Comfort

I was trying to sleep on my warm bed, but I kept having a nightmare as it felt so real. Just picturing it was too much for me. I want my eyes to relax and just sleep but I kept felt restless as I can feel tears escaping from my eyes. I just wanted to lie down but I kept tossing and turning. I tried everything to go to sleep and to get rid of those scary thoughts, but it was proven to be all in vain.

After minutes of battling my fears while trying to sleep, I jolted up as I gasped for air. I felt sweat dripping from my head as I panted very fast. It felt so real, but I know that I'm safe in my room, my own room yet those fears still lingered my head like a parasite. I wished it would go away but just trying to think of something else was too difficult.

Finally, after I catch my breath, I looked at the alarm clock and it read "1:00 am". I couldn't believe it. I went to bed at 9:00 pm and I've been facing my fears in my dream for good four hours. I was shocked and no wonder why I felt so restless and so scared.

After I was done looking at the time, I then faced the door that was in front of me as I know what to do. I wanted to do it, but would I cause disturbance? I knew that Gordon was very tired from the express and I was fully aware that Emily needed some goodnight sleep as she was to work at the Mainland tomorrow.

However, my mind kept telling me to go to one person that was always there to comfort me and make me feel safe. I must go to him, but I bet he would not be impressed if I woke him up as he doesn't like it when someone disturbs on what he liked to call his beauty sleep. Yet, at that point, all I wanted was to be with him and gets some hugs, kisses, and assurance that everything would be okay.

After making my decision that what felt like forever, I decided that I will go to him, even if I ruined his "beauty sleep". There, I slowly got off my blue warm bed and I tipped toed quietly as I exited from my bedroom. I opened the door slowly as I prayed it didn't make any creaking noise.

Thankfully, it didn't as I managed to successfully to get out of my room without making any single noise that could wake anyone up. As I exited, I slowly shut the door and again, it didn't make any creaking noise.

Once my bedroom door was fully shut, I walked slowly while avoiding making any sound as I walked to the room that was to my left. It was only a couple of steps but every step, my heart was pounding as I feared that if I woke someone up, I would get into deep trouble. To my luck, I got to the bedroom that was next to me without making noises as I stand in right front of the door.

As I looked at the door, I took a deep breath, praying that I didn't make him mad for waking him up. There I mustered up my courage as I opened the door slowly. Just opening his door was much more overwhelming then exiting my room.

However, when the door was fully opened, I saw him. I saw a man with lovely ebony black hair, sleeping peacefully on his fine red bed. Just seeing him asleep made me feel calm as he slept so peacefully. I'll admit that when he snores, I find it rather adorable. Sure enough, he did snore quietly as he slept. I also watched his breathing pattern while he was asleep. His breathing seems so calm and slow. He seemed to have a pleasant dream.

As much I love seeing my boyfriend sleeping, I knew I must talk to him as that fear was still lingering. So, I whispered, "James? James?"

The moment I called his name twice, I heard him moaned and groaned as he turned his head to the left. I could see his facial reaction as he was at first smiling in his sleep but when I called his name, his smile went to a small frown. I knew that I annoyed him.

So, I tried again, and I whispered but much louder while avoiding on waking others up, "James?"

After I said his name for the third time, his eyes began to open slowly as he moaned. Just seeing his ruby-red eyes was mesmerising as his eyes looked like it was made of rubies. Once he woke up, he got up slowly as he rubbed his eyes. There, he mumbled as he began to be fully aware of his surroundings, "Ugh. Who dare wakes me up in the middle of the night?"

I knew that I upset him, and I felt bad that I woke my boyfriend up. He and I had been dating for months but we still sometimes annoy each other by doing it accidentally or on purpose. Just then, his eyes were fully awake as he saw me standing right in front of his bed. Before he could react, I felt tears building as I tried not to cry loudly.

I tried hard to hold back but I just couldn't. So, I began to sob hard yet quietly as I looked at him with teary eyes. As I cried, James gasped quietly as he knew that something was wrong. He never liked seeing me upset and he does feel remorse when his teasing had hurt my feelings. He gave me wide eyes as he asked softly, "Thomas? What's wrong?"

Just hearing him trying to soothe me was very comforting just like hearing a purr from our cat, Domino. As I was still crying, I managed to reply as I nearly choked at my own tears, "I-I'm… I'm so scared."

The moment I answered his questions, James then spoke, "Aww. Come here."

As he said, he let his arms out wide to tell me to go to him and allowed him to hug me. Just seeing his worried eyes made me feel guilty as I don't like making anyone upset, especially James. Before I went to him, I closed his door that was behind me quietly so no one would hear our conversation.

Once the door was closed, I walked slowly to him as tears were still flowing down my cheeks. After a few steps, I sat on his bed as he wrapped his arms around me. Just feeling his arms around me made me feel safe. He hugged me gently yet tightly as he wanted to comfort me. As I was still crying, he then proceeded to kiss my tears away. My eyes went a bit wide as I looked at him.

There, I saw James with a sad smile as he used his fingers to wipe the remaining tears, "Tell me what's wrong?", he asked softly as he looked at my sky-blue eyes with sad eyes.

I wanted to tell my fears and my nightmare, but I felt scared of doing so. I know James was an amazing boyfriend, yet those fears seemed to make me feel like I don't have the power to speak out my feelings. All I can do is looked down at my lap as tears were still escaping from my eyes.

I knew that James doesn't like it when he doesn't get any answers, "Thomas? Please speak so I can help.", he asked again but a bit more firmly.

Just hearing his firm tone made me feel awful and I didn't answer his question. I know he wanted to help me, but I still felt scared. I did tell him that I felt scared, but I knew it wasn't enough as I knew that he wanted to know the reason why I'm feeling so scared.

After a minute of silence between me and James, he then hugged me tighter and he then spoke even firmer yet gently, "Thomas, I need to know what's making you feel scared. If you don't answer, then how am I supposed to help you?"

I knew James was right, but would he judge me from having a nightmare. Usually, kids have nightmares and of course, adults can too but I feel ashamed to admit my fears as I thought that when you have a nightmare, you can get through it. While most of the time was true, but tonight was very different.

So, I thought carefully about whether I should talk about it or not. Even if I do, those fears will make things worse. After a moment of thinking, I sighed as I wiped my own tears as I managed to look at him, "James… I just… had a bad dream…"

After I answered his question, his eyes made a sad expression as he spoke, "Oh… care to talk?"

I thought James was going to tease me a bit before comforting me but just him asking me to talk about it without any jokes made me sighed in relief, yet I was surprised. I could tell by his body language had matched to his tone and what he had said.

So, I took some deep breaths and I replied with a bit of struggle, "Well… I was heading back home and when I got there, everything seemed so empty and quiet…"

I paused for a moment as I waited for James to ask what happened next. However, James didn't as he waited for me to continue. So, I then continued, "I thought it was strange until when I got to the lounge room, I saw you and everyone was there and… and…"

As I tried to finish off the story about my nightmare, I felt my tears were flowing even faster as I sobbed hard, "And… you and everyone started to say horrible stuff about me and that I was a mistake!"

Just I was sobbed harder, James's eyes went wide, and he gasped quietly. He couldn't believe he had heard. So, he then hugged me tighter and asked without getting upset himself, "What did I and everyone else say?"

I looked at him with pain my eyes as I replied, "Stupid, dumb, useless, worthless and that I was better off to be alone for the rest of my life! You even said that you never loved me, and you even hurt me!"

Then I covered my eyes as I felt so ashamed to tell my nightmare at the same time, I felt horrible as I made my boyfriend upset. As I sobbed very hard, I began to get hiccups from choking at my own tears. Not long after, I felt my arms were lowered down as James placed his right hand gently under my chin. Just him doing it made me blushed as I felt my tears came to an abrupt halt.

I looked at him with wide eyes and saw he gave me an upset expression that I hoped to never see. He looked at me with sad eyes and spoke, "Oh, Thomas… you know that you are a worthy person and that you are not a mistake. Everyone here loves you."

Just hearing his comfort made me feel somewhat better but that nightmare felt so real. I wanted to speak but I allowed him to continue, "You're so kind, you're cheeky, and your heart is pure like gold that anyone would envy for it. What's more, you have the resilience and most people don't have it. You know that nightmares are not real and that it's normal to get scary ones occasionally."

Just hearing his true words made me sniffed as I looked at him with glistening eyes from the remaining tears that were still in my eyes. Despite I knew that many people cared about me and that James loved me very much, I knew I was going to ask the stupidest question that I knew the answer very well, "Do you love me?", I asked.

James looked at me with a stunned face as he couldn't believe what I asked. He then moved my face towards him. I blushed harder from his move as I knew where it would lead next. I'm so glad he's very comforting and that he would always give me love just like how I do it to him.

As my face was a mere inch from his, he gave me a gentle smile, "I love you Thomas and I always will. I always had since the day I met you. How could I have a crush on you for six years, then be together for six months and then break your heart? I would never do that, and I would never forgive myself if I hurt your feelings that bad. Plus, I can't live without you."

I know the difference between the lies and truths from James and I knew from the start to end that he spoke the truth. Just hearing it made me feel happy as I slowly but surely gave him a small smile. Just me doing it made him happy as he was glad that I was feeling better but more importantly, I'm glad that I'm feeling better myself. I'm so lucky to have a boyfriend that would always make me laugh, would always make me smile, and would always comfort me when I feel low.

After a minute of silence between eyes as we gave each other a smile, James then moved my face even closer to his. I knew what he wanted, and I wanted it too. My lips are now yearning for his as I wanted him to kiss me. There, our lips were brushed gently as I felt my heart beating fast as I blushed. I could see that James was smiling and I did the same thing.

At last, we both closed our eyes gently as our lips were closed as one. Just getting his kiss was like heaven for me. Our love was very strong indeed and nothing could break us apart. At first, our kiss went from gentle and then it went to tender after thirty seconds flew by. The more we kissed, the more I felt better and safe.

After three minutes of kissing, which felt like an eternity, we let our lips go as we catch our breath. After we caught our breath, we looked at each other with pure love as James spoke, "I love you, Thomas."

I smiled as I replied, "I love you too, James."

After we looked at each other with pure love, I then felt my eyes began to feel heavy as I yawned quietly. James noticed it as began to chuckle, "Tired?"

I hummed a yes as I nodded slowly. James then proceeded to ask, "Want me to lead you to your bed to make you feel safe?"

I shook my head from my boyfriend's question, "No thank you. I feel fine but thank you for your offer."

James the smiled and replied, "Well if you insist, goodnight."

"Goodnight James.", I replied as James pecked my lips.

"Do have a pleasant dream.", James whispered as I went exited his room.

"I will and have a pleasant dream too.", I replied ad we looked at each other for a couple of seconds with love as I finally exited from his room and I went to my bedroom.

Finally, I got to my room as I closed the door behind me, and I went to my bed. As I adjusted myself, I felt weary in eyelids as I knew I can get some sleep. I'm so glad that James had comforted me. There, I allowed my eyes to close shut as I smiled in my sleep. I'm glad that nightmare didn't come back.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Yay! I made a second fanfiction that is done in First Point of View. I did James first in "Buzz, Buzz Again" and this time, I did Thomas's Point of View. I enjoyed writing this one! This fanfiction is one of my favourite fanfictions that I have made. Also, if you're wondering who's Domino the cat, then read "Thomas, James, and the Kittens" and then you'll understand.

Anyways… I hope you guys enjoyed it!