Note: We've reached the last chapter! Thank you to all who stuck with this to the end. It was quite fun to write this. Thank you to CountryGirlLuk for your kind reviews. I hope someday, we'll get real answers in the show's canon about what happened to Hetty. Until then, this is close enough.

'It's April now. Here's how the last few months have been…'

'After Christmas, I took off for Greece for a few weeks. I was taking the ashes of the guy I had killed home. I thought it would help me get peace with what had happened. Instead, I was haunted by his ghost pretty much the whole time.'

'I had been going to a shrink for a while after that. Turns out, what I had was pretty much a combination of guilt, and haunted by the trauma of the last 2 years, and, the effects of being alone for so long.'

'I had decided to try to be around more, and then something happened that changed all that.'

'The girlfriend of one of my agents, who was fugitive, had returned. And the charges against her were mysteriously dropped weeks later. I had nothing to do with that. I suspect there is something afoot.'

'I contacted my CIA buddy, and asked him what was going on. He said he and other spies were after someone who more then likely wants to hurt her.'

'My agent loves her very much. And now, I'm, more then likely going to have to be absent for another uncertain amount of time, again. Even after I said I would try not to be such a loner.'

'I don't want to do this, because I don't want to risk making my loneliness problem worse. But if anything happens to that agent, I will never forgive myself.'

'I am providing a way for my team to get these recordings should I never be able to come home.'

'As for whether or not I'll make more recordings, that'll depend on my mood.'

'Good bye, until next time.'

End recording 20

November, who knows where

'I'm back. And I'm definitely very far from home right now.'

'The last 7 and a half months have been, well. I don't want to talk about it. At all.'

'A few days ago, I got a call from an old friend. Saying that I needed to leave immediately to a war zone.'

'I was shocked to hear that request. Years ago, I vowed to myself to never return to a war zone, being in a few war zones, was mentally damaging to me.'

'I asked him why, and that he better have a damn good reason to ask me to risk my mental health on a goosechase.'

'Then he told me that my team was being threatened, even read me a message from the culprit.'

'I shed a tear, knowing very well that I had to once again leave my team to protect them.'

'So, I packed my things and left without saying goodbye. And before you ask, I couldn't reveal where I was going because he never told me where exactly I was to be stationed!'

'So, I'm in a war zone, no idea where I am. I don't want to be here, but the safety of my team is very important.'

'Let's hope they don't have to rescue me again.'

End recording 21.

Endnotes: I wanted to include the Season 12 premeire here. No, I have idea why Hetty really left on the mission, I'm just assuming this is the reason. I'll be covering the misadventure in my Season 12 fic: The Season 12 Misadventure