SammyJams, thanks for the add to your faves and alerts! Also, thank you for that information. I wasn't sure and when I looked it up it gave a date of no earlier than eight days. I was like 'sounds off, but okay'. Always try to stick with facts, but sometimes the internet fails you. lol. And yes, the cat is out of the bag and just who could be coming forth that would make such a shattering statement? You will find out now and I can tell you right now that no one will like it. windbreaking, IKR. They just can't seem to get a break. I personally didn't like her all that much in the anime, but I also felt that she was a miserable person and maybe she just took it out on the others without thought since she was only born of the feelings that had been left to her at her death. Frozen, as she said. Though in the later episodes she seemed to change. InuKagLover 1992, sorry, but for some reason my fic is getting really dark, ya know and I have never wrote anything dark before really. I mean I have done some darkness in each of my fics. It's there, but even sometimes I think this one took a sharp turn that no one was ready for. I write each chapter day by day, piecing this story on a path that is forming in my mind as ideas present themselves. I hope it doesn't dishearten you enough that you can't read it. I never have really written a story where it ends on a sour note. I only write romance so I don't want it to be too bitter.
There is NO way! The two thought at once, Inuyasha retuning his gaze to the raven haired woman. He couldn't even fathom how she would allow him of all people to take her life in those very hands that had done so much evil in the world! Those same hands that pitted him against the love of his life! Those hands that had taken that same life and had poisoned her against him again, her form still dead and given that hardship to endure life in the most un-natural way! There was no way!
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground
Kagome stood there, still blanking about everything except what was looking at her, looking so elated at his victory, abet a small one to most. No, he couldn't have managed to overtake her! Sure, she had been drunk, but there was no way that her heart wouldn't have accepted his claim over her! Why would I have any love for such a monster?! She blinked, her eyes darkening at the sudden thought that flashed to life in her mind. Inuyasha had said because she had accepted it, but how would she accept what someone so evil when she had Inuyasha? What was that thought? It didn't sound like her and yet it was her thought wasn't it? Yeah, she loved the Hanyou and she had always felt safe with him, but she knew she never had him. No, Kikyo had him, from before when she was of a natural form and now, when she was but a clay doll. She had never had Inuyasha. Was that why she accepted his claim. Because she had accepted that she wasn't anything to Inuyasha, well, not in a way she wanted that she had given up heart to an evil being since she wasn't pure anymore? Pure people didn't covet something that wasn't theirs. Purity didn't taint itself by beginning to hate someone who had nothing but an unrealistic body. One that could never have what Kagome had. She could never marry, not a real marriage since she couldn't bear children. But Kagome would give up those things to be with Inuyasha, to just be with him even if she had only a sideline position in his life!
And I'm hearing what you say, but I just can't make a sound
"Ah, you still look like you don't know what to think," the male said, his laughter, so dark and hateful, echoed around them. "You loved every minute of it...well, I did." Inuyasha seemed to come out from his trance at those words, a growl shuddering from his throat in warning to all those around him. He may not like what had happened, hell, he hated it, but he wasn't going to let anyone, least of all this fucker, talk about Kagome in such a vulgar manner!
"Shut the fuck up, Naraku!" his bellow shook the ground beneath them and the skies above them. He didn't turn from Kagome so she got the brunt of his yell. Now in a low voice he drew his face closer to hers, his golden eyes drilling into her chocolatey orbs, penetrating them with such intensity, "Did you fuck him?" he asked, watching her and finding her eyes so full of confusion, fear, shame...guilt... That was the only thing he could see now. The same guilt she had had when he had seen her after the night of the celebration. She had been fine, but upon going home she had begun to react so guiltily toward him. She had come back with weight on her than when she had left him, her scent had become so weak that he could hardly scent her out and the lies she had told the others. Yes, he had known they weren't full lies, the scent of a lie was more potent. She had been hiding something from him! She had been hiding what she had done and now she was trying to hide the truth of her mate.
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down, but wait
She wanted to look down, to stop allowing his probing and that was what was going on. He was going by the soul, her eyes revealing all that she felt...and right now she was feeling so many so strongly, but one was strongest. Guilt. She felt it for lying to him and she felt it for having lost her virginity to someone she didn't even know who they were. She felt even guiltier by that one thing the most. How fucked up were you if you couldn't remember who you gave it to! Finally, for the first time in almost three weeks decided to tell her friends the truth, the truth that only she and one other knew in their group.
"I-I...I don't know," she finally managed to spit out. Tears began to burn her eyes as she tried to fight them, her body shuddering under all the strain her heart was under in that one moment. She had done so many deceitful things in the last few weeks, no, before that she had done that too! How in the world had she come to possess such a task as carrier of a jewel that was powerful...depending who held the stone. Purity or tainted ...either could own the jewel in their own right. The cursed stone. The Shikon no Tama. Cursed! She was cursed! She wasn't pure like she had been told. "I'm cursed," she muttered, anger and sadness intermingled in her tone. Suddenly in that flash of a second she shoved off of Inuyasha, her powers swirling around her in a darker pink, her purity being corrupted. She landed a good ten feet from him, shock on all the faces around her, even Naraku seemed surprised. Kagome said it again, her voice cracking with the force of her emotions that clouded her aura, "I...am...cursed!" Inuyasha growled at her, his voice coming out in strangled gasps.
You tell me that you're sorry, didn't think I'd turn around, and say (that)
"What?" She hadn't hit him, not a bit of her power had been used to hurt him, no he had seen it in that moment. He was sure no one had seen that she had put a barrier up over him separate from hers as she pushed off of him. Now the words that she had said bounced around in his head. It made no sense to him what those words meant. She didn't know who she was mated to? How did you forget who you tied your life to?! There was no way that was the truth and now she was spouting nonsense off like being cursed! Had she gone mad? She narrowed her eyes at him, but tears were still streaming down her face and her eyes weren't filled with malice at him, no she was mad and it wasn't directed to him. "Ka-"
"No!" she yelled when her friends and Inuyasha made a move toward her. Naraku just stood by, his face once again mirthful at the darkness he was feeling from not only Kagome. No, all her friends were filling with darkness and the jewel portion that he had in his possession was pulsing with the darkness. She was rebelling in her mind to his words, to his coaxing the woman to remember all that she had been to these people that she called friends. All that the male before her saw her as, but she wasn't buying it...well, not all of it. She was buying the Inuyasha words, what the Hanyou had told her several times. That she was weak. That she was just a jewel detector. All of it, but when he said copy to her, she had pushed him off. That was a touchy topic and while the woman didn't see herself that way was different than he had wanted her to see it. No, she didn't see herself as a copy. A copy would have a chance at the same relationship. If Inuyasha saw Kikyo in her than he would want to be with her, right? No, he saw her as a mule and as a shard detector. That was all. "Leave me alone!" she screamed, her fingers clutching at her own head. This was the first time they had realized she wasn't talking to Inuyasha anymore and that he couldn't be seen by her own eyes. She was still crying, but her eyes were clenched tightly. The aura around her had begun to glow, a pinkness that was interfusing with the blackness that seemed to surround her small frame.
"It's too late to apologize (it's too late)."
Inuyasha took another step toward her, his clawed fingers reaching for her and even though he was still beyond pissed at her for what she had done, what she had willingly done, he still didn't want to her to leave him. No, even if Kikyo thought that she wouldn't allow him to be at her side in more than a friendship status he still loved her and that wouldn't change no matter what. He would find a way to show her...but then another part of him demanded to know how he would get past what she had done. Mate is ours. No matter who gets in the way! Kagome wasn't his mate though...She was pregnant too and with Naraku's child! She had let someone and not just anyone but their enemy touch her. To defile her to his pleasing. That was what that part wanted to know. It wasn't just concerned with her pain, but its own as well. "Kagome!" he bellowed, his anger evident, but in that moment her aura flashed and was gone...as was the woman who had been it. Kagome was gone and Naraku was pissed! He howled his distaste at the turn in the situation. He had had her right where he wanted and she had gone!
"Fuck!" he hissed before disappearing from sight to leave the group to stand there, still frozen in shock of all that had happened in a matter of minutes. It's just too much for the small group as Sango breaks the silence first, her tears streaming down her flushed face as her color returns. Shippo joins in as he clings to the slayer, her claws cutting into her kimono, but Sango doesn't know or she doesn't care as she hugs the small fox. Miroku just stands there, his amethyst eyes taking in the Hanyou still standing there, his fingers still reaching for where the Miko had stood just seconds ago. He hasn't blinked and the monk grows worried for the male before him. His is upset for the missing woman, but he knows that Inuyasha is hurting too so he goes toward him, stopping just a few feet from him.
"Inu-" the half demon before him releases a howl, his head thrown back as he falls to his knees in one graceful movement. It draws the attention of the two wailing people, the pair watching in silence with Miroku as the male on the ground tore his throat to pieces with his guttural cry of misery and anger. It echoed away from them to where several others looked to the skies in recognition of what it was. No one said a word as the Hanyou slumped forward, his transformation fading as his body flopped on the ground and he passed out.
As the echo of the howl reverberated over the countryside a den filled with wolves listened, noting the cry to be one of a demon losing its mate and they howled out in response, one particular wolf demon falling to his knees as well. He knew that cry belonged to and the only thing it could mean. "Kagome," cried out as he rushed out of his den, following the long howl as the dust billows around him and even without his shards he manages to rush as quickly as he could with them. He rushes past another small group, much like the one that Kagome belonged to, and while it did have a dog demon leading it, the male wasn't the Hanyou he was after so he dismissed them.
That same male had his head turned in that same direction, the small toad demon that was with him seeming raptured at the very sound that echoed all around him, curious as to what it was he asked, "Lord Sesshomaru, what is that howl about? It sounds like your brother, does it not, my lord?" Rin also seemed drawn by the sound, it sounded mournful to her. While she didn't know his brother very well, she liked him and the people in his group. They had all been very nice to her and she hated to think that something had happened in their group that would elicit such a sound from Inuyasha.
"That is the mourn of a demon who has lost his mate," he stated, sounding dismissive, but he could only imagine such a pain. He did not have a mate of which to mourn such a passing, but he felt that once his ward became of age he might have such a mate to protect with all his heart and soul. Yes, he did love the little girl and he would be more than remiss to see her gone from his life. He had almost lost her in one such instance to that very evil Hanyou, Naraku. He should see, even if his brother would not answer him, what had happened to the woman. She had done much to earn his respect, from her fearlessness towards him and the respect she had shown his ward, protecting the young girl from death when she could have just walked away. No, she was a powerful Miko as well and that also added to his respect for her so he turned to walk that way, his group turning to follow him without a word.
The woman herself lay several miles away from this, her prone form laying in a field of grass. Groaning she wakes up, her body aching as she tries to push up on her shaking arms. What the hell happened? She couldn't figure out how she had come to be alone in a field or where she even was. Finally getting to her feet, after several tries she begins to walk, walk in random direction even as her mind reminds her that when lost you should wait til someone finds you. Chuckling at that thought a mirthless smile twists her lips. No one knew where she was, she was sure of that, and maybe...just maybe that was for the best right now. She didn't want to be found right now, not with her mind twisted like it was and her heart aching with such misery at the thoughts in her head. No, it was best that she was alone for the moment...at least to try and figure out what she was going to do with the information she had been given.
No, there was a heart breaker. If it was true and Naraku had forced himself upon her while she was intoxicated, then she had truly lost whatever right she had to even be alive. She hadn't betrayed just herself in that moment..no she had betrayed her friends...almost laughing at their pain by doing what she had done. Inuyasha...he had said as much. The mark...no the claim on her body was over her own violation. She had accepted it, but that still didn't make sense since she despised the dark demon for what he had done to them. He had taken away Inuyasha's love all those years ago, Miroku had his curse because of Naraku and Sango had lost her family...and her people taken from her. Even her brother was still MIA because Naraku hadn't let him die in peace. He had taken so much and yet, she felt anger at herself. She was just as bad as him, just a responsible for almost all of those same things...save for Inuyasha and Kikyo. She hadn't done that. No, Oniguma was Kikyo's karma...her burden to bear.
Kagome shattered the jewel, allowing Naraku to rise, to gain the power he had now. That should mean that while she was responsible for Sango since her pain had been brought upon by Kagome's error, Miroku was not since his family had been cursed long before her arrival. But then that left Shippo. He too had been orphaned because of her folly. The Thunder Brothers were powerful, but because of the jewel they had become more and then because of that same jewel his father had been keeping in his possession he had died. She shouldn't have come thru that well. She shouldn't have been here and then so much of the death and destruction that had been wrought because of her wouldn't have been so. Her feet slowed as she passed a few tree, her mind realizing that indeed not only was the jewel cursed, but it had cursed her by association ... She had been cursed with so much and yet, there had been a bright side. One that would never be a curse to her. Her friends. With renewed spirits she knew what she had to do now and before her pregnancy progressed further. She would get the other half of the jewel and fix her mistake. She would do that no matter what the cost to her because they had not deserved this fate. Speeding up again she reached out in her mind for the location of Naraku, something she had tried before and had failed, but she would look for him more fervently than before. She would use that power that had nearly swamped her senses to use it for the completion of task.
Suddenly she found herself falling, her scream echoing in her mind as it failed to leave her mouth.
Now here we are...Kagome pregnant with the kid of Naraku? No, how could that happen? Inuyasha is fuming, but he wants to find Kagome even as his mind and heart rage against each other... His demon pushing him to get her while his human side is hurt at the grievances he feels against her actions. The rest of the gang just don't know what to do but grieve while Naraku and Kikyo revel in the fact that their target is falling right into their hands...Or is she? And the song is OneRepublic Apologize. Stay safe!