The Longing of the Heart

by otherrealmwriter

Set in the early 1900s, Alfred F Jones is a coworker of Ivan Braginsky in a firm in the New York City area who has just married his little sister Natalya. But how deep is their love and who does everyone really love? AmeBel and slight unrequited RusAme Told as a series of journal entries over the years of 1914-1919

55. Matthew's Journal 3

I don't own Hetalia okay? I would like to thank all those who have stuck with this story so far. While word count, it isn't that long chapter count due to format is kind of high. Anyway, enough of this A/N, on with the fic!

July 4th 1917

(from the diary of Matthew Williams)

We went to Coney Island for Al's birthday today. They said mine as well, but they don't have to do anything. I know they are trying to help me adjust and I appricate it, but I just feel like a burden. I could hardly keep up with Natalya even, and she is very pregnant. I mean really pregant. I am beginning to think there is something to her sister's theory that she is expecting twins. Wish there was a way to see inside there and find out. If there is one thing I am kind of looking forward to, out of the whole lot of nothing I care about right now, it's that.

I was worried about how Natalya would take me having to live in the same house as her and her children with me as fucked up as I am. I mean there have been times I have been close to having a flashback in front of Nikolai and I don't want him to be scared of me. It took a few days for him to be able to tell Al and I apart. He caught on quickly. We both have a weird cowlick, mine is curlier than Al's which just points straight up. He does seem to like me. Little Nicky really likes his Uncle Mattie.

He liked spending the day at the boardwalk. He saw a teddy bear that he wanted and pulled me over and asked me to help him win it for him. Al nodded and so did Natalya who was looking for a bench at this point, and I picked it up and was able to win it for him. I was always a crack shot, one of the best in my unit back in the Mounties and Al and I always were pretty close when it came to shooting. Natalya said Ivan was pretty good as well and that all 3 of us needed to get into a shoot off when he came home to see who was the best. But wanting to make Nicky happy, I shot, despite being half blind, and won him that teddy bear. He was always wanting me to ride the rides with him, wanted me to carry him and look at the ocean with him. Al's quite happy with it. I mean I don't know what the kid sees in me, but Natalya said young children can see the best of anyone. It's kind of nice.

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