A/N: ITALICS IS DREAMING

Somehow Bella managed to get me to go back down to La Push her words being that she was going to give Jacob a piece of her mind for the way he had treated the both of us. When we got out of the truck I waited outside whilst Bella barged through Billy and into Jacob's room. There was the animal call again and I turned round to see Sam and the guy walking towards the house. Bella then came back and pulled me up to them by the arm. "What did you do?" Bella shouted.

"What did we do? What did you do? What did he tell you?" Paul said threateningly. Sam put his hand on Paul's chest

"Easy" he said.

"He won't tell me anything because he's scared of you!" Bella shouted. Paul then just laughed and she proceeded to slap him. He looked really angry now; he was taking rapid deep breaths, his whole body heaving with each breath.

"Get back!" Sam shouted at us. We did slowly then as Paul combusted a giant wolf stood in his place. Bella pushed me in front of her using me as a human shield against Paul.

"Bella!" I heard Jacob shout. Bella then left, the force yanking me backwards to the ground. Paul stalked towards me. I held his eyes; I could see that they were his eyes. I heard something ripping and turned to see Jacob jumping over Bella and turning into a giant russet wolf. The same wolf that stopped by Bella before chasing Laurent.

I turned my eyes back to Pauls. Then Jacob tackled him and they wrestled into the woods. I got scratched by one of Jacob's claws as he jumped over me to tackle Paul. "Take the two of them back to Emily's place" Sam shouted as he followed after Jacob and Paul. Embry knelt down beside me.

"You okay Mary?" he asked, I just nodded slowly. "Let me see your arm" I lifted my arm and he gently took it. It was a big cut, not too deep to scar. But it travelled down from my elbow to my wrist. "Let's go get it cleaned up" he said as he helped me up. Jared was helping Bella to the truck. We drove to Emily's Jared and Embry arguing over who won the wrestling match Jacob or Paul.

They made an animal call when they got out of the truck. I got out after them. "Maybe we should go back and check on Jake" Bella called from inside the truck but she was just ignored. She went out of the truck. Embry stopped us before we went into the house.

"See with Emily, Sam's fiancé. Don't stare it bugs Sam" I nodded whilst Bella proceeded to ask why. We soon found out when we got in and saw the scars running down half of her face.

"Who's this?" Emily asked glancing at the boys before looking back at us.

"Bella and Mary Swan, who else?" Jared replied.

"Nice to meet you" she said. "I made some muffins. Ladies first" she said. Bella and I took a muffin. They were huge.

"Um, is it okay if I get this cut seen too?" I asked. Emily looked at my arm and rushed to me and brought me to the counter muttering apologies and tending to my arm. Putting antiseptic cream on it which stung and then wrapped it in a bandage.

Sam came in and went straight to Emily and kissed all over her scarred side of her face. Jacob and Paul came in playing as if they hadn't been wrestling at all. Jacob looked at me, my arm a flash of hurt at the sight then Bella and waved her outside. The rest of the guys looked at me as the two of them left with sympathy.

"So your wolves?" I asked them. They filled me in on how the legends that I heard when I was a child were all true. How they only hunt and kill vampires using Laurent as an example. I am quite glad he's dead then he couldn't get back to Victoria. They told me about imprinting and how Sam had imprinted on Emily. It must be nice finding your soul mate. I was envious of them.

"We apologise about Jacob's behaviour. He shouldn't have said the things that he did" Sam told me. I nodded. It wasn't his fault that Jacob is being an arsehole.

"He always liked the idea of Bella and we have been drifting apart since she moved here. So I guess he needs her more than me. He always had a crush on her. I stayed away like he asked me too before he became a wolf so that he and Bella could get closer and gain something more than friendship. I respected his choices and left him to it until he wanted me around again. Then he talks to me like that after not talking to me in over a month. It just hurt" I explained to them.

They looked angry and sympathetic. I didn't want their sympathy; it gets to the point that it feels suffocating. Jacob and Bella returned and Bella looked happy and when she looked at me she looked smug. What's brought this on? Jake then motioned for me to follow him. I did although I wasn't going to say anything.

"Mary. I am sorry for the things that I said. Thinking from your side of the situation you must have been shocked at my words" he said. I just nodded at him. "I know that the guys explained everything to you and the reason why I said those things to you is that I imprinted on you. But I wanted to imprint on Bella, I still love her" Jacob explained. If he was hoping that the pain was going to lessen he was wrong, it just got worse. The way the guys explained it was like love at first sight and your souls are bound. So to hear that your apparent soul mate would rather want your sister, it hurts.

"So what do you want from me then?" I asked looking at him with emotionless eyes, he flinched as he realised now how much he's hurt me. As when I get hurt, I shut down and I build walls up to hide the wound that was created. "I still want to be friends Mary" Jacob said.

"Okay we will stay friends. Is that all you wanted me for?" I asked him sharply. He looked at me shocked. Was he expecting that I was going to be happy, that I was going to be okay after what he's said to me? I just turned and walked back to Emily's. I heard him calling my name but I ignored him. But quickened my pace into a run, a couple of tears running down my cheeks. He wanted Bella, well he can have her and I can just hang around with Embry and the rest of the guys as they are much nicer than Jacob.

SOME POINT LATER

Jacob has been trying relentlessly to get in touch with me. Now he will know how Bella feels when he doesn't pick up the phone. Speaking of Bella she has become a lot darker in her personality, or maybe I just didn't notice it much before. She seems to be getting more smug and become Miss Know It All.

She gloats that she was the first one that Jacob explained all of the wolf stuff too, forgetting that I was having the same conversation with the rest of the pack. She also thinks and has said to me that the reason why Jacob didn't stay alone with me that long was because he detests me. Even though I was the first one to arrive back at Emily's I have told her that but she just waves it off and insists that is because I got too upset and ran away.

So my plan is to ignore the both of them. I am succeeding better at ignoring Jacob than Bella as she for one lives in the same house as me and two she comes into my room to talk about her and the pack. Doesn't she see that I am hurting? Of course she does, that is why she is doing it to rub salt into my wound. I try to make everyone happy, but it's not working and I am just hurting myself in trying. But I just can't stop, it's a part of me. Maybe one day I can grow out of that and just care about the people that are nice to me.

I haven't seen or talked to Jacob in a week and I was getting chest pains and headaches as well as dizziness. I think I was coming down with a bug. Dad let me stay off even though I insisted that I was fine, but he ordered bed rest for me as I did not look healthy enough to be out of my room let alone out of the house and in school. So I just lay in bed and slept as that is all I could really do.

I was in the woods in a long white nightgown that looked as if it came from the Victorian era. It was cold and eerie in the woods where I woke up. I felt as if something was watching me. I turned and saw a flash of bright red hair. I heard a howl in the distance that sounded as if it were in pain. I felt my heartbeat rising as each second past, it was painful.

So painful that I just wanted to rip it out of my chest just so that the pain would leave. I was clawing at my chest now, sweat forming on my forehead, tears running down my cheeks. I felt as if my heart was going to combust. I wanted to scream from the pain but nothing came out. Then something flashed in front of me, I looked up and saw red eyes, marble skin and fiery red hair. Victoria.

The wolves howl grew louder and frantic. Getting closer. Victoria looked at me and smiled. "Do you want the pain to stop?" she asked sweetly tilting her head slightly to the side as her lips twisted to form a sadistic smile. But the pain was too much to bear. Too much to care much of the motive behind Victoria's words. I heard thuds of paws pounding heavily towards us.

I nodded at her, the pain of rejection and betrayal consumed me. Just as the wolf came into view, I saw it's russet fur. I looked into those big brown eyes with golden flecks that shone more brightly and were more prominent in his wolf form. It was Jacob, he looked terrified.

"I will end your pain. No need to worry" Victoria whispered in my ear as she plunged her hand into my chest. I looked into a blood red eyes as she pulled out my heart and held it up in front of me. I heard Jacob howl in agony and as I fell to the ground my sight lost Victoria and caught sight of Jacob. I looked into those big brown and golden eyes as my sight faded and darkness consumed me.