How long has it been?
How long has it been when my love for her started to seize?
How long has it been when I promised to not be like the *others*?
The answer became more and more unravelled as the days pass.
At first I was adamant to assume that I still loved her...
But once again... I lied to myself. I thought delusioning myself, fooling myself into believing that this consolation price was enough for me to retain my intoxicating affection for her.
Is this how the others felt?
As slowly began to remember my naive answer to haruno-chan, the more my answer grew clearer... I wasn't different from them at all.. With that in mind...
Has he noticed? More importantly has she?
In normal cases I would be certain due to their inept ability to lie, but the lingering feeling that they would refuse to consider it, makes my overall judgement faulty.
As I passed the school gates, I averted my gaze from the beautiful sunset. Although I tried to bury that painful memory in the depths of my mind I couldn't help reminisce it.
What a bittersweet memory.
It was nice of him to bend his words as much as possible with the intention of trying to soften the blow.
If that event didn't mark my rejection I would've kept that memory dearly.
Wait... that was merely a confirmation.
I got rejected way before that...
While I was walking back to my place, his words kept echoing in my ears over and over again, as if to remind me that painful memory once again. I desprately tried to forget about it and opened the door to my home. Sablé barked and came running at me.
"I'm home."
I crouched at the entrance and patted him. I groaned at the ticklish feeling when he licked my hand. On that hand, there was not a single drop of water. Even though I was peeved l still continued to pat him.
Standing up, I strengthened my resolve and convinced myself to be indigenous once more...
Nevertheless, I actually know and have noticed everything - that by doing things like this, the conclusion has already been drawn and the ending already settled.
However, this is the only thing I can do. This is the only way that I can think of.
Even If I know the answer to my request.
I will make sure it ends properly.
So, please. Please let me and her somehow relight our relationship properly
So, please. Please let him put my feelings to rest.