Lancelot POV
After fleeing in fire with Goliath from the camp of the Paladins along with the little, bolder Percival, we were hiking for hours in search of where the boy said he had a lake nearby, that we could stop and recover.
My thoughts were on the events that just happened, I betrayed the people who were my family, what I didn't know is that the person I saw as a father figure had killed my parents and I found out that my sister who had forgotten that she existed until she appeared alive and reminded me of her and I realize all the evil I did for the Feys. I remember the words of the fey warrior, that I could be the best Fighter of the Feys, and that even after everything I did the Green Knight would accept me and watch Percival almost tortured by brother Salt.
I am very sure that I will have to beg forgiveness for the Feys, and especially those I killed because of the thief and liar Carden who took me from my family and used me for my abilities and distorted me, hurt me and never really loved me as he said. He made me believe that my own kind was demons, and that I needed to kill them, after Layla's words I know that the real demon was him, and more and more my thoughts of hatred for the priest grow, and finally find out that the Feys never did any harm and I killed them without mercy, Just because Carden said to do and that he would be cleaning the land of demons, now that I know that everything I did was wrong, destroy my soul, and think that Carden stole me from my people, he always told me that whoever is born of the demon did not have the same right to have what humans had, that they deserved to be burned, that it would cleanse their al. ...
"Lancelot, how did you know my name?" the little one takes me out of my thoughts when he pokes me with his elbow.
"What?" I ask him.
"When you saved me, from the frightening blind man, you called me by my real name, not by the nickname everyone calls me".
"You wouldn't believe me, little man," I tell him.
"Go on, tell me, it's my name we're talking about," he closes his face with a little pout.
"Okay" I take a deep breath "A few weeks ago, I had some dreams that seemed real, and I think the first one I got your name was quoted".
"You certainly have to tell me, like with more information, and I think this is pretty strange. You must be weird, like someone dreams about the kid you kidnapped a few weeks ago," the kid comments.
"I want to apologize for kidnapping you, I really believed in the dogmas that Father Carden put in my head, I didn't know that what I was doing was wrong " I tell him.
"But why did you save me?" he asks me.
"Your uncle's words made me think and I believed that you needed to go back to your family, he said that the Feys would accept me even after all the evil that...".
"Of course we would accept you. Besides being strange, you are dumb, all the Feys are family, even those who burn us and destroy our houses, we are all brothers and sisters. "the little one interrupts me "You knew that my mother is our queen, she killed many paladins, I believe that if she saw you she would kill you right away, Don't worry, I'm sure that if I told her that you saved me, she wouldn't kill you, She is very kind, and merciful, she forgave my grandfather, who by what Uncle Gawain said, he did a lot of damage to people, he told us something important, that Mama had a baby in her belly and I think he will be a boy who will be called. .. "
"Galahad" I say, remembering the last dream.
"How do you know? Is that the name I chose for my brother?" he asks shocked that I knew that name.
"I had a dream, that name escaped through my mouth, and the woman in the dream said it was mine, I think the woman in the dream might be Fey, and I'm pretty sure she's known as the wolf blood witch and as the queen". and the boy turns his head towards me.
"Are you my mother's soul mate? My grandfather told me that she had found her soulmate on the day of the attack on our village, I kept wondering why you let her escape, she is much more beautiful than you..." I stopped listening to the boy after she spoke the word soul mate, it's the same word that the woman in the dream described what we are, but I don't know what it means, it must be something that is only part of the Fey people.
"Boy, I never knew your mother. What is soulmate?" I ask him.
"You really don't know anything, but I don't know much about it either, I remember what my grandmother told me, whoever is born in the Fey people has his perfect match, a living being who completes him, you only know who you are because you feel a connection that pulls you to find who is on the other side, and when they find boom they are connected" explains the little one "But my mother always says that I ask about this that I'm not old enough to worry about it and that I have to wait another six years to find out what this really means," explains the little one.
Soul Mate, the witch is mine, what I always felt when the witch was near was a bond that we have, that completes our being, when I am in places that she was I smell that smell, I need to know more about that delicious smell that made me have unholy thoughts that no man of God should have those thoughts of lust, just by remembering that smell, it makes my mouth water, I pinch myself, I can't have thoughts of sin, but I remember again. You are no longer the Monk, you are Fey, you are Lancelot and you can have these thoughts, you are free. I'm intrigued by what I can do, from now on and the main thing is to know this Fey who leaves me drooling by a scent I never felt the same.
"What is she like? The Witch, her mother. Can you tell me about her?" I ask the boy. He faces me and asks
"You want to know about Fey, Why do you want to know about my mom?"
"Since I found out that the two Feys that made me intrigued, your mother, I remember you well glorifying her as if she were the best thing in the world and the wolf blood witch who did the greatest damage against the church are the same, First I wanted to fight her, and after all her attacks I wanted to kill her, I felt very possessive with her, and even before the conversation I had with my sister, I felt that she was mine, and after I started to accept myself as Fey, and I found out what this Soul Mate thing means, I want to meet her, the Queen, they say she is very beautiful," I explain to him.
"Yes mommy is very beautiful, her name is Nimue, I think she is the most beautiful Fey in the whole universe, and for you to be much more interested, she is the most powerful Feys I know, it must be because her father is the great Merlin, Grandpa is a babbler when it comes to mommy. She adopted me when my real mother went to the Hidden, Uncle Gawain is like her brother and you will have to take care of yourself, he promised that he would kill who was her soul mate, but I'm sure Aunt Layla won't let him kill you"... And the little one kept enchanting my ears about the woman who was born to complete me.
It was already getting dark, and we had been on the road for a long time since we started this journey. I decided we needed to stop and rest for a few hours.
"Let's stop, we need to rest" I warned him, coming down from Goliath. I feel a pain from the cuts of the guards of the Trinity, I controlled a moan so as not to worry the boy.
"Lancelot, I'm a little hungry, can I hunt something to eat?" he asks me.
"Just in my vision, boy, I don't want you to get lost," I said, and he went looking for something to eat.
Meanwhile I set up a small camp for us, we ate for the first time we were together the boy was silent, and soon the little boy snuggled up next to me and ended up falling asleep in my lap, and once again the familiar feeling that I had with this boy, and was getting stronger every time we spent together.
I smelled someone coming towards us, afraid that they would be paladins, so I covered the little one and took one of the knives that I left in my pockets that would help me defend the boy. I looked for where the smell came from and when I found the direction I sighed with relief, there was the Green Knight and my sister, alive and ready for any battle like two warriors they are.
"Brother, you're not the only one who can use your nose to find the one you're looking for," she says as she approaches our improvised camp.
" So I realize that my words had a positive impact on you", says the Green Knight.
"I think so," I tell him.
"On the way here, Layla told me she put you on the line, and told me about your past". I looked at my sister and she nodded, "She said you're the brother she thought died in the attack but you really were kidnapped as a child and ended up being mistreated to follow the wishes of your attacker. When we left the Pendragon camp, we saw Father Carden with his head separated from his body". I sigh of relief, that that bastard who took me from my family can never hurt any innocent soul again. Now I have only a few humans to kill, starting with that king who wants my witch and the paladins who are doing the most impure crimes that exist.
"I can tell you that I'm very happy that you heard me and went back to your true roots. I realize that we didn't present ourselves properly. Only we know each other by our codenames, I am Gawain" he introduces himself with his hand outstretched.
"Lancelot," I say trying to lift my hand, I feel a pain in my back and I groan in pain, I think my wounds haven't healed.
"Layla, come here, your brother needs help. He's hurt," he said, taking the little one in my arms and my sister came running to me.
"What happened Lancelot?". My sister asked me with curiosity, her hands touched me and she began to look for the wounds, which I received in my struggle, when she found, she is shocked by how hurt I am, "Lance, these wounds, how did you get hurt? They're deeper than they were on your back when I confronted you", and she starts taking care of the wounds that the trinity guards made, her hands touch the wound and I see something that surprised me, her marks, which are the same as mine, start to shine, as if they were burning embers, after a few seconds all the wounds closed, but they remained as scars that would be carved forever on my skin.
"Thanks sister, these injuries happened because of the abbot, he was keeping an eye on me, he knew I was one thread away from giving up and going back to the Feys, he tried to stop me from running away with the little one, I had to fight the pope's special guard, it was ten guards against me, The first five I managed to fight and kill them but the other five used my fatigue and almost killed me, but the little one gave me a strength from beyond, he distracted the guards and I managed to kill the missing ones and he helped me ride in Goliath and we ran away, and as for you, green knight, how are you in one piece? , Brand new, When they took you to the king's camp I thought brother Salt had killed you" I ask him looking and he doesn't have any of the wounds that brother Salt caused, he looked like he had never fought with me and was tortured, the only thing that was different was that he had green roots all over his body.
"I don't know what happened, after the king's soldiers came I had already lost my strength, and on the way to the camp I fainted. But when I woke up I was wrapped in a green cocoon full of plants with Layla crying over me, and saw that I moved. She realized I was breathing, she started laughing and filled me like a butterfly coming out of his cocoon, but I remember hearing Nimue's voice. My soulmate?
"My soul mate"...
"So you're my sister's soulmate," he answers with a smile.
I think I said it out loud.
"I don't know about that, I never met your sister, I only know the Witch by her exploits and by her loving words about the boy's mother. I had so many moments to meet this woman, but some strange force pulled me away from her, everywhere she was I had a smell that almost made me act like an animal, when she was in the abbey, I almost met her, but I couldn't decipher where this smell came from, and why it was masked with the clothes of the other nuns". I tell him, hoping that I will find out why she has this wonderful smell.
"This is one of the characteristics of the dominant fey, we have the sharpest sense of smell and we use this to find our soulmate, there are two types of feys, the dominant and the submissive, the dominant is the protector and the submissive is who takes care, in this case, for all the dominant your submissive fey will have the most delicious smell you ever felt," he explains,
"Did you feel this with Layla?" I ask him, curious to understand about this part of my being, I'm a dominant Fey, I have to be a protector, and especially for the person who a few days ago wanted to kill.
"Yes, I felt this with your sister, I went crazy when I first smelled her, I don't think she told you about it, I'll tell you what I felt before finally seeing Layla in person," he answers with Percival in his arms. "For a few months, every time I came back from a mission in Nemos. I was greeted by a wonderful smell that made me lose all sense, I wanted to run and pick up whoever had that smell and take them to a corner and do whatever I wanted, but I never could find out who it was, I didn't have time between the collection missions at the farms and those to track the Feys in need, but one day I knew that there was a Fey of the ash people that hadn't been heard for centuries and that would participate in our resistance. I was intrigued by this, and finally after two months of going crazy with the magnificent smell, I discovered that it was this beautiful Fey, the elderly finally put us in a mission together and I saw her and for the first time I felt complete," he says smiling to my sister who responded with a slap on the head. And he collapsed laughing.
"Idiot, but don't be worried about it, Lance, this idiocy of his won't pass" says my sister.
"This hurts me, but coming back to the subject of companions, I have a tip for you: when you meet Nimue... you will probably become like an animal wanting to mate quickly because the smell is intoxicating and only goes away after the first intimate contact. Don't run away. I know you still have the dogmas of the church in your brain that you can't have a woman that this is sin and tals, but running away from this will be much worse, you will be pulled into the person and you won't have control," he says. How can he be so calm and give me tips after everything I've done with our people? "I think that's what happened in the attack on Dewdenn since you met before, but the occult took your memories.
"Do all Feys have soul mates?" I ask. I don't know anything about our cultures.
"We believe so, but there are many villages that don't believe it anymore," he answers.
"I remember that our parents have been the only ones from our tribe for the last 30 years, The Feys are preferring to marry Feys from their own tribe," says Layla. "Speaking of soul mates, you dominant ones use your sense of smell to find your soul mates, we who are submissive, when we find out who our soul mates are, it seems that there is something that pulls us towards that person, as if there is an imaginary line that connects us, we use the soul," she explains.
"I don't know how to be Fey, I don't know our cultures, our languages, because of this demon who took me from my family and turned me into a deadly weapon, because I could feel my own kind by the smell and since I was a child who could be molded to use that to help the church," I tell them with guilt. "The priest told me that God would speak to us if we prayed, I never got answers and I always thought that since I was born of the devil that's why I didn't get the answers I needed, I always had another voice that came and tempted me, now I think it was the Occult, but I never wanted to hear it. I know I did many wrong things, but I want to redeem myself. I want to be who I used to be, a Fey, who can accept that I have powers, who can cry out for the occult to help me" I tell them with a sad thought.
"My brother, yes, you are my brother, as I said before, all fey are brothers, of the lost ones, but now we really are brothers". And he gets another slap in the back of Layla's head.
"Ughhh Layla stops it, I'm trying to talk to your brother". He complains to Layla. "But back to what I was saying. You really seem like you want to come back, so I'll be happy to bring you back to our people," he says with a sincere smile. "But, brother, you look like you need some sleep. Your sister and I will be on guard".
"But..." I try to say it's okay, that I could stand guard, but my sister cuts me off.
"Oh dear, you really need to rest, go to sleep, I feel that tomorrow we will have quite a day," she says, making a brotherly affection in my arms and she puts a loving kiss on my forehead, I have never felt anything like it in my life, and soon I am consumed by a deep sleep.
"Lancelot, my love, come and meet us, we are very close, we have a lot to talk about, our paths, after all these months finally intertwined, I know you still don't know if you are worthy to be part of our people again, but trust in our family and our future, go to the streams and there you will find what you are looking for, follow your heart, only you will be able to save us, come we are close, rabbit bridge". "says a woman with a newborn baby who looked like me, offering the baby to me, who insures it by instinct," remembers, my love, by the streams" and kisses me.
"Does he know about the little one?" I hear the voice of the Green Knight.
"I haven't told him anything, I don't think he's ready to know he's a father," continues my sister.
Dad? Me? I've never been with a woman.
"We have to tell him, little Galahad is probably already born, and if we don't tell him, I think he's going to be scared to death when he sees my sister with a baby and maybe he thinks she didn't wait for him," he says.
Galahad's baby name in the dream, a burst of happiness grows in my being, the baby in the queen's womb was mine, and I end up realizing that the jealousy I felt when I knew the queen was pregnant was nothing, it was just my inner animal wanting her family. I realize that my soul mate did all her great adventures that the Father gave her nickname of wolf blood witch with my baby inside her.
"You mean that the queen killed several paladins who could kill her with a baby in her womb and is claiming that it was me who got her knocked up". I tell them trying to get up, but I quickly notice a small body on top of me. Percival must have snuggled up on me during the night.
"Lancelot, you shouldn't know it like that," my sister says as she approaches me.
"What? You think I shouldn't know that I have a son, that more than anything else needs me, I know I'm not ready to be a father, but I still wouldn't let anything bad happen to him".I say with anger,
"I know, brother, but we were afraid you wouldn't like the idea, you just went back to your roots, you don't know anything about our culture and you recently discovered that you are the twin soul of the queen of our people and didn't know how you would feel about having a child on the way," she says affectionately, calming my anger.
"We must continue the journey, I think I received a message in my dream. It was a woman who sent her, it was a quick dream, but she told me that only I could save her and that she was in a stream that follows the rabbit bridge, so we must go to the stream as soon as possible "I tell them.
"Okay, let's wake up the little one, but first you have to eat something. While you were resting, we went looking for something to eat," says Gawain, and in front of him there was some fruit. I move to see if Percival wakes up, but the boy moves a little but doesn't wake up, he throws his little body over me and holds me in his arms.
Gawain and my sister laugh at my situation, but they try to help me wake the little one.
"Percy, it's time to wake up, we have to find your mother," says Gawain, pushing him.
"Five more minutes, Daddy" he says, sticking his head in my chest, I feel a warmth in my heart as I hear these words from the little one.
"Dear, your uncle brought food," says my sister, emphasizing the word food and as if they were magic words.
"Food! yes I need food", the little one jumped up screaming.
I am still immersed in my thoughts of having children depending on me.
"Nimue and Pym told me that any food would wake him up," Layla whispers, taking me out of my thoughts and helping me up.
"Thank you".
"Uncle Gawain, we know you're the Green Knight and green is your color, but why do you look like a walking tree?" I hold the laughter with his example of how his uncle was.
"How did you get brand new? the Kitchen Baboon did you a mega damage, you were all hurt. He almost did it to me, but Lance killed him before anything could happen to me and also killed all the soldiers who had the golden face, he saved me, but I saved him too. He said that you were taken to the king's camp and had not heard from you and Aunt Layla or my mother," says the little one.
I smile, but soon I hit myself because this is not acceptable, my sister comes and whispers to me while the little one rambles.
"Lance, you're no longer with the paladins, you're free to do whatever you want, you don't have to punish yourself when you get some pleasure," I look at you with hope and like a little boy I ask.
"You help me to be Lancelot again, not this thing that Father Carden shaped?"
"Of course, little brother, I'll leave you perfect for Nimue and your son. I think this boy will be one of the gray ones like you, I believe he will have a very important destiny, he is the son of two warriors, being one of them the terrible weeping monk who is becoming the greatest warrior of the Feys and one of the most powerful Fey that exists, our queen" I swallow dry, if I am the soulmate of the queen, I would have to be the king of the people who a few days ago was focused on killing.
"Lance, I know you're afraid to be one of our leaders, but you don't have to be at this moment, you will learn and in the right time you will be ready", she says, answering my thoughts.
"What? He saves you and becomes your hero? and me, your fiercest uncle and the best warrior you know", says Gawain, our tyrant. We looked at them and saw that the little Squirrel was upside down, but laughing with his uncle.
How I wanted to have this freedom.
"You will have it, when we win this war against the church, we will be free for everything. My sister always seems to know what I am thinking.
"Layla, how can you know what I'm thinking? I ask her.
"Magical powers". She jokes, and I face her. "But the truth is, I know you, my darling. And I feel that you need it," she says, hugging me, in all my years I've never had a loving hug like the one I get from her.
"Father, save me" shouts the little one running and hiding behind me. Maybe he is also feeling this familiar connection that I feel for him.
"What happens here? Squirrel, my grandson! what a great surprise, you're safe and who would these people be?" appears a man with the Nun who said the Witch hurt her and ran away, but I realize that she was the one who helped my soul mate to escape.
"Grandpa" the boy runs and jumps on his grandfather. He was tall, bald and old. "Where is Mommy?" He must be Merlin.
"Why are you with the Weeping Monk?" asks the woman.
"Morgana, he's Galahad's father, Nimue's soulmate and my little brother," says Layla.
"Younger brother," I corrected her.
"After what you did, you think you will be accepted just because you are Fey," says the woman in black who discovered that her name is Morgana.
"All I did was because Carden tortured me to believe that my roots were demonic and that I should save the souls of all Feys and save them in his vocabulary was synonymous with burning them, but after what the Green Knight said to me and the flashback I had after the conversation with my sister, I realized that everything they said to me was false and I had saved the boy," I say to the newcomers.
"Leonore, why does our daughter have to be like you? She had to have a soul mate who was on a dark path, until she saw his child or who was adopted by his soul mate and started to be a better man. You must have put a plague, why they have to have the same story as us, I did not want this for our daughter". What does he mean, 'I'm a lot like him?
"Traitor, after all you've done, you still speak badly of him," says Gawain going towards the man with his knife, why does he call the world's greatest sorcerer a traitor?
"You're the one my daughter warned me about, Gawain, who acted like a bear but deep down is really a dog" mocks the wizard, Gawain leaves for the attack but my sister holds him in fear of what the powerful wizard would do with her soul mate. The old man doesn't care about the Green Knight and comes to me and inspects me.
"You must know that my daughter is being asked to marry and become the future queen of England," warns the old man, and once again after hearing these words, my inner animal comes to life. I was already tempted to go to the king's camp and end his life.
"He can't have her, nobody can have her, she is only mine, to do what I want", the animal growls inside me. And I go to Goliath and prepare myself to go to the king and kill him.
"He says ready to attack me: "You have a reputation for cruelty and you have killed thousands of our people".
I shrink from this comment.
"He saved me, Grandpa, if it weren't for him I wouldn't be alive," says the little one coming between us.
"It was the right thing to do," I say, looking at the floor.
"But Grandpa, where is Mom? " Percival asks, changing the subject.
"I'm sorry, kid, I couldn't save her," he says with a hint of suffering.
"We were betrayed by a little devil who infiltrated Nemus, followed us and ended up shooting arrows at Nimue. She and Galahad fell off the bridge, Merlin tried to save them, but we didn't have time because several of the paladins showed up and Merlin killed them but the whore Iris ran away," says the woman.
She is not the one who said there was one more nun, besides Morgana who needed to be revised.
It seemed that my heart was broken, I will never meet her and my son ever again, but I remember the words from my dream, come and find us, go to the streams and there you will find what you are looking for, follow your heart.
"They are not dead, I know, I dreamt that a beautiful woman and a newborn baby appeared and the woman said she had to find them in a stream near the rabbit bridge". I tell them
"Don't play with me, boy, I saw with my own eyes my daughter being shot in the chest by two arrows and she and my grandson fell from a very big height," says Merlin.
"Merlin I didn't tell you before so you wouldn't have hope, but I don't feel that Nimue or Galahad are dead, the powers that the widow gave me say that Nimue is going through a change," says Morgana.
Who this widow is and how she feels about the dead.
"Why didn't you say so before?" he shouts to her.
"The Hidden ones don't give me their location, but they tell me that only a man of the ashes has the power to find them," she says.
I realize that I am the man of the ashes and I am the only one who can find my soul mate. I opened my mouth to speak, but I was cut by Percival.
" But the rest of Fey, and Aunt Pym and Uncle Arthur, we heard that they were attacked by Cumber's troops," says the little one.
"Even though we had Uther's ships, Guinevere was worried and sent a message to her troops to follow them from Grammaire to the coast of Beggar because she thought Uther could have betrayed his side of the treaty, but they were attacked by the troops of the pirate king and her troops helped the Feys to survive. We found them on the coast of the Beggar and decided that we needed a new place to stay and start again the resistance against Uther, Cumber and the Church, so Merlin rebuilt Graymalkin Castle and they are there creating our new refuge. I felt the presence of Squirrel and I warned Merlin and we came to find him and take him to the castle," explains Morgana.
"We must separate, Morgana, you take them to the castle and tell them what happened, that Queen Fey is alive I think it would be good to create a rumor that the Crying Monk no longer exists. Say he was killed by the hands of the Queen," says Merlin. He looks at me "Boy, I'll disguise you so that they don't discover that you are the Crying Monk who is dead" and he makes a magic that hides the cross that for fifteen years in my hairy choir, a huge relief passes through my body, finally I don't need to have this memory in my life. "Take Layla to the medical wing to see if everything is okay with the baby, yes Layla I can feel that you have a baby in your womb". My sister is pregnant and came to challenge me, I could have killed her and the baby if I didn't have the flashback of when we were kids.
"Layla, why didn't you tell me you were pregnant?" I ask her.
"I didn't want to worry you, you just found out I was alive and started accepting that I was Fey, and a few minutes ago you found out you had a baby," she says crying in the arms of her soul mate.
"All right, sister, I can congratulate you both," I say by going to Gawain and shaking hands and kissing Layla on the forehead.
"You my dear grandson is going back to the camp with them, without any more dangerous adventures for you, you and your mother are already leaving me with white hair," says the wizard to the boy.
"But Grandpa, Uncle Gawain made me a knight," he mumbles with a groan.
I opened a little smile seeing the boy's expression, but soon I swallowed, because the wizard faced me and spoke.
"You and I are going to save my daughter," says the wizard pointing to me. "I want to have a very serious conversation with my daughter's soul mate.
I swallow dry, afraid of what the most powerful wizard in the world could do to me.
"Come on, there's a long way to go," he says.
I go to the little one and deliver him to Goliath: "Take good care of him, he needs a brave knight, but I believe that before that, you have to apologize to him, you called him ugly". I do.
"I'm sorry Mr. Goliath, I was trying to make this ridiculous release me, but it's not your fault, you were a poor wretch who had to follow his orders, you're much prettier than him," says the brat. Caressing Goliath, as if he understood what the boy said, the horse raised his neck to continue being caressed.
"Traitor" I say to the horse and he snorts, the boy looks at me and shows me his tongue and I go to him and he hugs me and all that family connection I feel for him comes and warms my being.
"Daddy, go and save mommy and my little brother", he whispers to me. Without the courage to answer him, I nod yes.
And we follow different paths.