Author note:

I'm working two jobs and trying to still write. I have proofread but it might get changed up a little as I get time to reread. Just because there are parts of this that I'm not really content with but I wanted to get something up for everyone. If you've read this far and haven't posted a comment please do. I love hearing from everyone.

Repost form minor edits: 10/19/2020

I scrubbed my body twice over in the shower that night. I couldn't get the feel of Eric off of me. Why did he have to set his sights on me? Why couldn't he just keep hating me? And I don't think he even really likes me. He just sees a ticket or something to get him to the next thing he's after. The big question was what was it he was after?

That night Tobias didn't come to my window which threw me off. Was he really mad at me? I didn't know and the next morning I couldn't talk to him in front of the cameras and other people. We were both in a very grumpy mood but at least kept it under control in front of others.

Diana and I broke off to work with the girls on how to take down men. Too many times a man would think that they could overtake a woman and the woman might be intimidated into thinking she couldn't help herself. We needed to make sure these ladies would not get into that situation. Some of the Team A men came over to help out so the girls could practice on men who really knew what they were doing. Christina was the first to really take one of them down. I saw her look up at me and I had to pretend to not be overly excited for her. Diana stepped in and congratulated her. Tori was the next one to do it but she didn't look excited about it. Just business as usual for her.

It was a long day of training including target practice with guns. But it was nice to have everyone actually knowing what they were doing. The older Dauntless weren't showing out or anything but actually helping correct some of the younger ones mistakes. I made note of those who were helping because that showed team work and willingness to make the whole team better. Of course I wanted to go back through and qualify again, because I'm a glutton for punishment, apparently. I didn't have to do it but felt like I could still improve with the pistol. And if I was part of the team I needed to do it. I was hitting the target but was hitting higher than where I was aiming. Four came up beside me and put his hand on my shoulder, "squeeze the trigger smoothly. Don't jerk it back."

Well, him standing next to me like that did not make me any more settled, but I tried to block him out and whatever craziness was going on between us. I felt him step back and I was able to really concentrate and start hitting the center where I wanted too.

After supper we went back to the training room and finished the target practice and everyone qualified out on pistol. Then we were released for the night. I went back to my room and waited but realized Tobias wasn't coming to my room again. I was done with this crap, he wants to play it this way then I will play it this way. I go across the hall and knock on the door, "Four, open up. I need to talk to you."

I hear shuffling and then he opens the door and leans against the door jamb. "What do you want, Six?" That name coming from him rakes on my nerves. I get that it's to keep up appearances but I don't want him to call me that.

"I want to know why, suddenly, you're pissed at me again. We were getting along fine and now you're being a jerk."

He looks down at his hand examining some mark that was there, "Oh, I don't know, maybe, because I was trying to congratulate you and you pushed it off, like it wasn't a big deal. Renaming is huge, they don't do that very often."

I wasn't sure who I was talking to here, Tobias or Four, but for the cameras sake and whoever might be watching I said, "Maybe, I'm just trying not to make the same mistakes over again. Maybe, I don't want to think that you feel the same way I do when you don't and get hurt or worse get you in trouble again." I turn to go back to my room, but he grabs my arm and turns me around.

"What if I do feel the same way this time?" he asks in a low voice and I look up to see Tobias.

I can't breathe, "What?" This is not an act. I know he loves me but he is saying it in front of cameras, and that meant in front of other people.

He bends down and kisses me gently, then harder as he backs me up against the wall next to my door. I push him back "Four, I don't understand." I say trying to remember we are still in character.

He pushed himself back away from me further and ran a hand through his hair as he growled, "I don't know. After I saw myself in your Fear Landscape I guess it got me to thinking. I didn't want to think about it but I couldn't help it. And then I saw you with Uriah and it pissed me off, but I couldn't do anything because if I'd not been stupid you would have been with me. Then you two broke up and I thought maybe I had a chance again. And when I didn't show up again in your landscape I was really proud of you and happy for the possibilities. But you shrugged me off," he said it all while pacing the hallway. That was probably the most anyone had ever heard Four speak.

"I just didn't want to get hurt again," I said quietly.

He came back to me, "I'm, sorry. You have no idea how sorry. I was an idiot and I'm sorry," he kissed me again and before he pushed me through my door he stopped and said "hold that thought." He went back to his door to shut and lock it.

Next thing I know we are on my bed, behind a closed door, kissing and touching each other, "Hold on, just a second," I say pushing him back for a second, "I need a moment to catch up. That whole thing was confusing because who are you right now? Four or Tobias?"

He was breathing hard but he smiled, "Sorry I couldn't keep going being two different people to you. I will always be Tobias, Four is just going to be a happier person in public and he has a hot new girlfriend named Six." Then he shook his head, "But I was confused when you shrugged me off and I didn't handle it well. Either of me."

I nodded, "Okay that I can explain. I shrugged you off because I didn't think Six would let you get by with the flirty behavior after what you put Tris through."

I could almost see the information click together in his brain, "Oh, yeah, because Six is a badass. Got it." He smiled at me, "Multiple fake personalities are hard to keep up with."

He kissed me again and I don't remember anything after that except a blur of wonderful sensations; until his alarm went off for our early morning training session. As tired as I was I wasn't about to give anybody a reason to break us up as a team. I saw him to the door and kissed him. It was weird that we were actually doing this at the door and not hiding from the cameras. After getting ready we met back in the hallway and ran down to the cafeteria to grab breakfast together and then went to the training room.

We still got there earlier than anyone else and were warming up when Max walked in the door and looked at us with surprise.

"Here I thought you two would be late this morning," he said

"Why?" I asked with surprise. Had I done something to make him think I wasn't reliable?

"Oh, a little birdie told me Four didn't sleep in his own room last night." Max said staring at Four.

I snorted as Four sighed and grumbled, "A little birdie like a camera outside our apartments."

Max shrugged, "It was an entertaining show. To be honest, I'm surprised you held out this long."

Four threw up his hands in frustration, "Forgive me for trying to be professional, especially after being accused of being unprofessional when I wasn't." I almost smiled because we were unprofessional but they didn't know that.

I took Four's hand and looked at Max, "Our personal life is ours. If it interferes with our work then you can say something. Otherwise, stay out of it, Max."

Max stared at me for a few seconds and said seriously, "Okay, but keep it together or you're both finished on this team."

I nodded, "Yes, sir." And when Four didn't follow suit I elbowed him so he mumbled a, "Yes, sir."

Max looked at me and I could see him almost laugh, "Well at least she might keep you in line, Four."

After weeks of hiding what was going on between us it seemed almost second nature to keep up the act. This helped us to keep ourselves professional most of the time. Every once in awhile Tobias would look over at me and wink and I had to look away with a grin. He was still trying to flirt and I guess for those that thought our relationship was new it was probably a good idea. It wasn't long before everyone knew something was up and Christina would look at me trying not to laugh. She was going to be bursting before this whole thing was over.

One morning on the first week I had went on down to the training room to set up the knives and targets for that afternoon before I went to work. While Tobias went to the dining hall to grab us some muffins and was going to bring them to me before we went to work. Eric came in and stood watching me with his arms crossed, "So you're back to Four are you?" The look on his face was not pleasant.

"It's none of your business," I said looking him right in the eye. I refuse to be weak no matter how scared I was becoming of him.

He walks up to me and pins me to the table I had been working at, pressing his whole body against me and I have to look up to see his face as he leans over me causing me to bend backwards. He wraps his hand in my ponytail and pulls my head further back, "You'd like to think that, wouldn't you? Because then you wouldn't have changed too much. You could still fit in," he sneered, "But one day you'll want more than what these little boys are willing to give you and you'll seek me out to show you what you've missed out on. And I'll give it to you so hard you won't be able to walk for a week. But the longer you make me wait the more I'll punish you and make you beg. Make sure you know what game you're playing when you mess with me." He said and let go of my hair and freakishly caressed my cheek pushing a strand of hair back behind my ear. He then pushed away from me and walked out of the training room.

I swallowed hard and take a few breaths to calm myself. Tobias came in at that point and set the food on the table in front of me. When he saw my expression he said, "I saw Eric in the hallway. Did he say something to you?"

I shook my head. After Four's initial reaction to Eric talking to me I didn't want to stir up more trouble. "Just his usual crap. I think there's something seriously wrong with him. I wonder what happened to him when he was younger."

"What did he say to you?" Tobias said sternly.

I straightened my hair and took another breath, "Nothing for you to become a murderer over so stop trying to be the scary boyfriend." I wrapped my arms around his waist and hug him tight. I needed his close proximity to erase the feeling of Eric on me.

"I don't like the attention he gives you. I don't know what he's up to," Tobias said to me.

I look up and give him a quick kiss, "Doesn't matter what he's up to. All that matters right now is that I'm hungry and need to get to work." I grab my muffin off the table along with the juice bottle he'd brought with him, and eat quickly.