Hi guys so I thought I would post another chapter before school starts Monday maybe even two because I have been in such a writing mood lately! I am trying to make my chapters longer for you, that is what a lot of you were asking for! So I am trying my best! I hope you enjoy this chapter and for those of you starting school or just going to work, I wish you well and hope you have a great day!

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"I use to have nightmares back before Hank took me in.. they were always about me trying to escape but I never could." Erin said while sitting on the comfy leather couch in ' office.

"Escape? Escape from what exactly?" asked examining Erin's face and body language.

"Um nothing specifically it was me trying to escape from my life hah, yeah I was a mess. I was always scrambling for money and whenever I got some for maybe some food for dinner, Bunny would find it and take it for God knows what." Erin sank back further into the couch thinking back. " I can't even remember everything from when I was younger some days I just blacked out and then I carried on like it was nothing. That was until I called Hank after being fed up."

"So Hank took you into his home and you became a part of his family?" inquired.

"Yeah, Camille and Justin. They were great, I knew they were worried and suspicious at first but I knew that I had to get myself together because that was where I was meant to be. I miss them." Erin dropped her gaze playing with a loose thread from her shirt.

"So why are these nightmares coming back now? What caused you to be afraid like you were when you were little?" pushed for answers.

"If I am being honest, besides being terrified of what uh he would do next to me, it was the fact that I could die and I wouldn't get to say goodbye." Erin let a tear escape but quickly brushed it away. "I don't know, just the fact that I have so much left to do in the world and it felt like I was back in the hole in the wall house I grew up in. It was like I was being suffocated."

"But you are here now, and yet these nightmares still occur after you talked and were reunited with Hank. I also heard things are very well with Jay am I correct? New uh boyfriend?" said trying to get a chuckle out of Erin.

"Hah yes Jay is great, Hank finally gave us his blessing and I don't think I would be here or healing as fast as I am without him. I think I was scared to not get the chance to say goodbye and to never get to really tell him how I felt." Erin looked up and felt relief as she finally let out what she had been holding back.

"Well you have him by your side now, why not tell him everything you have been feeling? I feel like we have made some major progress today and I would like to continue, I think you are close to ready but not just yet. I would say another two sessions, is that okay?"

"Yeah sure, I just want to be cleared." Erin responded with her eyes yearning to go back to work.

"Understandable Erin but sometimes our emotions and mind needs to heal too. I will see you soon. Nice talking to you today." stood up and gave Erin a hug, he then opened the door and watched her slowly walk to the exit.

It had been three weeks since the incident and every night she had woken startled by a new nightmare taking her by surprise. She was physically ready for work but Voight wouldn't let her come to the precinct without a clearing from .

Erin made her way to the front office of the hospital finding Jay sitting in the waiting room reading a magazine. She smiled, she felt so beyond lucky and she knew was right she needed to open up to him and tell him what she was having trouble with. She owed to him, for the past three weeks he had gotten barely any sleep with Erin constantly waking screaming and shrieking at the top of her lungs. Even though she knew he was exhausted he still stayed up and tried to soothe her everytime, always moving her to his body where he could hold her and make her feel safe. Jay hadn't dared leave her alone for one night, afraid of what might happen if she woke up alone and he wanted to be with her.

Erin slowly made her way up to Jay , "Hey there."

"Well hello, have I met you before? You look like this gorgeous girl I love." Jay joked with her, causing her to giggle. Jay just smiled because he rarely got to see her giggle and smile like that with everything that had happened.

"You hungry? Because let me tell you, reading a food magazine was not a smart decision on my part." Jay asked Erin already knowing the answer. She just looked at him and gave him a quick kiss and grabbed his hand and led him out of the hospital doors.

They decided to pick up some food from Erin's favorite fast food restaurant and bring it home.

While chowing down on burgers and fries Erin knew she wanted to talk to Jay and tell him everything she had been feeling and she knew she had to do it now. She put down her burger and picked at her fries while clearing her throat.

"Jay uh can I talk to you?" Erin questioned. Jay was going to joke but he saw that she was serious so he nodded and added an "of course"while laying his hand on her thigh for comfort.

" I Just want to say I am sorry for everything these past few weeks, I know it hasn't been easy but I want you to know how much it means to me you have been there for me." Erin looked at him giving him a faint smile and Jay smiled in return ready to hear her out. "So as you know I have been going to see and as much as I hate to say it he has been helping out a lot. Today we uh touched base on why I have been having my nightmares and I thought you should know why." Erin then took deep breath preparing herself to open up to him and grabbing his other hand.

Jay was surprised at her words, he couldn't believe she was about to open up and let him in. He had been trying to get her to talk to him for the past few weeks and she would just snap at him not meaning to hurt him and stop the conversation. He was so ready.

" This isn't the first time I have had nightmares like this before, I had them a lot when I was a little kid living with Bunny. It was really rough for me back then, I was into drugs and partying and well I would do anything for money. I was a mess and a screw up, but everything was even worse because I was controlled by Bunny. I would get slapped by her countless boyfriends and I wouldn't remember days at times because of the things they would have me do. I was trapped and it felt like I couldn't do anything until I contacted Hank and well you know about that. " Erin took a sip of her soda and then immediately intertwined her hand back with Jays needing his touch. "When I started having the nightmares again it was the same one that I had when I was little, I have no control in the dream and I am scared out of mind. I found out that it had a lot to do with you." Erin then looked at Jay reading his expression but nothing had changed and he was intently listening.

" I guess I have been holding my fear in of not telling you how I feel exactly about you. When I was in that basement I was first of all scared for you but I was scared I wasn't going to be able to have a life with you. This may be cheesy but it would be so perfect and I would picture it all the time. Everytime we would go to Molly's or to your place for a game I so badly wanted to tell you how I felt about you but I always had Hank's words hanging above me but it's not now... Jay I am completely in love with you and I know we just got together but being best friends and partners for as long as were were it feels like I have been with you this entire time. You are just breath taking and amazing in every way possible. You know how to cheer me up and make feel the happiest I have in a long time and I want you to know how much I appreciate you. I see the perfect house and our perfect kids and our perfect life together. I want that with you, I want all of it with you." Erin finally finished, feeling so amazing that she shared her fear with Jay and looked at him with so much passion.

It took Jay a second to comprehend what he had just heard, he just kept looking at her with a blank expression until a wide smile spread across his face and he couldn't stay away from her any longer. He reached across to her and grabbed her putting her on his lap and kissed her so passionately and never like before.

When he finally ran out of breath he separated his lips from hers and looked at his beautiful girlfriend sitting on his lap. "Thank you for sharing that with me, I know it wasn't easy for you but I appreciate it. I never knew that you feared not sharing that with me but hey I know how you feel you don't need to worry about me. I love you too, we are in the same boat here. The house, the kids, the perfect life, I see it all with you too and I can't wait to start it. Erin you are my world." Jay exclaimed never dropping his smile.

This was all Erin needed to hear and the sparkle that left her eyes after the accident came back and she moved and kissed Jay. The kissed heated up fast and soon enough Jay was carrying her to her bedroom and laid her on her bed. He still had to be very careful with her, although she was healed and feeling better she was still sore.

Jay showed her how much he loved her and they laid in her bed taking in their favorite part of the day together. Erin laid across Jay's chest and Jay's arms wrapped around hers while running his fingers through her hair always placing kisses to her head.

"Mhmm this is so nice." Erin said.

"It is isn't it." Jay responded.

"I never want to have to miss this." Erin spoke again noticing Jay turn towards her with a questioning look.

"Wha-" Jay was cut off by Erin.

"Move in with me, I mean you basically have these past few weeks. We can just pack the rest of your things up and bring them here. I don't ever want to go to bed without you." Erin finally proclaimed.

This was music to Jay's ears, he thought he was going to have to be the one that mentioned moving someday, but to see Erin do it, it made him so happy.

"I would love to." Jay whispered into her ear. And with that Erin and Jay slowly fell asleep in each others arms feeling the happiest they had felt in a long time.

That night was the first night Erin had no nightmares.

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So I know it was a bit fluffy but I feel like it was necessary for them to talk to each other. I will hopefully have another chapter up tomorrow for you guys, I really want to write as much as I can for you! Please let me know how you like it and if any of you have a suggestion as to what dramatic thing should happen to them next please let me know? Maybe another damsel in distress scene for Erin or maybe something happens to Jay please let me know! Thanks!