Interlude
I don't get it at all.
When I'm sitting at my seat, when I'm chatting with the others, when the lesson bell rings, even when the class begins, I have been thinking about the same thing all this time.
To the point that I confused myself. Telling myself that this is fine, that things should end this way, to the point that my tears fall.
I just don't get this at all. But...yeah.
This ending was probably decided ever since the beginning. An ending that has the same nature, yet with a completely opposite intention than mine.
Two endings that are so similar, yet so different. There is only one way to fulfill that wish of hers. But that definitely shouldn't happen.
With that in mind I remembered something Iroha-chan said a few months ago...
"I mean, even if you didn't, there's no way those two will stay that like for a long time, don't you think?"
...But even this is probably just a statement used to escape reality.
The words on the blackboard have been wiped off before I could copy any of it, and we have reached the next page of the textbook before I realized it.
People seemed to be chattering within the class, yet I can't hear any of those voices, only the scrubbing sounds of chalk and pencils, and a soft sigh near me echoed into my ears.
The instant I diverted my view, a familiar person enters the scenery. The head that is supported by the left hand, a pair of eyelids that are about to close, the remaining right hand that spins a pen delicately between its fingers.
The head then lowers down a bit, seemingly deciding on reading a textbook on the table...But, a sense of fatigue seems to linger about, as it struggles very hard not to doze off during the class. It had been like this throughout the whole day.
I can't see him, we can't see each other.
Even if they ended up moving to different universities, even if it ends up going unnoticed, even if no one becomes aware of it, even after understanding each other thoroughly, things will only be the way it has always been.
Thats why to grant my wish, I need to...