Magnus missed Alec, but he respected his choice to follow the rules from the Clave even though he didn't completely understand them. Alec was young after all and Magnus was trying, and failing, to be okay with it.

What Magnus didn't know was that at this very moment, Alec was on his way and about to throw those rules out for good.

Alec arrived at Magnus's place. It was a red building made from brick just like in the old days. He had an intercom to match with the current century but Magnus being who he is, his door did not have the look of a usual door. It was a double door, with two handles side by side. On each side of the door, Alec could see door knockers in the shape of lion heads made of steel and painted gold. Alec catch his breath then pulled his thoughts together and rang the bell. A yelling voice came out the intercom:

"Who dares to call upon the High Warlock of Brooklyn?"

Alec wasn't impressed by this welcome message any more, having heard it in the past. He simply replied: "It's Alec." Nothing more nothing less. He hoped that might be enough for the warlock to open his door since it had been before. He was wrong since Magnus instead of opening the door, talked to him through the intercom:

"Alec, what are you doing here?" Magnus asked.

"I want to talk to you Magnus," Alec spoke into the intercom. "Please open the door."

"I don't think there is anything you could say that I want to hear Alexander," Magnus replied. "Go home."

Magnus didn't want Alec to go away, but he couldn't let him come up to his apartment either. Alec had no idea of the power he held over the warlock.

Alec didn't let himself be discourage. Even though Magnus had told him to go, Alec had to tell him why he came here for, one way or another. He didn't care if he had to stay all night long talking through an intercom.

"I'm not going anywhere until we had a chance to talk," Alec said. "I'm willing to stay here all night if I have to Magnus."

Since Magnus wasn't answering anymore, Alec decided to try a different tactic. He took his backpack off, grabbed the diary he had placed inside, opened it and read the section of it that had changed his mind.

"If I can give a piece of advice, never hide yourself, never try to pretend just to fit in because you're going to be all alone and I'd wish that upon no one. So, go out, live your life like you want it to be. Don't be ashamed of loving men or women, shadowhunters or downworlders. It doesn't matter, just be happy with whoever makes you happy," read Alec.

"What I just said comes from a diary I found this morning, I want you to know I agree with what it says. I should have figured it out a long time ago but I was too scared. I know better now, I know I made a mistake, a huge one and I hurt you in the process. I never wanted that, you have to believe me. Please Magnus, let me in."

The door buzzed, meaning that Magnus had opened it. Alec rushed inside without hesitation and ran up the stairs to Magnus's loft.

The front door was half-open already, Alec let himself in and closed the door. He put his backpack down, took off his jacket and throw it aside. He still had the diary in his hand. He kept it as he moved forward into the apartment, in case Magnus would like to see it.

Alec entered the living room, expecting to see Magnus in there, but he was not there. Alec looked everywhere in the loft, but the warlock was nowhere to be found.

"Magnus? Where are you?" called Alec. "Why did you let me in if you don't want to talk to me?"

Alec was confused; he didn't know what to do. Was he too late? Maybe Magnus was so disappointed that Alec couldn't understand, that he decided to give up. But why let Alec in, if Magnus wasn't even there?

Alec went back into the living room, sat down on the couch and put the diary down next to him. He looked around trying to find out where Magnus was. The living room was a big open space, decorated with taste. On the floor, there was a vast oriental carpet, one of the walls was covered in plants, each more exotic than the other. Alec could see cactus, ivy, suma, chamomile, laurel and there were much more like marigold, cinnamon, peppermint and even lavender. He didn't even know a quarter of the plants that were growing on that wall. The couch on which Alec was sitting was so big it took up a large portion of the space. The curtains were deep red, going from the ceiling to the ground. As he looked at the curtains, Alec noticed the balcony window was open. He stood up, went to the window, looked out and there he saw Magnus standing on the balcony. Relieved Alec stepped outside to join Magnus.

They were now standing next to each other, but neither of them spoke a word, as they looked out at the city. Alec didn't know how long they stood in silence. He had rehearsed in his head what he wanted to say to Magnus, but he could not get a word out of his mouth now that the warlock was standing in front of him. Magnus sighed.

"You said you wanted to talk, so talk or leave. It's up to you," said Magnus before he headed back inside.

Alec was stunned. He hadn't expected that coming from Magnus. He was now more than ever sure that he had hurt the warlock by making all those bad decisions and pushing him away like he did. He didn't want to leave before he had said everything he had in his heart, so he followed Magnus inside the loft.

"I'm sorry Magnus," started Alec.

Before he could continue Magnus laughed bitterly then said, "You're gonna have to come up with something better than that Alexander."

Once more, Magnus wasn't looking at Alec but rather walking away. Alec needed to do this face to face, so before Magnus could take one more step Alec took him by the arm and pinned him to the nearest wall.

Magnus looked confused and opened his mouth to tell Alec to let him go, but Alec didn't let Magnus speak. Instead Alec covered the warlock's lips with his own. Magnus succumbed to the kiss as Alec's body pinned him to the wall. All Alec wanted to do was to tell this man how he felt, but words weren't his strength so Alec poured his heart into their kiss. Their lips moved together and they were pressed so tightly together as to not even leave a inch between them. Magnus locked his arms around Alec's neck. Alec licked Magnus's lip to deepened the kiss, their tongues danced together for a while and after what seemed like an eternity, Alec pulled away. Magnus looked dazed by the kiss, but Alec didn't want to risk anything so he held the warlock against the wall as he spoke.

"Now that I have your attention," Alec said. "I know I'm not- I mean that words aren't my strength, but there are things I need to tell you." Alec took a deep breath then plunged forward. "Pushing you away like that, hurting you by distancing myself. I know it was wrong. I know it but Magnus I love you and I want to fix us. I want there to be hope for us. I should have told you how I felt before but I was scared, no I was a coward, a coward for following such stupid rules." He paused his tone softening. "Though I was also scared of myself… I can't think clearly when I'm around you… whenever I see you my heart beats so fast I think it wants to escape my chest to get to you…"

Alec locked his eyes with Magnus's. His eyes had no match. They were unique a mix of gold and green, but that wasn't all they were. His eyes were shaped like those of a cat, shaped like almonds. They were so expressive. Alec could see the love Magnus had for him but also the pain he had caused him and he couldn't bear to see this feeling in the beautiful eyes of the man he loved.

"Magnus," Alec breathed. "You have taken over my life... no that isn't what I mean. It's like I've been blinded and everything save for you is darkness. You are the brightest star in my sky."

Finally, Alec had said everything he wanted to and now he was just waiting to see how Magnus would react. He was scared to be send away after all he said, after opening up like he had.

Magnus was looking at Alec, with those intelligent eyes, probably trying to find a sign that would tell him, Alec still had doubts, but Alec knew all he'd find is love. Magnus allowed a smile to spread on his face and laughed quietly.

"You never cease to amaze me, Alec," whispered Magnus.

Alec took a step back, grabbed Magnus's hand and pulled him to the couch. He sat down on it and made Magnus sit on his lap. In that moment, he didn't care if this position was awkward or not, he just needed to feel Magnus close to him. He locked his eyes with Magnus's and in those eyes, he saw love but also doubt. Magnus still doubted him. Alec was sure Magnus wanted to believe him but there was clearly a part of him that just could not let go of his fear of being pushed aside again. Magnus remained quiet and Alec knew he had to explain it better. Alec had to communicate the depth of his emotions and wipe the doubt from his lover's eyes. He had to start at the beginning, explain how he'd found the diary, what was inside it and how it had changed his mind. Alec took a deep breath, kept his eyes locked with Magnus's and started to speak.

"This morning I was in the library of the Institute, looking for information's about the Accords, when I found a little brown book hidden in the back of a top shelf. I took it out and opened it," Alec said. "It turned out to be a diary. I turned a few pages absently and was about to put it back when something caught my eye. It was a sentence almost at the end of the journal, and it went 'I'm a boy who loves boys.' I could not believe what I'd just read. I didn't put the diary down until I was done reading it cover to cover."

Alec stopped for a few seconds to gather his thoughts, before continuing.

"What does a diary have to do with all this?" asked Magnus.

"I'm getting to it, just give a second please," answered Alec.

Alec thought it would be easier if he could just show Magnus the journal, but he had no idea where he had put it in his rush to get to Magnus on the balcony. He turned his head and spotted the diary lying at the other end of the couch. He didn't want to get up; he didn't want to leave Magnus's side so he pointed out his finger towards it.

"I brought it with me, so you could see it. It's right there look," said Alec.

Magnus looked in the direction Alec was pointing and saw the little book. With a snap of his fingers the diary appeared in his hand. Magnus examined the journal, turning it over in his hands, and saw the date carved on the side.

"I still don't understand where this is going," said Magnus. "It's just an old diary."

"No," said Alec while shaking his head. "It's not just any old diary. This belonged to a shadowhunter. A gay shadowhunter from 60 years ago. In this diary he tells his story, the struggles he went through, how his parents discovered his secret and what happened after they found out. You remember what I told you through the intercom earlier?"

Magnus nodded.

"It was the passage from the diary that got me thinking about the future. Not just mine, but ours. The one we could have together. He is right, we should not have to hid. I don't know how to say this so…" whispered Alec before taking a deep breath and continuing. "If you had asked me 6 months ago, what I saw in my future I wouldn't have known what to say but ask me what I see now."

"What do you see Alexander?" asked Magnus. Before answering Alec kissed Magnus softly and whispered against his lips.

"You, I can only see you Magnus Bane," Alec whispered. "You are my future."

Magnus wasn't expecting such an answer. He felt so much love coming from Alec. He loved his blue-eyed boy so much and for so many reasons. The way Alec make him feel was like no other. As far as Magnus could remember he had never loved someone as much as he loved Alexander. Even after all that Magnus had to ask him a final question. He needed to be sure.

"What about the Clave, the rules, your parents?" asked Magnus.

"To hell with all that." answered Alec.

Magnus smiled at Alec and leaned forward. He approached his mouth from the side, gently nibbling his earlobe, before whispering.

"I love you too Alexander Lightwood."

At this moment, Alec knew everything was going to be alright. He knew that nothing could break them apart. They would face and destroy every obstacle that they would find on their way. Alec was, in this moment, the happiest man alive. He put his hand on Magnus's check and kissed him, pulling him closer in the process. Magnus put his arms around Alec's neck and deepened the kiss.

In that moment, nothing mattered outside their bubble. The world could have caved in around them and they wouldn't even have noticed it. When they came up for air, Magnus stood up, took Alec's hand and led him to his bedroom. Once inside, he pushed Alec on the bed, before capturing his lips again for another passionate kiss.

After a few more kisses, Magnus took Alec in his arms and hold him tight against his chest. They didn't talk since their eyes were talking for them, showing all the love they had for each other.

"I wonder who wrote the diary," said Alec after a while.

"We'll find out, love, I promise you," answered Magnus.

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