It's been four months of Bella's depression. All she did was go to school, do her work, when she got home she done her homework than sat on her chair looking out of the window. She keeps on emailing Alice but only for it to get sent back as failed. It's hard enough for me and dad to see her like this, as low as this for such a long time over a break-up. But the physically killer part for us is Bella's nightly nightmares. Blood curdling screams fill the house each night. It's gotten to the point that dad tells me to go to La Push after school so that I could sleep until eight. Then I would need to get home.
So that's Bella's new routine and mines is waking up, getting myself ready for school and making sure that Bella gets ready as well and all her stuff is sorted. She then drives us to school. I hang around with her friends while she sits at the Cullen's old table; it's the only time I get a waking break from Bella. People look at me sympathetically due to the bags under my eyes. It's obvious that I am exhausted, everyone can see it. That's why I walk to La Push to Billy's house to get some sleep. They wake me up again at 7.15 so that I can make dinner for myself and the boys. I like doing it for them as it gives me something to concentrate on, plus a change of who I am helping out.
Charlie picks me up from La Push before eight and we go home. When I get in, dad does the dishes which I am thankful for as I have to make sure than Bella is okay. I check to make sure that she's eaten, then if she needs washed. It's not as bad as when it first started. I still have to basically do most things for her. But she can wash herself now; I just do her hair again when she's out. Then I can relax after I know that she will be okay before bed. Then her screams start and I bring a blanket a sleep in her room. But I don't really sleep because of her relentless screaming. I am lucky to get a good two hours sleep a night and the rest in just in and out.
Then Charlie cracked when Bella and I got home one day. I was told not go down to La Push straight away today and now I know why. "That's it" dad said looking at Bella. She looked at him confused.
"What?" she asked.
"I am sending you to Jacksonville to live with your mother" he told her, dad and I had a conversation a few weeks ago about what was happening with Bella and how it wasn't fair on any of us.
"No" she said.
"The reason being is that this behaviour isn't normal. It's not been fair on you and your sister. Mary has had to stop her life apart from school to take care of you" dad told her.
She shook her head "Mary goes to Jake's everyday" she replied.
"She goes there to catch up on sleep because she's up most of the night with you, making sure that I get some sleep. Her words being that I need more sleep than herself. It's scaring all of us. You need to go stay with your mother, get some sun on your skin and make some new friends" Dad said to her.
"I like my old friends" she murmured but loud enough for us to hear.
"You never see them anymore Bella. Mary only sees them at school. Other students have been saying that you always sit at the Cullen's table looking out of the window" he argued with her.
"Jessica and I are going out for a girls night" Bella said to him. "Please don't send me away" she begged him. He looked at her thinking.
"I don't want you to go Bell's. I love you as I love your sister Mary. If you promise to hang around with them again then I will reconsider" he said. Bella nodded and walked into the house. I stood next to dad and watched her go into the house.
"You look shattered baby girl" my dad said to me.
"I am, it's taking a toll on me" I admitted.
"I noticed, I have been getting contacted by the school saying that your work is suffering. I explained the situation and they don't mind you taking the rest of the week off to catch up on sleep and study" dad said. I thought about it, it didn't seem like a bad idea.
"That sounds great, I will take them up on that offer. I think I am the one in need of a nice relaxing bath" I said smiling at my dad. When we got in Bella had just gotten off the phone.
"Jessica and I are going to go and see a movie tonight" Bella said.
"Good. Hope you have fun" dad said, I smiled at her and squeezed her arm encouragingly. It was one of the most relaxing and lazy evenings that I have had in a while, no time to keep too, no one to worry about, just me and my bath. I drew myself a nice hot bath with lavender bubbles to relax. It was the best feeling ever me being in the bath instead of someone else. I was taking care of myself and not someone else. I know that sounds spiteful but I really needed this. Five months since Edward and the Cullen's left and it turned our lives upside down. In a way I hate them, especially Edward. How he hurt Bella and broke her and left us to salvage the pieces. If they were to ever come back, there is no way in hell would I ever forgive them.