I have followed as Jacob has asked of me and stayed away from when him and Bella are hanging out. He hasn't texted me since and I him. Bella still talks about how much fun she had with Jake and how great he is. Apparently Bella, Mike, Jessica, Eric, Angela and Jacob are going to the cinema to watch Facepunch.

Bella didn't invite me, so I didn't go. I was polite and didn't want to impose. Although Jessica ended up phoning me saying that she didn't want to go and wanted to hang out with me instead so I invited her over. I couldn't be bothered leaving the house and desired company.

Bella had already gone. I hope she enjoys her movie and I hope that Jacob and Bella talk, as I would like to see Jake again. But only if he wants to see me. Even dad has picked up on the distance between Jacob and I.

"You and Jacob okay Mary?" dad asked me once Bella had left for the cinema.

"Jacob has a crush on Bella and has asked me not to come round with Bella when she goes and visits him" I told him. My dad seemed torn obviously as he likes the fact that Jacob has made Bella better but he doesn't like how I have been pushed to the side, replaced. "Bella's finally happy, she certainly talks about her and Jacob a lot. So if it means that she's happy and not having nightmares. Then the atmosphere in this house can be better and I can actually sleep. If I have to pay the price of my best friend then I guess I just have to deal with it" I told him.

"I am so happy that you took care of your sister throughout her depression. I am glad that you are sleeping again. I am happy that I raised a girl that respects other people wishes and goes out of her way to help people. But there is a line; you should not sacrifice your own happiness for others. You shouldn't have to give up friends to help make someone feel better. I am not happy that you are not happy" he said to me whilst grasping my shoulders making me look at him.

"I feel as if it's all Jacob that she cares about. How Jacob is the one that helped her best and made her better. Is she forgetting that I stayed up to calm her nightmares? That I made sure that she was clean and had everything that she needed? That I gave up my needs and what I wanted to help her. Is it so hard for her to appreciate what I did? To say a genuine thank-you. That's all I want" I cried and hugged into my dads chest. He wrapped his arms around me hesitantly. I knew that he wasn't that good at the heart to heart thing, but he did try and he was there and that was what counted.

"Hey there, I am sure she does appreciate everything that you have done for her Mary. She is just on cloud nine just now. It will hit her eventually sweetheart. You know it's your birthday coming up. What is it that you would like? Ask for as much as you want as you deserve it, after how you have helped me and your sister" dad said pulling me away from him so he could look at me again. I completely forgot about my birthday. I have been too busy worrying about Bella and being self-absorbed when it comes to Jacob that I actually forgot that it was coming up.

"Umm" I started off

"You forgot, didn't you?" my dad asked laughing. I just nodded, he knew me so well.

"Well, I would like the new That's what I call Disney princess cd. Plus the books fairest of them all and the beast within. It's a take on the Snow White and Beauty and the Beast but on the Evil Queens and Beasts perspective" I asked him. He smiled.

"Of Course you can, so what's on your amazon wishlist then?" he asked and I sheepishly nodded. "Okay, I will see what I can do baby girl" my dad said and walked away upstairs.

Then Jessica rang the doorbell, I hurried and opened the door. "Hey Jessica, how are you?" I asked and let her inside.

"Hi Mary, I am okay I really didn't want to go on another movie night with Bella again. How have you been doing? you have to live with her?" she asked me. I walked her upstairs to my bedroom. I closed the door behind us. We sat on my bed across from one another.

"I have been okay I guess. Glad to have been getting some sleep. What's wrong with going to the cinema with Bella?" I asked curious.

"Last time she really wanted to see this zombie movie. It was gross. Then when we were going out of the movies, she completely spaced out and ended up going towards these guys on the back of these motorcycles claiming that she knew them. She jumped as if she saw a ghost and said to that space that you're not here. So she did, she came back fairly quickly claiming that it was such a rush. Your sister went to zombie depressive to adrenaline junkie in the space of a couple of days" Jessica filled me in.

So that's why she went looking for motorcycles for Jake to build, so that she could get a rush of adrenaline. If she's seeing something as Jessica says then could that be a factor in wanting Jake to build the motorcycles so she can see this thing.

"Yeah she bought these two motorcycles from the scrap yard a month or so ago and drove them down to the rez for Jacob to fix" I told her.

"Wait. Jacob as in your best friend Jacob?" Jess asked me.

"Yeah, he's had a crush on Bella for years so he was more than happy to help. I haven't seen him in a while, since he texted me asking not to come down to the rez while he and Bella were hanging out because he feels that my presence being there would stop his and Bella's love blooming so to speak" I told her. It was nice having someone that I could talk to about everything; I really needed girl time after everything that's happened.

"Oh My God, how can he treat you like that? You have been there for him his entire life and is just replacing you with your sister!" Jessica said shocked at the information that I gave her.

"So yeah I am abiding by his wishes and just waiting to see what happens" I told her.

We talked for another hour then Jessica had to leave, which was good as if it had been another ten minutes then she would have been caught by Bella. "Hi Bella, how was the movie?" I asked her as she barged into my room.

"You knew that Jake liked me more than a friend? I thought we were sisters, you should have told me!" she screamed at me. So I guess they had the talk then.

"Bell's I didn't know how you would feel after everything that happened. Jacob asked me not to come down to the Rez in case it affected any feelings that may blossom between you and as his friend, someone who's cared for him since we were tots I respected his wishes. I left it to you, plus I thought you would like a break from my giving that I spent every night with you as well as bathing you and stuff for the past few months" I told her calmly.

Bella just huffed "You had no right! You should have told me! I didn't need your help! I wouldn't have been fine after... after he left" she shouted struggling to get the words out. I just looked at her shocked, what did I do to deserve this? What have I done wrong to her? She just stormed out slamming my door behind her and I heard her stomping to her own room before slamming her own door.

Dad came into my room and took one look at me and rushed to me. "What happened?" he asked.

"Didn't you not hear?" he nodded.

"What did I do?" I asked him pathetically. He just hugged me tighter.