthew was, but will see a lot of the same things. He does have the same type of strong but soft heart and Katyusha said when she was working as a nurse, some women couldn't handle it when a patient died under their care. She understood you can sometimes do everything right and still the patient dies. Will Vanya know that? Can he handle the constant barrages that are happening with lives in his hands? I would like to think so but the same thing was true with Matthew as well.
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