Its not easy to control ourselves, especially when our mind is so far gone, that we cant even differentiate between two distinct choices. Like, avoiding soda's in a diet during the summer, exploring the internet during examinations, resisting to punch annoying little cousins infront of their parents, like that Ryan was facing difficulty in resisting this vague temptation.

After dinner, the couple spent some time with their family before going to their quarters for some gaming. Ryan thought that it'd be refreshing for his corrupted mind to play what he loves more than his beloved : Video Games.

He was right, It was working. Ryan and Angela kept on duelling on and on and on, it didnt seem there would be a winner as every match they played ended up in a draw. But, lady luck took over as in the final challenge Angela beat Ryan by 1 point. The results left Ryan stunned and slightly angry while Angela whooed in satisfaction.

The session took more than expected as it was around midnight when they finished. By this point, Angela was tired, dog tired, that caused her to collapse and lean at her cushion with her head turned back. As she did, her chest looked more inflated than ever, a wrong move indeed. Angela's moderately big chest was a bit exposed, as the shirt tightened when Angela stretched back. The view was infront of Ryan, the guy who had just been introduced to this attacking feeling and was fighting it with all his might, and Angela stretched in that manner? Ryan felt like Angela was tempting him, mocking him.

Ryan kept on staring at them, her bosoms, with a wide mouth which felt watery. The same feeling came crawling back to his groin, giving the same erection.

'Stop! Dont...look...please...just...dont'

"Lets go to bed, loser." Angela spoke mockingly with her body still in the same position.

As Ryan heard that, he quickly shook his head, with his heart suddenly beating fast, as if he was caught. Which he wasn't. He felt nervous.

No reply, just a embarrased face avoiding eye contact.

Angela opened her left eye to see her beloved in that state. Slowly, she sat up and looked at Ryan.

"Ryan, loosing isn't that bad." Angela tried to reassure.

"Loosing? Uh...no,n-no. I mean, Yes...I..." Ryan struggled in replying.

Angela's mocking urge was suppressed by his reaction which made her wanna restraint.

Angela moved her head forward and gave a soft, gentle kiss on Ryan's cheek, to which he looked to the right, directly at her with a slightly stunned expression.

Angela closed her eyes and smirked, saying

"Lets go. Its time for bed."

Ryan smiled warmly at her and nodded in agreement. He loved it. The way Angela kissed him, it was filled with love and affection which made this feeling suppressed. The way this girl does these acts out of the blue makes you wanna fall for her and think 'She is something else.'

One hour had passed and Ryan didnt seem to catch any sleep at all. He found himself deeply thinking about Angela in a dirty way. Every second the sight of her bosom and bottom, the two big B's, flashed before him, it was annoying.

Because of all the urge Ryan looked at the left to see Angela fast asleep, with her back to Ryan and no blanket on. Ryan kept on looking at her, her back, his eyes then slowly but consciously moved down and down to her bottom. Angela's legs weren't straight, therfore, her plumpy bottom was exposed to Ryan. What made it worse was that Angela always wore short thin track pant that covered to just above her knees. Her thick legs and plumpiness of that bottom made Ryan feel the lust again. His erection overwhelming him, making his entire body heat up, his face getting redder and redder. He thought this feeling was suppressed but it was just for a minute.

'What the fuck is this?! Why do I wanna do it? Why so sudden?'

With all his frustration, Ryan still kept on staring at it.

Moments passed and Ryan felt it. The feeling of lust was taking over, his hand was moving slowly toward Angela, in hopes to touch her bottom. Ryan didn't want to do it, he didnt want to touch it, he didnt want to creep out Angela so he used all his strength to stop his hand from touching, the reason why his hand was shaking, therefore. But Ryan's will wasnt enough, it was still not enough.

'Ryan...Stop...please, don't do this to her...Ryan...no, please. Stop'

Ryan fought with himself.

Just a centimetre away...

Mmmmmm

Angela moaned in her sleep and turned her body to the right, facing Ryan.

Ryan before he knew it, regained his control and pulled back his hand.

'That was a close one'

Ryan looked at Angela, her face, it was innocent, peaceful. He felt his heart throb in satisfaction seeing her like this.

"Ryan..." Angela softly whispered in her sleepy, low pitch voice that was barely a sound but Ryan heard it just fine.

'Shit! Was she awake? Does she know?'

"Y-Yeah?" Ryan whispered with freight.

"I love you, Ryan." Angela replied in that same low pitch voice.

Ryan's eyes widened in shock as he heard her say it. His eyes were not blinking, just looking at her face. This girl...even in her sleep, she woke slightly to tell Ryan that she LOVES HIM?! What type of girl would be so in love that they'd even whisper that in their sleep.

Ryan never felt more accepted than at this beautiful moment. He felt disappointed, angry at himself for feeling this temptation . It wasnt his fault but he blamed himself, nonetheless. His feeling went away and in response to her confession, Ryan turned his body to face Angela and wrapped his arm on her body, holding her tight, as he slowly drifted off to sleep.

'I will never hurt you, Angela. I swear to my life, I will always keep you happy.'

Ryan woke up to see his beloved not in bed with him. Probably in the bathroom.

He slept good and stretched hard as he stood up. Looking back at his bed, he remembered last night, what Angela said in her semi sleep. He felt pure satisfaction, recalling the incident making him smile and sentimental at the same time.

'Even in her sleep, she tells me those 3 words. Angela truly loves me. What did I do to deserve this perfect woman?'

Clank

The bathroom door opened.

Ryan looked back to see Angela in her normal attire with her hair completely wet. Her hair looked more raven than usual, made her look prettier, too.

Ryan smiled at this sight. Her beauty brought a smile to his face.

"Good morning, handsome." Angela said as she rubbed her hair with the towel.

"Good morning, Perfection." Ryan replied.

"In case your wondering, Brenda told me to get washed up because she was gonna take me out somewhere." Angela said in reassurance.

Ryan stepped forward and said

"Good for you. You will enjoy today, thats a promise." Smiling as he said it.

Ryan stood close to Angela and placed his hand on her cheek, looking directly into her hazelnut eyes.

The look was lovely but the silence was unnerving.

"What?" Angela smiled.

"Its just you. I always thought your prettiness had bounds, but you make yourself look better. Every. Single. Day. What did I do to deserve you?" Ryan moved his head forward as he said it to give Angela a kiss on her forehead.

Angela closed her eyes, enjoying the love given to her by Ryan. It felt good. She was being accepted, appreciated and loved. She felt it by everyone else as well but with Ryan it was a completely different story. Her face held a sincere smile.

'I love it when he does that.'

"You saved a girl's respect, her integrity and prevented her from being a girl who didnt have a face to show the society, And you told about yourself. Maybe I should be asking that." Angela looked up to face Ryan with a smile.

Ryan looked for a moment and then gestured that he would be back in a moment.

Ryan went to the bathroom to clean up. He removed his clothes and was about to throw them at the pile in the basket but he stopped. He saw a short, black wear. Curious, Ryan slowly moved his hand forward to pick it up. It was a black moderate sized bra with a rather large pantie, both on top of one another belonging to none other than, his beloved, Angela Doss.

Ryan was numb as he saw the under wears. His face started to redden as his mind started to process and realise to whom it belonged. He immediately dropped it back and felt a sudden rage in him. How did the sudden happy, love moment change so quick? How could that happen? . He didnt think of venting out his rage and instead ran to the shower and turned on the cold water. He needed it, real bad. He felt truly dirty and wanted to wash away all the feeling.

'Goddamn it! I want her...'

Ryan's work for the day wasn't much for which he was bound to get free early. He had received mails from foreigners who were interested in displaying their merchandise to America and needed a well known organisation to export them. Their first approach, the Reeves corporation. Ryan kept on convincing the dealers that their merchandise will be safe. He was seriously pissed off when the foreigners from China were speaking broken English and repeating the same question. However, the deal was made and Ryan discussed the charges as well as the companies percentage in the sale.

Ryan checked other emails and convinced other dealers as well and later finished his report and handed it to Charles. Now, he was free. His mind kept on thinking about his newly born intimate feeling for Angela, his heart was beating fast just thinking about what he saw in just two days. First her chest, then her butt, then her inner clothes. It was seriously making him crazy!

With newfound struggle, Ryan needed help, for which he called someone who was with him in his dire times : Michael, his best friend.

Ring

"Yo, Ryan, wassup?" Mike through the phone.

"Hey, Mike." Ryan sighed "Listen, bro. Can we meet? I'm free."

"Ah, sure. Everything fine?" Mike sounded concerned.

"Ah, yeah, of course. '69 bar, I'm on my way."

"Cool, see ya."

Ryan waited for a few minutes at the bar, sitting on the same spot where he and his gang sat almost every week since college.

Michael arrived and had a smile across his face as soon as he saw Ryan.

"Hey, brother, Wassup?"

Clap

Ryan shook Michael's hand.

At first Ryan didnt speak . He allowed Mike to tell whats happening nowadays in his life and listened carefully while he waited for his turn.

"So, Ry, everything cool with our sister in law?" Mike teased.

Ryan nodded and sighed later.

Michael noticed it. He knew something was off about him, he didn't seem like the cheering Ryan he knew.

"Ahhhh, relationship problems already? Damn bro--"

"NO! Its...its not that, Mike." Ryan bursted suddenly and then lowered his voice.

Michael looked curious, he raised his brow, gesturing him to speak up.

"Its...Angela. I mean, there is something...going on with me..." Ryan said slowly.

Ryan let out a huge sigh.

Without eye contact, Ryan said

"Mike, recently...I've been feeling this...demonic like urge to...attack Angela. I...uh...when I see her...my...my--"

"You're dick gets a boner?" Mike said, sipping on his drink.

Ryan was left stunned. He was shocked that Mike understood what he was talking about.

"There is no simple way to say it, Ry. You want to sleep with her."

Ryan looked down, he felt shy. He blushed and looked humiliated.

"I don't know, man. Im afraid...I feel dirty...bad about this man. Its...killing me from inside. I do want her man, but Im feeling bad...like im doing something wrong."

Michael sipped again.

"Dude, are you serious? You're feeling bad about wanting to love your love? Dude, its natural. Its something that should happen. Why are you acting like a victim?"

Ryan sat up.

"How, 'natural' Mike? What are you talking ? I just...dont want...to hurt her...will she understand?" Ryan sounded desperate and very concerned.

Michael looked determined.

"Ryan. Stop acting. Me and you, we're adults. Things like that shouldn't sound or feel alien to us. Ryan, you're in love. You think that these feelings you have, this lust, it is something sinful, something to feel bad about? Lust is a part of love Ryan. Having the urge to sleep with the one you love, wanting them, its natural and rightful to do. Why are you so afraid of admitting it? Sex is beautiful, Ryan, provided you do it with the one you love. You feel your bodies moving, your souls touching, feeling the others presence, their feelings...its, its truly awesome. Lets face it, We're not kids. The love you think when you was a kid was like hugs and kisses but thats not it. It involves lust, brother and you know it. Kids dont fall from the sky man, you do what you need to do to have them. Thats the reality, brah."

"I, uhh...don't know, Mike. Im afraid...if we do it...will I always have this urge? Will I be just after sex and the love things will seize to exist? Im afraid that I will only fuck her everyday and do nothing else than have sex and all the beautiful moments we share, the moments, the talks will be gone. Plus, that incident with that fucking rapist. How do I tell her what I am doing is love?" Ryan looked down in shyness.

Mike grabbed Ryan's shoulder.

"Tell me this. You still feel butterflies in your stomach when you see her, right? You want to spend time with her, right? Talk, eat, share jokes, go out...you feel these needs right? And dont worry about that incident. I know she has forgotten about it. Plus, that was something different Ryan, VERY different and you know it. She's not that naive, man."

Ryan's face started to light up, the truth was being told, he was realising it. He wanted to go on dates and spend time more than sex. His face started to smile wholeheartedly.

Ryan was just too afraid of sex for some reason, he was not thinking straight, thats why he was acting this way.

"But, that isnt all, Ryan. What you said is the truth but not the whole truth."

Ryan started to look up.

"Its Mary. Its her thats stopping you." Mike said with seriousness.

"Mike, what the fuck?! Are you serious?! Acuusing me--"

"Cut the BULLSHIT!" Mike said angrily.

Both looked at each other with full intents of fighting.

A few moments passed.

Mike spoke.

"Ryan, stop this shit. You're only afraid of making love with Angela is because of Mary, because of what she did to you. Youre first love who didn't even let you grab her hand, fucked our senior who was also our friend. What you saw was unbearable, I'm sorry for that but she is gone. That bitch dont deserve you because you got the most perfect girl, Ryan. The perfect woman! You're afraid if you will have to feel that again but you wont...you wont. You wanted to have love with Mary that's why its so frustrating to you. Dont be scared...you're her love now...she is yours. Go get her, tiger."

Ryan heard the words and found hidden motivation that was locked in his heart. The anger vanished and was now replaced with happiness and satisfaction. These words were enough to make Ryan motivated.

"You're right! Thanks, Mike...And im sorry for lashing out like that..." Ryan apologized.

Mike shook his head.

"Speaking of apologies, lemme apologise Cuz I didnt tell you that me and jessica...we're together now...in love." Mike raised his brows and winked mischievously.

Ryan's eyes widened upon hearing that sudden news. It was shocking! Mike and Jessica? It was unbelievable, truly unbelievable.

"Jesus Christ! Are you fucking kidding?! Our Jessica? And You? Thats Crazy. " Ryan laughed in happiness.

Mike sat like a legend and replied almost arrogantly

"Well, it turned out she liked me for being supportive. While you dated Angela I was dating her and before we knew it...we were in love."

The besties kept on talking and sharing their opinions on the matters they just heard. The smiles and laughter didnt seem to stop which Ryan always missed and so did Mike.

It was around 4.

Ryan reached his home. He kept on convincing himself to be the man, the boss and slowly tell Angela about his lusty feelings.

Ryan heard laughs coming from the guest room, the laughs were of his mother, Brenda. Of course, Angela was there. Brenda never left Angela alone.

Suddenly, his confidence melted away and felt more hopeless than ever. The haste, the motivation, all was gone. With disappointment, Ryan went to his room upstairs and kept on staring into the abyss. The feeling of uneasiness swarmed back, stronger than ever and all he could think was, 'What do I do?'.

A few moments passed.

Clank

The door opened and a voice came.

"Oh, hey, baby. You're here, I missed you so much, today."

Ryan turned around immediately upon hearing that soft gentle voice.

'Baby? When did she start calling me that? I like it!'

"Oh, hey, love. Sorry, I wanted to freshen myself up so I came up." Ryan lied.

Angela hugged Ryan tightly like she hadn't met him for a week now.

Angela started to unbotton Ryan's coat and strip it off of his torso. Angela did it everyday and loved doing it. To her it felt like she was showing her love, which she was.

"So, how was the day?" Angela asked.

Ryan kept on looking at her face.

'So beautiful!'

"The day...well, was fine. The usual but with little spice. How was yours?"

Angela took of the coat and started to untie his tie.

"Oh, it was great! Me and Brenda, we went to so many places, saw so many things, it was wild. Oh, and remember Colleen? That sweet lady? She met us and kept on forcing me to shoot for her magazine, it was so weird." Angela scoffed as she stripped off the tie and started looking clothes for Ryan at his-- their closet.

'Colleen? That magazine lady?'

"Oh, yeah, yeah. I know her."

Angela stopped for a second and looked back at Ryan.

"Speaking of which, you modelled for her, right? A while ago?"

Ryan nodded.

"Should I model for her? I dont want to, but I dont like to say no. What should I do?"

"Think about it later with patience." Ryan said as he stepped forward.

Ryan now was standing at Angela's side as his beloved was searching for clothes for him.

"Angela?"

Angela turned her head smilingly.

'Say it now, Ryan. Dont be a wimp, she will understand.'

"Angela, do you...I mean...I want..to do it." Ryan said slowly.

Angela didnt stop her hands.

"Do what?"

'Try again, try again.'

"I-I-i want to have...it...with you." Ryan said slowly.

Angela stopped.

Angela's eyes started to pop and excitement was oozing across her face.

Ryan smiled awkwardly. Was she excited about sex?

'She's getting it! She's getting it!'

"Ohhhh, I know, now I get it. You're talking about the photoshoot. A couple photoshoot, that is soo sweet!" Angela chose the clothes and kissed Ryan's cheek in joy "It could work. I wont feel alone, just you and me. It's a good idea!"

Ryan just kept on staring at Angela, amazed by her innocence which made her so adorably dense. The giggles werent stopping. This wasnt what Ryan was talking about but it was something satisfying to get.

'She will get it. One day, be patient'.

Angela stopped to look at Ryan who was looking at her expressionless.

Stepping forward, she asked.

"Is everything okay? Did I say something wrong? I mean, we won't do it--the photoshoot. I was just excited." Angela sounded concerned.

Ryan shook his head wholeheartedly and momentarily placed one of his hand on her cheek.

"No, no. Sorry. Its just...tomorrow, me and Dad have to go to Philadelphia for a meeting." Ryan didnt actually lie but said half the truth. In order to make the deal with the foreigners, he had to show promise.

Angela still looked concerned

" Dont worry, Nothing is wrong. Everything is perfect. Its your voice that is soothing for me, it is something that calms me and makes me wanna embrace you and never leave you." Ryan whispered and slowly slid his hand down to her waist "I want you, Angela. I want you."

Angela's breath stopped as she heard that sexy whisper of Ryan. It was deep, moist and manly, she always loved that. Her eyes focused on Ryan's eyes. They were looking sincere, somewhere in there was devotion, loyalty, honesty and a feeling of want, like, he was hungry for something. Angela could feel it and her heart was throbbing at the sight of it.

Her hands slowly raised to Ryan's neck.

"I love it when your voice becomes deep like that. It makes me wanna hear it all over again." Angela whispered seductively but unconsciously.

'Do it, man. Start now or never start.'

Ryan kept on convincing himself to fulfil his hunger. His mind was literally forcing him to do it.

Ryan slowly cocked his head forward to taste Angela's lips. Angela's eyes closed as the distance between them kept on reducing. They had kissed before and quite frequently, its not like it was their first time but it was different. It felt different, not a kiss, not a touch, something totally different and unexplainable.

'She's yours. Let your hunger be satisfied.'

Their lips touched and the tensing feeling came back. The magestic bliss and warmth surged throughout their bodies as their lips slowly munched on each others. As the lips touched, Angela slightly moaned, enjoying the taste and tightening her grip around his neck.

Ryan looked professional. Slowly, moving his lips along with her, turning his head to get a suitable position and loosening the grip around her waist to slowly moving down and down and--

"Angela, swee-- Oh!"

Brenda entered the room, suddenly. The couple were so engrosed with one another that they forgot to shut the door.

The couple let go of each other and looked shocked to see Brenda standing there in awe. They stood formally and blushed so hard, it felt like their heads were gonna burst out of shyness. Looking down, left, right, begging for this awkwardness to end.

Brenda started to smile. Her head moved from Ryan to Angela and back and forth with the same mischievous smile.

"Angela, coffee's ready."

"Oh, yes...C-c-comimg." Angela stammered, fidgeting her fingers.

Brenda finally glanced at Ryan and left...closing the door as she did.

As she left the couple let out a sigh of relief. Looking at each other, they blushed as they realised that Brenda caught them romancing.

Angela giggled nervously and gestured Ryan.

"Boy, this feels awkard. Hope she doesn't bring that up infront of everybody" Angela joked and looked at Ryan.

Ryan could only nod. She could feel this awkwardness.

"Lets get some coffee." Angela reassured.

Ryan nodded continiously and faked a smile.

"You go. Im gonna change." Ryan said.

Angela quickly gave Ryan a small kiss on the cheek and left the room.

The tall handsome feller stood there looking at the abyss, thinking how his moment got ruined like that.

'Damn it! Youre so annoying sometimes, Mom!'

Night time.

The couple didnt have time to play any games as Ryan spent so many hours with Charles, telling him about the meeting and how they had to leave to Philadelphia first thing in the morning. Charles wasn't convinced on how this would benefit their company but he listened to Ryan anyway, since, Ryan knew how to talk to people and use their assets authentically.

It was set, they were to leave tommorow but might not return the next day of meeting because Charles had some other errands to run there as well.

Ryan was in his night suit and as always couldn't sleep, knowing Angela was right next to him...in short clothes...facing her curve to him. He was forcing himself to look in the opposite direction, to suppress the damn urge that was driving him crazy. What was wrong now? This evening he was set to attack her but because of certain interruption, it all vanished. Also, it was because the ravenhaired beauty was asleep.

'Im going crazy!'

Ryan thought as he looked to the left to see her bottom curve that was facing him. Ryan's body was moving on his own. To him it felt like he was possesed by his inner demons that wanted to satisfy his lust for him. His eyes then went up, he saw that her shirt was lifted up a little, revealing her sassy twin dimples. As Ryan saw that he felt an erection again, his anaconda had enlarged and was fighting him. His eyes didn't stop. It went up, and up and up to her back. The lamp was still on and there Ryan could see it, Angela's black bra. Her tank top was thin for some reason and it was making Ryan more wild. Her wearing this thin attire made Ryan think that she was doing all of this on purpose, deliberately trying to mock and seduce him, but that wasnt true.

'Ryan, stop. Just dont look at her...what?! Stop your hand, goddamn it!'

Ryan's hand started to move. It was approaching Angela's ass but a bit faster. It was getting close and closer while Ryan's heart was racing, pounding hard.

'I think this is it... Fuck! yesterday you got lucky, dont go this again!'

Ryan's hand was a centimetre away when Angela moaned and slowly turned her body to see Ryan sitting up near her legs.

'Oh, Fuck! Fuck, fuck fuck! She saw me?!'

Angela, opened her eyes slightly to see Ryan in his position. Apparently, he was paralysed and his hand was closer to her lower body...WAY closer.

'Fuck! Oh, now what do I say?'

"Ryan? What are you doing?" Angela whispered in her sleepy, dry voice and moaned.

'What do I say? What do I say? Should I tell her? About--No! She is asleep!'

"I...uh...I--I was...I saw--a bug! or something. Was just removing it." Ryan lied and sweated.

Angela moaned again, indicating she was feeling hell sleepy.

"Come back to bed, love. You have a flight tommorow." Angela whispered again and moaned.

Ryan was left stunned. He was shocked to realise that he was safe, Angela didnt suspect anything but what was more amazing was that even in her sleep, she was thinking about Ryan and her work. This was the second time, Angela did this.

With respect in his mind and even more love for Angela, Ryan nodded and laid next to Angela. Angela moved closer and rested herself on Ryans chest.

Ryan let out a sigh of relief before he heard Angela again.

"Ryan..." Angela whispered.

Ryan's heart started to race again.

"Y-yeah?"

"I love you, Ryan." Angela whispered before drifting off to sleep in the following second.

Ryan felt his heart and entire chest fill with warmth. His stomach was feeling tingly and his face had a red hue. Even in her sleep, she woke to remind him that she loves him. Again!

Damn, This girl...she truly is in love.

'Angela...I swear to make you the happiest girl in the world. I swear to make it up to your love!'

"I love you, too, Angela." Ryan genuinely kissed Angela's forehead.

For the next few minutes all he could think of was the days spent with Angela, the moments, the laughs, jokes, offenses and kisses not to mention her recent confession in her sleep. Ryan felt happy and smiled wholeheartedly, thinking of himself as the luckiest guy on earth.

Only if...it was simple. Ryan could show her...A WHOLE NEW WORLD!