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Emily POV

I woke with a start as I looked around trying to grasp my bearings. Soon I recognized the room as Spencer's and that the girls were around me. As I looked to the side of the room at the clock, 4:00am flashed in red bright printing back at me. I let out a little sigh knowing I would not be able to get back to sleep. I carefully and silently maneuvered my way out of the room making sure I didn't wake any of the girls. Once I was outside of the room I headed towards backyard and sat down on the steps. I took a deep breath as the events from last night slowly embedded themselves into my mind.

I felt a great sense of relief that I was finally able to tell the girls the truth, even though it took alcohol to get me there. My mind soon found its way back to that of my fixation and the answer she provided me last night.

Maybe I'm just waiting to see who cares enough to break them down.

Could she really not see how much I loved her? How much everything she did affected me? How, if she gave me the chance I wouldn't hesitate break down any and every wall she built? As I sat there contemplating everything I failed to notice the person sitting next to me until she put a comforting hand on my thigh. I nearly jumped out of my skin until I saw it was Hanna. Releasing a shuddery breath I asked "Hanna what are you doing out here."

"Did you really think I wouldn't notice my best friend sneaking out into the night?" She said with a small smile tugging at her lips.

"I thought I was quiet. Sorry I woke you." I said not facing her, but instead looking out into the darkness.

"I honestly don't care that you woke me." She said. Hanna the queen of beauty sleep not caring that she was woken before the sun rose. I just gave her an incredulous glance before returning my gaze back towards the blackness. It was a little while before anyone spoke again.

"Emmy what's wrong." She asked in soft voice. She and my dad were the only ones who ever called me that.

Flashback

I was six years old and playing at the park with Hanna. We were on the swings when I saw a man approaching me. As he got closer I was able to get a better look at him and soon jumped off my swing and ran at full force. I could faintly hear Hanna in the background calling my name, but nothing mattered except the man in front of me.

"Daddy!" I cried as I flung myself at him. He caught me and replied "Emmy. I missed you so much." After a hugging session I noticed Hanna standing staring at us with a confused look.

"Hanna this is my daddy. Daddy this Hanna my bestest friend in the whole world." I said as my dad just smiled at both of us.

"Emmy who's Emmy I thought your name was Emily." Hanna asked her confused face remaining.

"It is daddy just calls me that sometimes." I reply as she thought over my answer before smiling and asking "Can I call you Emmy too?" I looked at daddy for the answer. He just smiled and bent down in front of Hanna.

"I'm the only one who calls Emily Emmy." He said and Hanna's face fell. Then he continued "Though seeing as you are her bestest friend in the whole world I think it would ok if you called her that too, but only you and I are allowed ok." He ended smiling at her before she hugged him and smiled at Emily showcasing her missing front tooth.

"Did you here that? You're my Emmy now too" She hugged me before we started playing again.

End of Flashback

I held a small nostalgic smile on my face as Hanna asked "What are you smiling about."

"Just thinking about the first time you called me Emmy." I said.

"You know you're still my Emmy and it hurts to see you hurting." She said turning her body to look at me completely.

"I'm sorry-no before you interrupt this needs to be said- I'm sorry. Your right you are my best friend and I've been hiding myself from you and that's not right. I was just scared. I didn't want you to think I was weird or disgusting. I just wanted to be Emmy, your best friend without something destroying or tarnishing that." I said looking down at my hands as tears started to build in my eyes.

"You could never destroy are friendship no matter what, especially over something like this. I don't love you because of who you choose to love, I love you because your heart is so big and beautiful that it would be impossible to not be your friend. Ok?" She said lifting my chin and looking into my eyes. I just nodded my head.

"Now let's move on to more important things like do you like check me out? I know I'm hot and it would be hard not, but I don't know how Caleb would feel about that. On second thought he'd probably come up with some weird fantasy." Hanna said wiggling her eyebrows at me as I smiled and gave her a small push.

"No Hanna I do not check you out." I said with a smile playing at my lips.

"That's right you've got your eyes on another blonde." She said in a wistful tone. I stared at her in disbelief. "What you think I wouldn't notice the looks you give her? Or how affected you get when she's near? I didn't have a name for it until you came out last night, but if that's not love I don't know what is."

"And what do you think about me feeling that way for her." I asked softly.

"I think it's up to you." She said.

"Hanna really what do you think." I asked with a more pleading tone.

"Honestly… I don't think she deserves you, but if you feel that way about her I know there must be something more that I'm missing." She finally said.

"There is. I don't know how to explain it, but there's more to her than what everybody suspects." I said almost trying to further convince myself.

"Then I'll be here for you every step of the way. Even if that means finding you a hot a girl to sleep with to make Ali jealous." Hanna said with a smirk.

"Hanna really." I asked though I couldn't stop the chuckle from making its way out of my mouth.

"Come on, the others are probably going to wake up soon and we need to get ready for school." She said standing up pulling me with her.

By the time we got upstairs the girls were indeed waking up. We all got ready and soon left for school. I was afraid that there would be some awkwardness after everything that was said, but they all treated me the same, which I was forever grateful for. Once we arrived at school and walked into the building I was bombarded by the swim team.

"Hey Fields you ready for today." One of the girls called out.

"Yeah I think I'm prepared." I said still a little distracted from my conversation with Hanna this morning.

"There's no thinking Fields. It's either you are or you aren't and I hope for your sake it's not the latter." The girl known as Jessica said as the rest of the girls nodded their heads in agreement.

"Hey it's not like Emily is the only girl on the team. If you do your part killer will do hers. Now go back to the boring existence you inhabited before we came in." Ali said before pulling me and the other girls to our first period class. As we sat down I turned toward Alison and said "Thanks Ali." She replied with a small smile before turning to Hanna and starting a conversation about some new fashion trend.

The further into the day I got the more the nervous sensation in me grew. I walked into the locker room to find myself alone. I closed my eyes and tried to take a quick calming breath. I started counting in my head, but before I could reach 8 I felt a pressure on my arms. I opened my eyes only to find myself staring into the beautiful blue that ones that accompanied Alison. I felt my breath hitch at our close proximity.

"Ali what are you doing here." I said softly as her eyes traveled back from my lips to my eyes.

"Well I decided you would probably be nervous about the meet and came to wish you luck before you went out there." She said with a smile gracing her lovely lips.

"Thanks Ali that means a lot." I said gently pulling her into a tight hug. Relishing in the way her body so graciously fitted into mine. I slightly pulled back to stare into the eyes that so effortlessly controlled my very being. I felt a tug and soon found myself a millimeter away from the lips I so desperately wanted to taste. The locker room door slammed opened and we immediately jumped away from each other. I looked back at Ali only to find myself gazing at her the back of her head as it disappeared out of the locker room. I sighed cursing those who walked in using every expletive I knew.

Finally changed into my suit I went and joined the rest of my team. Looking in the crowd at my group with a big smile only to have it melt away when noticing a certain blonde missing. Consumed in my thoughts I was vaguely aware of my teammate in front of me jumping in the water until my coach roughly shook me from my stupor.

With an iron grip on my arm the coach said "Wake up Fields were behind and I can't have you going in there losing the game." Well ok. Didn't she just say we were behind? How in the flying fuck was that my fault. Before I had the chance to respond I saw my teammate approach and got ready before jumping into the water. As soon as the cool water encompassed me I felt every semblance of reality slip away as I got into a quick pace successfully reaching my opponent in a matter of seconds. I started pushing myself harder and harder until I saw the wall quickly approaching. I reached out with all my might until the feeling a cement met my hand. I pulled myself and was bombarded with sounds of victory coming from our side of the benches. My teammates tackled me into hugs and gave me pats on the back. Oh now their nice to me. I shook my head and walked over to my group of friends with a large smile on my face.

"You know what this means don't you." Hanna said when I reached them. I shook my head in confusion.

She gave an exasperated sigh before saying "Now that your meet is over we have to go shopping for Noel's party on Saturday." I cringed at the idea of going over that good for nothing idiotic toad face son a bitch's house. Yeah, I really wasn't looking forward to that.