Authors Note: Hi guys I would just like to thank everyone again for following or putting the story as a favorite. So I have a general idea of where I plan on taking the story, but by all means send me your suggestions and comments and I'll try to do my best to incorporate them or just your opinion so far. I would like to give a shout out to Sabertuth and infinitefalling for being the first to review. I would also like to apologize for the late update. I just started my senior year and I have to take so many on to the story.
Emily Pov
Practice was finally finished thank God and I was on my way to the locker room to change when coach called me over.
"Hey coach you need something." I asked
"You seemed a little distracted during practice I just wanted to see where your head is." Coach said looking at me with her arms crossed over her chest.
"Ugh I just have a lot on my mind sorry." I said looking her in the eye.
"Well Emily you can't make mistakes like you did today. McCullers passed you without a second thought." Coach said starting to get a little irritated.
"I know coach. I'm sorry I promise I'll be on top of my game if not better tomorrow." I said with in serious tone. She looked at me for a second before replying "You better. You have a whole squad of girls counting on you."
"I know coach." I said getting annoyed. It's not like I'm the only girl on the team.
"Alright get out of here." Coach said before walking away. I took a deep breath held it for a couple of seconds before releasing it, a technique I learned to help me cope when I'm stressed rather than succumbing to the methods I once used. Shaking those plaguing thoughts from my head I hastily walked towards the locker room changed and all but fled to my car. Once I was situated in my car I started it getting ready to head home when my phone started vibrating. The screen showed an incoming message from Hanna.
From: HannaBanana
Hey Bitch! You done with practice. xoxo
To: HannaBanana
Wow really feeling the love lol and yeh y xoxo
From: HannaBanana
You kno I love u and don't tell me u forgot about the sleepover xoxo
Shit why did I agree to that again. Banging my head against the steering wheel I replied.
To: HannaBanana
You know Han I'm not feeling up to it. I just came from practice and I'm tired.
From: HannaBanana
EMILY FIELDS THERE NO WAY IN HELL YOU ARE WORMING YOUR WAY OUT OF THIS SLEEPOVER NOW GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE!
I flinched a little at the text knowing the last thing I want on my hands is an angry Hanna. I shudder to think what she would do if I didn't show up. I sigh and reply.
To: HannaBanana
Fine I'm on my way….
I pull away from the school and head towards Spencer's house seeing as we have every sleepover there. I take the longest route, but it seems as if I only get there faster. I park my car in the driveway and sigh. It's not like I can make up an excuse and go home for clothes or something. Since eighth grade we all have kept spare clothes at Spencer's in case of a sleepover. I run my fingers through my hair and exit the car.
"Well just because you're here doesn't mean you have to talk to her." I mutter to myself before walking onto the house. I walked into the living room to see the girls already sitting down with popcorn on the table and the beginning titles of a movie showing on the TV.
"Emily finally you're here." Hanna says as if I had been gone for years.
"Hanna you just texted me like not even ten minutes ago." I said laughing at the blonde in front of me while ignoring the gaze of the one in the love seat.
She stuck her tongue out at me before saying "Sit down we're about to watch the Grudge and the pizza on its way." Finally returning to her spot next to Spencer and Aria leaving me with the realization that the only seat available is the one next to Alison. I inwardly sighed before weighing my options. I could sit on the floor and have my friends interrogate as to why I'm doing so or I could sit next to Alison and pretend everything is fine.
"Umm Em do plan on moving anytime soon the movies starting." Spencer said. I finally realized I was standing in the middle of the living room with the eyes of all my friends on me. I just nodded my head before sitting next Alison on the love seat. As soon as I sat down Hanna turned the lights off and started the movie.
"Hey Em." I heard the soft voice of the beauty next to me whisper as her whole body turned to look at me. Without looking at her I replied a quick nod before locking my gaze on the screen in front of me. Out of the corner of my eye my eye I saw Alison's face scrunch up in confusion before turning her gaze to the TV with a contemplative look on her face.
About half-way through the movie Alison stood and asked "I'm getting a drink does anyone want something?" The other girls shouted out what they wanted. Alison's eyes immediately landed on me "Can you help me Em?" I just nodded before walking with her into the kitchen while the other girls continued watching the movie.
As soon as I got into the kitchen Alison grabbed my arm and pulled me through the door connecting to the backyard.
"What the hell Ali." I exclaimed finally managing to break through her grip.
"Why?" Ali asked arms crossed as she looked me straight in the eyes.
"Why what?" I asked trying to play ignorant.
"Pleases Em, we both know what I'm talking about. Why have you been ignoring me?" She practically seethed through her teeth.
"I don't know what you're talking about. Now how about we go inside." I said as I started to turn around. Just as I reached for the door knob I forcefully spun back to where I was, staring at a now fuming Alison.
"Oh really! That's why you've been ignoring me as if I had the plague." Alison said her voice slightly elevating. Getting a little peeved at her tone I replied "So what Alison it's not like I need to be around you 24/7." I could tell she was surprised at my tone.
"That's not what I'm saying. I'm just saying I don't like being ignored." She said taking a tentative steps toward me. Though every part of my brain screamed for my body to move, to not make this so easy for her, to finally grow a back bone, I found my body unable to do so.
She finally reached me and placed her hand on my arm, staring straight into my eyes she said "Em just tell me what I did and I'll make it up to you." As soon as I looked into those magnificent blue eyes of hers all thoughts and feelings of betrayal and anger were thrown away.
"I-I-I don't know. I'm just stressed and took that anger out on you." I lied
"Are you sure that's all it was?" She asked.
"Yes, I'm positive." Giving her my trade mark smile. After a couple of minutes she smiled back at me before pulling me into a hug "Good, I thought I lost you there for a second." I wrapped my arms around her tightly and responded "You'll never lose me."
"Good. Trustworthy friends are hard to come by." I swallowed thickly and tensed at her words. Friends, that's all we'll ever be. She pulled back and looked into my eye's again "Are you ok Em?"
"Yeah" I whispered staring at the features on her face, my eyes stopping at her pink lips before returning to her questioning gaze "Come on let's go inside the girls are probably wondering where we are." I said turning around and walking inside not giving her the chance to respond or halt my actions. After we got the drinks we headed back into the living room only for Hanna to run up to me and snatch the drink out of my hand with "Finally" slipping through her lips before she chugged the whole thing down.
"Hanna slow down." I said in an amused tone as Ali and I sat down after giving the other girls their drink.
"I wouldn't be so thirsty if someone didn't take forever just to get a drink." She said lightly glaring at us. I just rolled my eyes and turned my attention back to the movie not missing the fact that Ali shifted closer to me leaning her head on my shoulder. My heart stopped. All the nerves in my body seem to come alive and tingle as soon as her head touched my shoulder. All thoughts about the movie left my head as I felt Alison's hot breath hit my neck as she got into a comfortable position.
My nerves weren't the only things effected by Alison's sudden movement and breath as I felt an all too familiar ache form in an all too familiar think of something else. A cold shower. "Alison in the shower" a voice inside me offered. My mind drifted to seeing Alison's glistening body. Oh the things I would-NO. Come on Fields get ahold of yourself. Think of something. Umm….Grandpa wearing a speedo. I physically cringed at the image. All feelings of desire immediately thrown out the door replaced with great disgust. Once released from my mental war I noticed the movie had ended and my friends staring at me with amused looks.
"Something on your mind." Spencer asked with the ends of her lips tugging upward.
"No it's just the end really freaked me out." I said trying think of viable excuses for my behavior.
"Yeah because the guy saving his girlfriend and then asking her to marry him is extremely terrifying." She responded not able to hold back the smirk on her lips while Hanna and Aria chuckled and the cause of my little detour merely watched on with an amused smile as I blushed ferociously.
"Ok whatever. What's next?" I said trying to get the attention off me. Alison got up walked to the kitchen and returned with a bottle of vodka and shot glasses. She smiled before saying "let's play I Never." Passing around the glasses and filling them. My eyes widened as I looked down at the glass with skepticism.
"Ok. Everyone take one shot just to loosen yourself up and then let the games begin." Alison said soon downing her shot.
"Ali we have school tomorrow." Spencer said in a defiant tone. I internally jumped for joy and praised Spencer's studious attitude for the first time.
"Spence stop being such worry wart." Alison replied with a roll of her eyes and a bored expression covering her face.
"I am no such thing." Spencer said looking around at all of us who were doing a pretty good job avoiding her gaze "Am I?" She asked before taking her shot glass looking at Ali who had a smirk on her face and chugging it as our eyes widened in surprise. Great she chooses the one day I need her to be responsible Spencer to want to prove her rebellious side. After her Hanna took her shot next followed by Aria. The girls stared at me and my full glass.
"I have a meet tomorrow." I tried weakly. Ali just gave me look. I sighed before downing me glass. Alison filled the glasses again before explaining the game.
"Ok here are the rules, you say something you've never done before and those who have down a shot. Simple enough." Ali said "Ok who wants to go first. Aria?"
"Umm ok. I've never cheated on a test." She said hesitantly.
"Lame." Hanna said before downing her shot along with Ali and myself. I looked up to see Spencer looking at me with disapproval. "What?" I asked
"Them I expected, you not so much. Who'd you cheated off of?" She asked curiously. I smiled at her cheekily and replied "Remember that test in 9th grade where I got a perfect score and you got a 99" she nodded vigorously "I saw the answer key before the test and remembered the answers." I finished off having to duck away from a pillow being thrown at my head.
"I spent weeks trying to figure out how you beat me!" Spencer exclaimed.
"Spence chill." I laughed along with the other girls as she looked at me as if I was crazy, but before she could speak further about the subject Alison interjected "Though it was funny to see Spencer lose her shit over a 9th grade test. As we continue the truths should be more outrageous than cheating on a test. Hanna your turn." She finished as she refilled the empty shot glasses.
"I've never not had sex." I was shocked to see I was the only one who drunk on that. I almost spit out my drink as I exclaimed "You've all had sex." They nodded. "I know Hanna and Caleb mate like their rabbits, but how did you- when did you- what?" I exasperated after not knowing how to continue. Spencer was the first to speak.
"Well I lost mine over the summer to Toby we've kind of been secretly dating." She looked down avoiding our gazes. We all looked at her with wide eyes.
"Damn Spence didn't know you had it in you. Good girls always go for the bad boys" Alison smirked as Spencer blushed before saying "What about you Aria?"
"Well I was at Ezra's apartment and well one thing led to another and…" She finished off.
"Do you guys like bang in the classroom." Hanna asked with an accusing tone.
"Hanna!" Aria scolded.
"What its honest question. I just want to know that when I lay my head on my desk I'm not laying on anyone's bodily fluid." We all cringed.
"No Hanna we have not slept together in the class room." Aria fumed at her though it was funny because her face was completely red.
"What about you Alison. Who was your first time with?" Hanna asked as they stared at Alison awaiting her answer to a question I never wanted to know.
"Ian." She said simply as if it was nothing.
"Ian as in my sister's ex-boyfriend Ian." Spencer asked with wide eyes though I don't think it matched that of my own.
"Yup" She said in the same tone as before.
"Ali how could you?" Spencer asked with a disgusted tone.
"What's done is done and it's not like I forced him to do anything he didn't want to. He was after me for some time and I was ready to lose my V-card so I just gave in." Ali said in a tone and look that said question me and you'll be sorry though that didn't remove the disgusted look from spencer's face or the knife slowly and painfully chopping my heart in pieces. I looked at my drink before downing it and three others after it. Looking up I met the girls shocked faces while feeling slightly intoxicated.
"It's ok that you didn't lose your virginity yet. Do it when you're ready." Hanna said softly thinking that was the problem. Aria and Spencer both sent me warm smiles while Alison gave me a look I couldn't decipher. I just nodded before saying "Spence your turn."
She contemplated before saying "I've never kissed a girl before." To my surprise Alison downed her shot and said "What I wanted to experiment and see what it was like."
"Who?" Hanna said wanting to know badly.
"I don't kiss and tell." Alison said with a satisfied smirk.
"Emily are you ok." Spencer asked seeing as I hadn't looked up from my glass and could feel the color drain from my face as soon as the question was asked. I looked into my shot glass for a long time. I don't know if it was Ali's answer or the amount of alcohol in my blood, but before I knew it I was slowly pulling it to my face and drinking it. I heard audible gasp from the girls.
"Em you've kissed a girl." Aria asked. I just nodded my eyes never leaving my empty glass.
"What why?" Spencer asked in a curious tone.
"I wanted to see something." I said barely over a whisper not caring if they heard me or not.
"What?" Hanna asked in a soft tone.
I took a shaky breath as tears blurred my vision "If-if-if I liked it." I finally chocked out.
"Em what are you trying to say." Aria asked putting her hand over mine as an act of comfort. I couldn't help but notice Alison's sudden silence.
"I-I-I am- I'm gay." The room went silent as tears cascaded down my face. What did I just do?