Well... Let's try it. I'm not sure if I will continue this story for long, but you can still let a review to tell me what you'll want to see next !
A simple kiss on my forehead. A gentle hand caressing my hair. The warmth of her body against mine. I swear this woman is from Heaven !
"Ani..." She whispered close to my ear. "Ani , you know how much I love you." Oh yes I know. I know and can't stop thinking that I don't deserved her love.
"And because I love you... I need to know how you feel right now. I want to help Ani." But I don't need help, I don't want to need help.
"Please, not now..." Not now. I'm in Heaven with the most beautiful Angel existing and I don't want to reach the ground again, not yet.
She sighed and continued carefully. "You need to prepare for class Anakin, and me too." I can sense a bit of sadness in her voice and maybe... regret ?
I look inter her eyes with a look of disbelief. "Are you... Are you serious ?" Class ? She's thinking about class right now ?!
"Ani, those few days ahead will be the worst of your life but... you can't stop living. I know it's hard but..." She kisses my head again. "You're not alone alright ? We're here with you."
A little chuckle escape my lips. "I can't believe it !" I roll over and pass my legs over the edge of the bed, my back from her.
"Ani..." She reached for my hand but I push it.
"No, no, no ! I just- She just-... and you're telling me that I-I have to go to school li-like nothing happen ?!" My lips tremble as I spoke. I pace the room like a trap animal. It helps me calm down, well at least usually.
"If you want to take a day off to deal with-... Well you can, but I don't to let you alone in that stated." She looked at me with her big brown eyes, worry writing all over her face. Shit... Why am I so affected by those eyes ?
I stopped and turn my body over her. "Why not ?" She was beginning to form a answer but I cut her short. "Because I need to be watch, like a small child ? Because you don't trust me enough to take care of myself ?" The last statement echo in my head.
Trust.
That also when I realized that she got up, her eyes wild open and that I was shooting my words at her face. "Padmé I-" The time my hand cup her cheek, she slap it far away and back off. She took a deep breath and oh... I don't like when she closed her eyes, a frown on her face. That's always mean something bad. I open my mouth again, but she shut me out with her index rising in front of her.
"I know this is hard, I know you're hurt and sad, but I can't deal with this behavior anymore."
"I'm sorry, it wi-"
"Will not happen again ? That not the first time I hear that Anakin. You promised me that these... outburst and shooting would calm down." She opened her eyes again, a small tear liking on her cheek and oh... How hard I have to stop myself from brushing this tear away with my lips.
"Obi-wan call me last night. I found him on the floor, you in his arms in a quite messy living room. He told me what happened, crying from both the news and you." She paused while I was still freezing on the spot, wanting nothing more than take my word back.
"I came back as fast as possible, afraid of his voice telling me that something happen to you. Then I found him practically in tears watching you. Didn't it pass your mind that you weren't the only one affected by this ? That your behavior did nothing than scared us more ?"
"Padmé I'm sorry ! I was... shock a-and lost and... I wasn't thinking straight." I bow my head, my eyes on the floor, unable to look her in the eyes. "She's... She's gone Padmé and... I-I..." She posed her hand on my harm, rubbing it with a shy smile. After a minute or two, her hand withdraw.
"We need to go Ani. Do you trust me ?" I shook my head up and down. "Then I'll depose you at the University, you'll spend a nice day forgetting about all of this and spending great time with your friends, alright ? I'll come back tonight as soon as possible."
"I don't know if I can do that." She held my chin with her hand, keeping my eyes on hers.
"You can do it and you will do it." She pecks my lips and grace me with the most beautiful smile I never had the pleasure to see. How can I refuse her after that uh ?
"Okay..." I leaned forward and kissed her hard, putting all my fear, sadness and love in it. Thank God she responded to it, giving me back all her emotions.
My day was longer than I ever dream it could be. My focus didn't last ten seconds before all my thoughts came back to her. I had to face concerns eyes glue on me, everyone wondering why my cheeks were humid and my eyes red. I was a living zombie, speaking to no one and just following my class. I was cutting every class to ask for the restroom, the only place I was able to cry without worrying of other. Or so I hoped.
I was forcing myself to remember Padmé's words in front of the mirror, looking at my reflection.
"You can do it... You can do it." I repeated to myself. My hands were shaking against the sink, my skin turning pale and my breath hoarse.
'I can't loose you Ani...' I closed my eyes, my knuckle turning white as my hands tighten against the sink. The more I fought against her voice, the more my head hurt. I was suddenly cold, but sweating like I was in a desert. My all body would have collapse if someone didn't catch me by the arm, helping me to let go of my hold on the sink and sitting against the wall behind me.
"Hey hey man... Are alright ?"
'Ani, come back please !'. My ears were ringing, my heart pounding in my chest like it would jump outside my body with each bump. I just shook my head.
"Do you want me to call someone ?" He sited beside me, a hand on my shoulder.
"L-leave me alone..." I whispered between to sobbing.
"You look pained, let me help you." He patted my shoulder, forcing his body into my personal space. Not waiting for my answer, he took a small plastic bag from his pocket and let it drop on my tight. My eyes followed the bag, which contained a few blue pills.
"I don't... I don't take drugs." This twist in the conversation seems to wake me from my state. I just kicked it off my lap and rising to my feats again. The man rise too and walk forward, placing himself in front of me.
"Not yet." He said with a smirk. "If you need money for it, don't worry, I have some jobs too."
"I'm sorry but, I'm not in search for anything." I tried to walk away, but he once again blocks me with his body, holding out his hand to me.
"It's okay. I'm Rush by the way." He griped my hand without thinking and I instantly back off.
"Well Rush, I don't need your help so... Bye." Keeping an hard face, I pushed him gently away before running for the exit.
I made a stop in front of my locker when I realised that my hands were still tighten on my side. I took a deep breath and relaxed, opening my hands. That's when a little paper fell to the ground with a number writing on it.