"Oh, umm, I was wondering who Killian is" Emma asked randomly.
E: great, you dummy, couldn't be any smoother? I wonder why she even let me sit with her.
Regina looked confused for a few seconds then it dawned on her, she laughed, " oh, he is my brother" she said still smiling," all this time you wondered who that name belonged to?" She asked in amusement.
E: Now this is the time she politely gets up and dismiss herself and her son because I'm such a dummy…..orrrr maybe not.
"Umm, kinda, yeah, I'm just kind of a curious person I guess" Emma said looking down.
"Hey" Regina said as she gently put her hand on top of Emma's, "no it's good to be curious, it ok, really, I was just teasing," Regina gave her a reassuring smile when Emma looked up.
E: Beautiful smile, I have to get it together, I want her to want to be around me more.
Emma smiled back enjoying the warmth of the hand that is on hers, at that moment she noticed movement beside her and she looks to notice small hands on top of Regina's hand, she smile bigger than before, then they started laughing at the cuteness while Henry laughed because they were laughing.
After a while, when they settled in a comfortable silence, Emma started to squirm in her seat.
E: Damn Kathryn…
"Are you alright?" Regina asked concerned.
Emma looked up with bug eyes. "Ye-yeah, yeah, I'm fine" Emma said trying to smile reassuringly but failed.
"Are you sure? You look like your in pain,"
"No, I'm fine, cramps," Emma lied with a shrug, Regina looks like she isn't convinced but she lets it go.
E: what else was I gonna say? 'Oh sorry, I'm chafing from the strap on i'm wearing because I feel closer to who I am with it'…. Oh my god I'm wearing a strap on while sitting next to a kid..
"Emma!"
E: Am I perverted?
"Emma!"
E:God what kind of person am I?
"Miss Swan"
Emma's head shot up to meet Regina's concerned eyes," are you sure your alright?"
"Ye-yeah, umm I have to go to the bathroom" Emma said while hastily getting up and rushing to the bathroom pulling her phone out.
As soon as she entered the bathroom she looked to see if anyone was there, it's clear so she went into the biggest stool and dialed Kathryn's number.
"Hello" Kathryn answered.
"Am I a pervert?" Emma blurted out on the verge of a panic attack or so it seems.
"Emma? Ok first calm down, take a deep breath with me and let it out slowly" Kathryn said then took a deep breath, letting it out slowly, Emma followed, "ok, that's good, now tell me what's going on" Kathryn demanded kindly.
"Ok so you know that thing you suggested I do along with wearing men's briefs?" Emma asked.
Kathryn had to think a bit then it dawned on her, " Yes, the strap on…" Kathryn said waiting on Emma's point.
"Well, I'm wearing now…. In public" Emma said pausing to see what Kathryn says.
Kathryn nodded along and when Emma paused she realized Emma's waiting on her, "ok, this is what we talked about doing eventually…"she trails off waiting for Emma to continue.
"Yeah well I am having breakfast with Regina and her 3 year old son, I was sitting next to him while I'm wearing something very adult.." Emma said with a teary voice.
"Ok, I get where your head is at now, do you wear a bra under your shirt?" Kathryn asked.
"Yes" Emma answered confused.
"Do you wear panties under your pants?"
"Yes"
"Do are you wearing the strap on for sexual reasons?"
"NO, you know that"
"I do, what do you think would be inside your pants if you were born with a penis? What do you think you'll have when you go through surgery?" Kathryn asked not expecting an answer, she understands Emma, being in foster care herself, she understands all the insecurities and on top of the normal foster kid insecurities, you have the being different then the other foster kids piled on you as well.
Emma thought about what Kathryn said and relaxed, she is right, Emma feels tears pricked in her eyes because Kathryn said "WHEN" instead of "IF" on her having a surgery, Kathryn believes in her.
"Tha-thank you Kathryn" is all Emma could think to say with a rough, cracked voice while her mind is reeling with emotions.
"No need to thank me, I'm happy to help, now go back out there and make a friend out of this woman and herson," Kathryn said encouragingly.
"Ok, bye, see you friday"
"See you then, bye" Kathryn replied before hanging up.
Emma puts her phone in her pocket and took a deep breath before walking out of the stall to come face to face with Regina, concerned eyes, folded arms and ankle leaning her bottom on the sink.
E: Shit, shit, shit, how long was she there.
Regina unfolded her arms and ankle and pushed herself off of the sink and walked towards Emma, "hey, are you ok?"
Emma smiled a little, "yeah, I am now, um how much did you hear?" She asked looking down.
Regin used you index and middle finger to pull Emma's head back up so to look at her, "to be honest I hear a few no's and a thank Kathryn and a bye and something about meeting on friday" Regina answered and Emma sagged relieved.
"I'm sorry for freaking out and possibly ruining breakfast"Emma said ashamed.
"Hey, no you didn't ruin anything, we well go back out there and relieve Ashley from Henry and finest breakfast together, but before that I want to say that I like you, that friend I told you about that you remind me of, I wasn't there for him and that was the biggest mistake I've ever made, I want to be here for you, I know we just met but I feel like we could be really good friends, so when you are ready, I'm here to listen, before we leave well exchanged numbers, is that good with you?" Regina asked, looking at Emma expectantly.
All Emma could do is nod with all the emotions swirling inside her.
E: Seriously though, what is up with everyone caring about me lately, I wonder if its the town, or its in the water, I wonder what happened with this friend of Reginas, I want to ask but when she talked about him there was I said look in her eyes..
"Good, let enjoy the rest of our breakfast, come on" Regina said grabbing Emma's wrist and dragging her to the table to relieve Ashley and enjoy each other's company.
All thoughts of the forming rash and thoughts of her being a pervert long gone and in its place is the feeling of being cared for and accepted.
E: Maybe Regina would accept me once I tell her, maybe she already knows, she seems very perceptive, either way I'm gonna get to know her better before I drop the P bomb.
To be continued………..