Yep, definitely feeling the Beastars train taking me in and going at full speed, no seriously, I am FEELING it! There's just so many things I want to do, and I want to talk about! Soo here's another one-shot fanfic! Hope you'll enjoy this! Tried to go for a bit of a different route this time, mainly focusing on Louis rather than Legoshi and I think it turned out interesting soo, yeah! Let's get started!

There I was, taking a deep breath on this chill autumn evening, thinking about what I could have done differently, to avoid such an outcome. I grabbed a pack, pulled out a cigarette and lit it with my lighter, feeling it slowly burn down between my fingers as I took a draw.

The smoke ran down my lungs, I let it stay there for a bit, before releasing a cloud of the grey fumes into the cold night. This was just like any other evening here, I always stayed outside to smoke in the evening, but today was different, I was stressed out.

Usually I simply did it because that's what I always did and because I enjoyed the feeling, but today I did it because there was something bothering me. I fucked up big time and I knew I did, now I was out here, talking to myself, trying to think of a solution and I dropped of my calm and composed self to replace it with my stressed and insecure side. I never showed it, it usually all just happened in my mind, but I couldn't control myself right now.

I took another draw, tapped it, making the ashes fall down as I let the fumes infiltrate just to let them all out. It was getting cold outside and I was barely wearing anything. I should probably get back inside…

After a few more minutes I was done smoking, at least for now, I went inside the bathroom and let the tap water run for a bit, before splashing it onto my tired face and looking up into the mirror.

"I wonder how he's doing right now…"

FLASHBACK:

Legoshi and I had started hanging out together, finding that we actually might have had a couple of things in common. I never told him, but I could already tell that there was something that intrigued me about him, the day I saw him kneeling next to me, at Tems memorial.

He wasn't like the other carnivores and I couldn't deny that there was something, well, quite tempting about him. I needed more of him, more than he would give away at first glance and I was ready to work, in order to achieve what I wanted, I always got what I wanted.

The cafeteria wasn't really a good idea, there usually carnivores and herbivores split up and it would look quite awkward, if I were to just sit next to him. I bet he wouldn't feel comfortable himself like that. So instead I decided to approach him after one of our rehearsals. I asked him if he had something to do afterwards and if he could stay a bit longer.

I knew there was no way he'd reject my invitation and so I started planning everything carefully, how foolish I was…

I freshened up, applied my favourite perfume, and awaited the knock on the door of my office. It was already getting rather dark outside and the students shouldn't be around except for some. The moon had risen high above to shine down upon Cherryton Academy.

I heard the knock on the door and realized that I was hesitant, was I feeling nervous? Nah I was probably just a little distracted.

"You may come in."

He carefully opened the door, walking in rather clumsily as he usually did, he had already changed back into his school uniform and so I decided, we were ready to go.

"Hey Louis, was there something you wanted to talk to me about?"

Had he not noticed the fragrance I had applied? There was no way he didn't, he should really appreciate the effort I'm making here. Oh well, I'll get him, one way or another.

"Well yes, would you like to accompany me, for a walk through the park on this dazzling evening?"

Dazzling evening? What was that supposed to be?! Louis focus! You've got this, we are only talking about Legoshi here! You can get him with ease! Just-

"Uhm, yeah sure!"

Just like that, he was hooked! I had him and I was not going to let go easily! I grabbed my scarf and my jacket and approached the door with him. He didn't seem to have a jacket himself, foolish wolf, it was freezing outside! Was he trying to catch a cold!?

"Are you ok, you look, kinda nervous?"

Crap! The wolf saw right through me! Was it that evident? Focus Louis, gain back your composure!

"Why would I be nervous? I was merely reflecting upon something?"

"Ah, I understand. So why did you call me? Was there something specific you wanted to talk to me about?"

We were outside by now and I could feel a gust of fresh air blowing me and my scarf back a little, Legoshi put a hand on my back, to keep me from stumbling backwards.

What was he doing? I could perfectly stand on my own, but there was something that I couldn't deny at the same time, the feeling of his hand on my back that was heating me and making me feel more at ease, it felt nice.

No, there was something wrong here, this was not supposed to happen…am I really...I was the one in control, so why did I feel so powerless…This was a feeling I didn't know and I didn't know how to feel about it…

I realized that he was still waiting for an answer, so I quickly pulled my scarf up to cover my cheeks a little and not reveal my blush that was rising and revealing more than I wished.

"Oh, uhm, I just, wanted to talk to you a little. You are quite, well, unique, for a carnivore."

Unique, for a carnivore?! What was I doing?! He was unique for a carnivore? What was I even trying to say? I, I had no idea what to do! I was honestly freaking out, why was this so hard to do for me?! Why did I even ask him to come with me!?

I jumped a little as I heard Legoshi sneeze and saw him hugging his body to try and keep the heat in.

"Hold up, here, have a tissue."

"Oh, uhm, thank you Louis, really kind of you."

I proceeded to take off my scarf and put it around him carefully, he bent down a little so I could do it properly, knowing there was no way he could say no to me even if he wanted to.

"Don't say anything, I don't need you catching a cold. Maybe it's better if we go back to our dorms...it's getting dark anyways..."

"Oh, yeah, we can talk tomorrow if you want to still-"

"No, leave it be, it's ok, I wish you a goodnight."

I was starting to make my way downwards towards my dorm area, there were only streetlights every couple hundreds of meters, it was pretty dark, and I could honestly barely see anything in the darkness and gloom.

"Hey Louis, at least let me accompany you-"

"I am not just a weak herbivore! I am fine on my own now leave me be!"

I ran down the street, having finally crossed the line that would have given me an opportunity to potentially get to know him better, there was no way he wanted to talk to me after this evening and so I ran and ran quicker, until I arrived at my dorm, feeling empty.

There was something he had done, he made me feel weird, a way I hadn't felt before, this was so unfamiliar, and I hated it. My heart ached when I thought about him and my throat went dry, yet I was hoping for him to drop his walls and let me in when I couldn't even drop my own.

I had kept my ego up, leaving no chance and no mercy to anyone observing from the outside, letting no one grasp just how fragile I could be…

And now here I was, staring at the ceiling, as I desperately attempted to fall asleep and forget this forsaken day. I was rolling around in my bed, regretting ever inviting him.

I was torn out of my thoughts as I heard three gentle knocks on my room door. I could see that there was no light flooding through the space under the door. Whoever was outside had not switched on the lights in the hallway, maybe not to wake anyone up, but I still needed to be careful.

I was alone in my room right now and with everything going on right now, this could very easily turn into an ugly situation. So, I grabbed a bat and slowly, carefully approached the door.

I was waiting for something, maybe I was waiting for them to speak up or to knock once more, I pressed my ear against the door, however what I didn't expect, was to get startled by a very loud sneeze that was easily recognizable, since I had just heard it like half an hour earlier.

I didn't know what to do, I couldn't just leave him there standing and waiting outside my room.

"Hey Louis, I came to bring back you scarf thanks again."

He sniffled a lot and I could hear his nasal voice a lot more than usual, the wolf really managed to catch a cold after all.

I opened the door and pulled him into the room, I didn't want him to wake anyone up by sneezing as loudly as he had just done. In here there was no one but us so he could sneeze all he wanted. I up at him and he looked back at me, we both felt our cheeks quickly turning a shade of pink.

"I also wanted to, well, apologize for upsetting you…"

This time I was the one to make the first move, as I gently grabbed his hands, feeling how icy they were, was he just waiting outside, thinking how to bring back my scarf and blaming himself for my major fuck up?

"I'm the one who should apologize, I said a lot of very inappropriate and rude things to you that I didn't mean. I just, I don't know how to say it, but…well, I'd like to get to know you better. You seem different from the other carnivores and I think I might..."

He was rubbing his thumbs against my hand, barely grazing it, I looked up at him to find a goofy looking, smiling wolf. However soon enough I let go to sneeze myself. Even my jacket wasn't good enough against the merciless cold of the night.

"Seems like we both caught a cold."

"Yeah, it really does."

I was feeling tired, but I was happy that Legoshi didn't seem to hold a grudge against me for what I did, he really was different. I needed to have him by my side, have his eyes to look into when I was lost. There was no way I would make another mistake such as this one.

I found out that maybe, organizing everything wasn't always the right way, sometimes, just talking together while eating some snacks and drinking some hot tea was the way to go. We had decided that he would not go outside anymore to his dorm tonight and since mine was empty he could spend the night here.

Since we were both feeling cold, we decided to snuggle against each other, or at least, we said it was because of the cold, before drifting off.

Eyy, seems like we are on a roll with the fanfictions as of lately! I really hope you enjoyed this as I tried to capture a bit of a different side of Louis in this and talk about possible insecurities! I have lots of fun writing each one of these fanfictions and I hope you enjoy reading them as much as I enjoy writing them! If you have any suggestions make sure to text me and I'll see if I can do something! Wish you a great day!