Last month had been Mob's first heat.
She wasn't dumb, she knew that it was coming, but that didn't stop the whole thing from being….embarrassing. That was a good word for it. She had woken up one day covered in sweat but also somehow freezing even though she had been sleeping under her thickest quilt. Nothing could warm her up. Not her second thickest quilt on top of her thickest quilt, or her summer blanket on top of that, or all the throw blankets she had in her room, or even all the clothes in her closet.
She'd made a pretty good nest in the end.
Before she had known what she had done she had taken everything cloth in her room and made a nest. That was a part of the heat, she had read in the book dad gave her, nesting. She was making a place for…well for the things that you were supposed to do when you went into heat. All the things…the things that she had never seen herself doing up to that point. She knew what they were, dad may have been a beta but he at least thought to get her a book, and mom had been an omega so Mob had known, sort of, what it meant when mom locked herself and dad in their room and she and Sho were told to stay far away….
It had been gross back then.
Even Sho had agreed, mom and dad doing…all of that…was gross. They had been kids then and the thought of either of them doing stuff like that…well that hadn't even crossed their minds. But now it was crossing her mind…well it had been crossing her mind then. She knew what it was like…from stuff she had read on the internet. How she would get really hot and make a nest and then her alpha would lay down with her and kiss her and touch her and then they'd become one and it would be the most perfect thing in the world…especially the part with the knot….she knew what to expect in that first heat…
That hadn't stopped it from being embarrassing.
Nobody ever mentioned how you would lose track of time when your heat started. How the only thing you could think up was how cold you were, how you didn't have enough blankets on your bed, and how badly you wanted…well…an alpha. Also nobody ever mentioned that you would get naked. The book had said that omegas would feel comfortable removing one of more articles of clothing but Mob had figured that she would just want to take off her sweater or her tights, not every stitch of clothing that she'd been wearing. It had been too much, too many layers, and it had felt like her skin was on fire….it had felt like a lot of parts of her were on fire….
Parts that she had never really thought about.
She hadn't ever thought much about what she was. Some people were omegas, some people were alphas, and some people were betas. With mom gone she was the only person in her family with a second gender. Dad and Sho were betas so they didn't have to worry about the stuff that she had to worry about…mainly the whole…place. That place which she didn't even like to think of…because it was just…embarrassing! How it sometimes got sort of wet when she wasn't in heat, how it smelled weird all the time….especially since she was getting older, and how it just…was there! It was this…this part of her body…that was for….the sort of thing that alphas did with omegas…or betas…and the sort of thing that betas did with each other even though she wasn't sure how that worked…and she was NOT asking dad. Ever. Dad…didn't need to know that she thought about those kinds of things…
Even though he had figured it out on his own….
People in her family were allergic to knocking. Well they had been back then…back when she'd been naked in her bed/nest with her fingers all in her…place. When she had been on her back just trying to feel good…but….more good. The sort of good that her body wanted to feel. Knot good. She had read that the best feeling in the world was the knot part…and she had never put anything bigger than one finger in there before….but when her heat got worse and all of her clothes had come off she'd only had one thought in her head…she had to feel what it was like…so she tried to…
And then that was when dad had decided to see why she had missed breakfast.
"Oh." That was all that he said. Then he closed her door and she sort of remembered hearing a loud sound. Sho had said that dad fainted right outside of her door, that he looked dead even, but not while Mob had been in the middle of….everything. It had been embarrassing…well looking back it had been embarrassing. In the moment it had just been annoying, being interrupted, the feeling that she had been chasing had just…run away…it felt like….
She hadn't been in any state of mind to be embarrassed then.
No, that had come five days later. The first few heats were the longest, the book had said, and they would sneak up on her until she found an alpha and her hormones found a rhythm that was right for them. Her heat had been five days long. She hadn't stopped…what she had been doing…unless she had to eat or go to the bathroom. That was all that she could think about…and even then she sometimes forgot to open her door and collect the trays of food that had been left outside. Most of that time had been spent trying to see what felt the most like a knot inside of her.
The winner had been her hairbrush.
But now she didn't need a hairbrush. She had an alpha. She had an alpha and him being so near to her had started her second heat. She felt it coming on when she woke up that morning. She had sweated completely through her clothes. That heavy sort of heat smell. She could smell it and she knew that her alpha could too. He had been awake when she had gotten up. He had been awake and staring at her, trying to get out of his place, the part of her room where he lived. He had a bed on the floor and plenty of slack in his chain to move around, even some toys too so he wouldn't get bored when she was away. He never got up before her, though, not usually. He was pretty active at night.
He had been pretty active when she got up that morning.
"Ritsu, guess what." Said Mob as she got out of bed. She asked him mostly just to be polite. She knew that he could talk, feral alphas were just as capable of speech as betas and omegas, so it seemed like the polite thing to do would be to talk to him whenever she could. It was still early enough into her heat that she could still worry about things like being polite…that she could worry about anything other than feeling…all of the things that her body wanted her to feel during a heat.
All of the things that she was going to be feeling very soon.
"I'm in heat right now…but you can probably tell because of how I smell. Oh…this is so exciting! Ok, I'm going to make the nest now and then we can…do all of the things…if you want to do them. I mean my dad got me you so that I would have someone to do all the things with…and stuff…but I don't want to make you so…do you want to." Said Mob. Silence, and then a lunge. He couldn't get all the way over to her side of the room from his place, dad had made her keep him on the opposite side of the room so she'd be able to stay safe, and she knew why he had said that….so the stuff that happened when she went into heat didn't happen when she didn't want it to….
But now she wanted it to…and she was in heat now…so it was ok.
"I'll take that as a yes. Ok…um….I'm going to make the nest now so…um…just wait a minute." Said Mob. She wanted to be warm again…but also her skin felt like it was on fire. She…she knew that this was ok. What she was feeling. This was the point of being an omega so…so it was ok. So she needed to get to building the nest already. Her body was telling her to warm up after all.
Her body was telling her a lot of things.
She did one of the things her body told her to do and started gathering blankets. She got all of the quilts from the chest at the foot of her bed, all of her throw blankets, and she even got the summer blankets out of storage. She put them all on her bed and arranged them in a circle…sort of like having cloth walls around her….the cloth walls made her feel safe. That was another part of the heat. She had to feel safe because she would be very vulnerable while….it happened….and afterwards too…
When the part with the knot happened.
It was going to happen. She passed her hairbrush on her way to her wardrobe. No more of that. No more shoving the handle of her hairbrush all in…that place…trying to feel like there was an alpha attached to her. No, she would know what it felt like for real…the thought sent shivers up her spine…in a good way…and a bad way. She…had never done this before. She didn't even know when she would have had the chance. She didn't go to school, she only knew dad and Sho, and….and dad never liked it when she talked to other people. That was why she had a feral alpha and not a beta or someone more…partner-y. Dad said that she had to spend her life with him and that he wasn't going to trade her to some other family because they would never be worthy of her…and that was why she had her own omega for all the…partner things….that partners did….
This was going to happen.
She took all the clothes from her closet and added them to the nest on her bed. The whole time she did this Ritsu was trying to get at her. She wondered if he'd ever done anything like this before. She didn't know a lot about his life…or any alpha's life. She didn't know a lot of people in general but she especially did not know a lot of alphas. Most families kept their alphas close…or got rid of them…but they weren't out in the world and stuff. They couldn't be trusted and stuff, dad had said, and Mob…she sort of got it…because alphas were so much bigger and stronger than everyone else when they grew up…and especially during ruts…and ruts always followed heats so if an omega started their heat when they were out in public and all of the alphas would try to…
Mob finished the nest.
There. She felt like it was done….almost done. She just had to get something of Ritsu's to put in the nest. The book had said that it was best if the nest smelled like both people. That way everyone would be at ease. She had to get this right. The first time you did any of this was the most important time. She had read about this, not in the book that dad had gotten her, in the books that she had gotten herself. Books that didn't just talk about what happened like it was a step by step thing. Like first your heat started and you got all sweaty and scenty and then you made the nest and then your whole…place…started to get wet and open…and then the alpha opened the omega up more until it was knot time…and then all the stuff happened and the alpha and omega got stuck together…and then it happened again and again…and then food breaks happened…and then more of that…until the heat passed and the change in scent made the rut end.
No, her books were different.
When her books talked about it they always said how….good…it felt. How the alpha was so big and strong and how safe he made you feel…or she if you had a girl alpha but she didn't have a girl alpha because she was a girl omega….but girl alphas could make you feel good too. They were big and strong too and also they had a pseudo knot which also felt good….but that wasn't…anything like what Mob was going to do. She knew from the books that it would be perfect. He'd lay her down on her back and hold her and kiss her and then….the stuff would happen…and then it would feel good and then the knot part would happen and then it would be like…like magic….and then….well then everything would be perfect and he'd bite the back of her neck and then they'd be mated forever and fall in love…maybe the love part was just for non-feral alphas…she didn't know. She had never been in love before…
She had never done any of this before.
"Hold on, I just need to get one of your blankets and then…and then we can….um….oh…" said Mob. She felt…warm. Warm and cold at the same time, like she had a fever, and she was just as dizzy too. The closer she got to Ritsu's side of the room the more she could smell it. It was kind of like…spices? Like spicy spices but also…sweat? Sweat and something else…something that made her pajamas cling to her legs and…and was that all…because of him? That…was not all sweat and…and she just…she had come here to…
What had she come here to do?
He lunged at her again and…and she wanted to…she wanted…she had to…she reached over and hit the release on his collar. The chain came off with a cling…and….and that had been what she had come there to do…right? That must have been because…she couldn't think. Not with that smell all around her. She had…she had read about this before…how good it would smell…how she would feel safe and warm surrounded by the smell of…all of it…and she just….
It was everywhere. She couldn't help but breathe it in.
It made her dizzy, too, so dizzy. So dizzy that…oh. She was on the ground now and…and this was not her nest. She had made the nest and….and this was Ritsu's bed. It was made up of all the old blankets that she had outgrown. She could smell herself there but….faintly. She had gotten rid of these blankets before she got…old enough for this. Before she presented…before any of this had been…anything that she had ever even thought about doing….
These were her blankets…so this was ok.
This was….she was cold all of a sudden. She opened her eyes…they had been closed…and that didn't help. She was face down…and her back was so cold. She was face down on Ritsu's bed and…she brushed something out of her eyes. Her hair and…cloth? Blue? She had been wearing blue and…oh. She was…not all the way undressed but…but she should have been all the way undressed but…but she just…she couldn't remember the last time anyone had seen her naked and…and she knew that she should have been embarrassed but….but all she could think about was…was the smell all around her…and now her back was warm and…and she wanted the rest of her to be warm too and….and…
Skin.
Skin was against hers. Her back, mostly. Hands ran up and down her back until they got to her shoulders…and then they pulled her down. She could remember….sort of…that she was supposed to lay down on her back. She was on her stomach now. She tried to get up but only managed to get to her knees…wow. Alphas really were strong….but this was not the way that it went. She was supposed to be on her back. Then he would kiss her and touch her and tell her something like she was the prettiest omega he had ever seen and he loved her…well Ritsu didn't talk but still….this wasn't how it was supposed to go.
She tried to roll over again.
He didn't let her. His nails dug into her shoulders. He was so strong…and everything that she had read said that alphas were supposed to be strong….but nobody had ever said HOW strong. She couldn't move. She couldn't roll over and…and this was…she wanted…she wanted a lot of things and…and she wanted this but….but the right way. The way it was in books…not like…..not like….
Not like being on her stomach, held down, with something poking at her…place.
She knew how this was supposed to go. They kissed and touched for a while and then she led him into her. Not…like this. He was out of his clothes now, he had torn them off, and now…now he was poking her in the backs of her thighs. She could smell it now…the heavy and spicy sort of smell…well she had been smelling it but now…now it was even…more. She knew that she was even…more…now too. She smelled something….heavy…and kind of sweet too….and she had never smelled sweet before….but she had never been like this before…her place had never been so close to an alpha's….place…before….
She wanted this.
Even if this wasn't how it was in books…she still wanted this. she was warm and sticky and…and she raised herself up a little. She raised herself up and she parted her thighs and…oh. That was…poking at her. At the entrance to her….well to it. This was….supposed to happen. She heard that betas could just….put it in and…fit together. It was different with omegas. She had to get used to it and…and it had to get used to her.
Hence the poking.
That was….she leaned into it. It was…it hut a little…when he got the first part into her…the part where all the…stuff…came out of. After this there was just…more of it…and then the knot…and the knot was the good part but this…this was…it was ok. Kind of good. She reached down…well she tried to. She had a way of doing it so it felt good…and she knew how to make herself feel good…so she tried to make herself feel good….
A hand grabbed hers.
Her shoulder felt cold without Ritsu touching it…but her wrist felt warm. He was still poking at her…at that place where…stuff happened…but now he was holding onto her and…and this was kind of awkward. She had most of her weight on her knees now…and she wanted to drop down to the bed…but she also wanted…
She wanted to feel good.
"Can-can you let go? I want to….I mean I know what to do and-" said Mob
"No." said Ritsu. Mob stopped moving. She knew that he could talk! He could talk and that meant that now they could talk together and she would say all the things that omegas were supposed to say and he could say all the things that alphas were supposed to say and this….this could still be so good! Even if she was on her stomach…and even if she wasn't in the nest that she had made…this could still be as good as it was supposed to be.
"I knew you could talk. Um…ok. So I…um….OH!" said Mob. She hadn't had a chance to say anything. None of the things that an omega was supposed to say, none of them at all, because….well Ritsu had decided to skip the talking part and go right to…it. The first part of it had been inside of her…and it hadn't been much of an adjustment. It had been about as deep as she had gone with her hairbrush.
He was a lot bigger than her hairbrush.
That was….a lot bigger…and thicker than her hairbrush. She…she also wasn't that strong. She went down fully onto her stomach…and that didn't stop him. This…was it. This was what the knot felt like. This was….it hurt a little. She had never gone this deep before and…and it sort of felt good…but….maybe if she moved too. She tried to get back up, at least on her knees she had been able to move, but…well she wasn't that strong…
And also Ritsu was kind of heavy.
He didn't seem to care that she was on her back. She could feel him going in and out…and out and in and…and it felt like it was getting bigger. She knew that the knot was supposed to get bigger when it was inside of her…so this was to be expected….but…she closed her eyes. She moved her hips and…and that was better. It didn't feel like magic, she didn't see stars, and she wasn't screaming his name like she was supposed to…and he wasn't screaming hers either. He was mostly just breathing…and she was mostly just breathing…and if she matched her breathing with his…and her hips with his…it could…
It could feel pretty good.
Matching him was the trick. When he went back she went back and when he went forward she went forward…and it felt like it was getting deeper…but also…also thicker…and thicker was better than deeper. The books had all talked about how there would be a spot deep inside that made her see stars when he hit it…but it was more like the…sides? The sides of her place felt better than the inside. Like it felt better being all….stretched out…and stuff. It hurt a little but also…also it just felt…sort of….good….
Really good.
She was singing now. Not songs, no, singing was that the books called it when you just sort of…made voice noises. Not words just…the noises her voice made on it's own to encourage her alpha. She made these on her own…when she was close…and she was…she may not have been on her back and he may not have been touching her how she liked, he had completely ignored her breasts, but this could still be good…good enough to make her sing…and her singing was making him go faster and faster and….
And now she couldn't see.
He had pushed her head down into his bed. She could smell him now…she was surrounded by his smell…and she could hear their skin smacking together…and she could feel…he was licking the back of her neck. The scent gland she had there. She could feel his tongue and…and his teeth too. He was licking it and with each lick, each sloppy lick, she could feel his teeth. The books hadn't said that it would be this sloppy. In one she really liked the alpha kissed the omega's neck lightly before he…but her…marker her. This was…a lot more spit. She knew what the spit was for, to mix their smells better, but she just…hadn't expected there to be enough of it that she could feel it running down her neck….
And she hadn't expected his teeth to be so sharp either.
"Ritsu!" shouted Mob as she felt his teeth sinking into the skin at the back of her neck. She knew that the skin was supposed to be thick there just for that purpose…and she knew from what she had read that she shouldn't have felt more than a little pinch when he bit her…but that was more than a little pinch. That was a bite. That was a full on bite and…and it hurt. She could smell…blood. Her blood. She could smell her blood and it mixed with the heavy sweet smell of her body and the spicy smell of Ritsu and…and when she focused on the smell it felt better….and now it was…it hurt but….but she could still meet him. Up. Down.
Up. Down.
Again and again…and he was still doing it even though he had already bitten her. That meant that it was over. Now he would stop moving and she could enjoy the feel of the knot and then he would tell her that he loved her and she would tell him that she loved him and then….well she didn't know what happened next. The books hadn't gotten that far. The books hadn't said what would happen if her alpha kept on moving even after they had bene knotted and…
Oh.
They hadn't knotted.
That was the knot.
Something….big…made it's way into her. It felt like something inside of her…something at her entrance…broke. Broke for this big…thing…that didn't….that didn't feel good! It was supposed to be a slight discomfort, the book had said, when it happened for the first time. A slight discomfort as her body got used to the knot…but this was more than a slight discomfort…and it….it….it was getting BIGGER?! Why? It was already way too big. She got up onto her knees….Ritsu's weight wasn't on her anymore. He was sitting up on his knees and his hands were digging into her shoulders…he was pulling her close…and she tried to move her hips forward…tried to crawl away….but she couldn't. She nipped at her, right where he had marked her, as she tried to crawl away…but she couldn't have anyway.
That was what the knot was for.
She couldn't get it past her entrance….that was why it had to be so big. Ritsu had at least stopped moving now. He was slumped over her back…and he was nipping at where he had bitted…and his hands were still digging into her shoulders and…and that hadn't been…anything! The knot was supposed to be the best part! This was where it was supposed to feel like nothing she had ever felt before! She was supposed to feel safe and loved and connected in ways that she had never felt before! Instead all she felt was….
Well connected in ways that she had never felt before.
Ritsu was singing, too, the alpha version of it. His voice did that to put her at ease…but it didn't! This whole thing felt…weird. Being this full….having all of his smell around her…all the spit on the back of her neck…the blood…the bite he kept on whining and nipping at…all of this was just…weird. She….she had never thought this clearly during a heat before…so maybe it was supposed to be weird? She didn't know…all she knew was that books either lied or exaggerated….what all of this was supposed to be like….because that hadn't been good….but it hadn't been bad either….
So maybe she should try again.
She moved…and felt the mess between her legs. Slick and sticky at the same time. That was….what was supposed to happen when she did this…and…and moving felt…alright. The knot felt like it was getting a little bit smaller and…and when it wasn't stretching her like that it even felt sort of….good. She felt raw and sore but….but it wasn't all bad. Once the initial pain passed it wasn't that bad at all….
So maybe they could try…again? They probably would…she had at least five more days of heat coming to her…..