Damon and I were on our way to Mystic Falls where I haven't been back since being turned, with me listening to my music from my Ipod with my earbuds in as I was currently not speaking to my older brother for bringing me along on this stupid trip, refusing to leave me behind and allow me to compel another childless couple as my parents for me to stay with like I would usually do when Damon would go to visit Stefan; saying this wasn't a normal visit to just torment Stefan again and he couldn't just leave me alone when he was going to be gone longer than just the average month.
I was real nervous about going home though it wasn't exactly my choice so I didn't really get a say as Damon forced me to come with him when I didn't want to, and had to literally carry me out to the car kicking and screaming, saying that nine was too young to stay by myself and refusing to give in, despite the tantrum that I had thrown before we left.
That usually gets him to give me my way, knowing he hated when I was distressed, but wouldn't budge so I wasn't exactly thrilled to be seeing Stefan even if Damon says I don't have to see him; and he deserves a lot worse than what Damon has done to him, even if my brother doesn't know what he did.
I know that the only reason that Damon is even coming back home now is because of Katherine and that girl that looks just like Katherine and hate the girl just for looking like that bitch, who Damon says I can torture if I wish to get some of my anger of Katherine out on her and makes it so much easier knowing that Stefan is real interested in her as we have been watching him for the last month while my brother and I had stayed hidden beyond Mystic Falls.
Damon did have me placed in the elementary school as a third grader this year so I can start in the same school with Stefan as they share the same building because of some kind of renovations with the elementary school and had to share a building for the next year though doubt he would even recognize me, as well as being in the same class as the doppelganger's kid sister so we could find out more about her.
Though I have never mentioned anything to Damon in the past, not wanting to upset him, I always wanted to have the child experience which is probably why I always compel a childless couple to be my parents when Damon would visit Stefan in the past even if it was just for a little while, wanting to pretend to have parents that care what I do.
I wanted to see how much they would actually let me get away with by testing my limits with my foster parents as I call them while I played house with them, seeing how far I could go with them and what they would do as parents, knowing I could always stop them by compelling if I choose, mostly letting them as I chose to play the child with two parents and if I wanted to play the child, I should have the treatment of one which is something I never got with my own father.
Most of the time, they would just pull me over their knee, but I never let it get far enough for them to actually spank me as Damon is the only one that is actually allowed to spank me which he hasn't done since 1932, or they would have me stand in a corner for a time-out that turned out to be real boring, and I don't know why I let them put me over their knee when I know I was never going to follow through with letting them spank me, maybe because Damon hasn't really been there for me and wanted some attention.
Though Damon doesn't exactly know how I had behaved with all those couple's while he is away or what I did when he had gone missing for those five years, who probably would turn me over his knee for a good spanking himself, if he really knew what I did that Damon would make sure I would feel, but Lexi knows and surprised she hasn't told on me, though doesn't mean she won't.
I felt a slight pull on my side braid as my brother has been trying to get my attention for the last hundred miles and I have just been deliberately ignoring him and if there is one thing about Damon is that he hates being ignored, but I wasn't just upset about not getting my way, this was more about me not wanting to see Stefan, especially since Damon didn't know everything about what happened between us, and not sure how exactly to tell him as I know this would surely set him off.
I know I am not ready to quite face Stefan and see him again after all these years after what he did to me who has yet to feel any guilt or remorse in his part that he played in what happened to me and can't even give me a damn apology, making me completely vulnerable when I was around him and I just know that he is going to try and take advantage of my vulnerability.
It also isn't helping that Dami is planning on opening the tomb once the comet passes over Mystic Falls to get Katherine while I would rather have that bitch rot, bringing up some of my old abandonment issues that I sometimes have, though my brother says I have nothing to worry about as he promises he will never leave me behind because I was always going to be his baby.
"Ally baby, I know you are angry and upset with me right now for making you come back home, but I just couldn't leave you for months on your own at a time without any adult supervision, you are only nine years old and it is probably for the best," Damon said to me, knowing my older brother just wanted me to make amends with Stefan.
While I know it was childish, I just wasn't in the mood to be forgiving and he doesn't even have the nerve to apologize for not protecting me from our father all those years ago, for how he has treated me though I was trying my best to ignore him for now even though I knew that I couldn't stay mad at him for long as he never gives in as that is the kind of brother he is, giving him a glare.
"I told you that I don't want to see him and I don't want to see him. I hate him for what he has done to me and he can't even apologize for not protecting me from our father all those years ago, for how he has treated me and has never once thought to ask about me so why would I want to see him and the only reason you even want to come back home to begin with is for that bitch Katherine or did you forget that she had compelled you to forget about me or do you just not care so you are obviously just going back to get her and are just going to leave me behind for her again ," I said to him, getting upset and pouting at him for forcing me to come along with him as I never did get over what happened with Katherine 145 years ago and almost stopped when I saw how stressed he was from me being so difficult.
"Torta cutie, I promise you sweetheart that I am not just going to leave you behind for Katherine again and trust me when I say that I do care that she compelled me to forget all about my sweet little torta cutie that I would die for, loving you more than my own life, all those years ago and I do intend to find out exactly why she did that, but as much as I love Katherine, she needs to respect you as my little sister and that you will always come first.
If she can't accept you than it will just be you and me like it has always been, I promise you and what can I do for my little cutie pie to have her not be so angry with me anymore, you know how I hate it when your upset and pouty with me? Also, watch your mouth," he said, using his special nickname for me and brushing some hair out of my face with one arm while driving with the other as it made me feel better knowing he would give up Katherine for me if he had to and knew I already forgave him and asked the only thing I know that I wanted from him.
"Buy me some ice cream, il mio grande fratello preferito and I promise to forgive you, just promise me that I don't have to see Stefy yet, not until I am ready to show myself, I want to surprise him and catch him off guard and come out when he least expects it," I asked, giving him my famous puppy eyes that I know he couldn't resist and hearing him chuckle.
I knew that I won him over as he knows my love for ice cream, but hardly lets me have it as much as I would want as all that sugar gets me hyperactive, only allowing me to have some occasionally which is one of the few things he is actually quite firm with me about, but ice cream was something that I love more than anything, just wish he allowed me to have it more often.
"Deal. I'll get you some ice cream and you don't have to see Stef right away and promise that I won't make you, in return that you forgive me, but you have to have your daily blood before any ice cream and I also want you to eat something first than you can have whatever kind of ice cream you want, cutie pie and your not just saying that so you can get some ice cream," he said as I laid my head down on his lap while he drove, giggling as he tickled my side and content just laying on him as I put my thumb in my mouth, a habit I had picked up after I was turned and Damon couldn't get me off it so just lets me suck it, believing I will stop on my own though only really suck my thumb when I am in bed or distressed.
We had just passed the border of Mystic Falls and could feel my nerves and uneasiness already coming up on me as I continued to lay my head down on Damon's lap with my thumb in my mouth, pretending to be asleep though I doubt he believes I am actually asleep and could probably sense my nerves, clinging to his leg and curling up into a ball as I remembered the last time I was in Mystic Falls.
I felt a comforting hand on my back, making me jump back in fear as I had not realized I was shaking on Damon's lap."It's ok, cutie pie. There is nothing to be scared of, I'm not going to let anything happen to you and I promise you, sorellina, that I won't let Stefan hurt you again or let anyone take you away from me because you are my baby and no one can ever keep my baby away from me, not even Katherine herself.
This trip isn't just about tormenting Stefan or getting Katherine out of the tomb, it's time for you to have a fresh start with this place and just see Mystic Falls as your home again; I hate that you have always seen the place where you had grown up as something bad, this is our home and it's time to see this place as our home again," Damon said to me, trying to comfort me.
I slid in closer to my older brother and clung to him, needing the physical contact for comfort, terrified of being in Mystic Falls as bad things always seem to happen to me here, despite Damon wanting me to not just see this place as something bad, but even when we were human and living here, I never had many happy memories while living in this dreadful town and all I ever remember of Mystic Falls is that this is the place where I lost my innocence and childhood forever, "Promise," I asked Damon in my small voice, as he let me cling even closer to him, knowing it was what I needed right now and Damon never minds when I need him.
"You have nothing to worry about, my little cutie pie, nothing is going to happen to you in Mystic Falls, not while I am around and will take down the whole damn town myself if it means you will feel safer," he said while running his hands through my hair again as Damon always loves playing with it, saying it is his most favorite thing in the world to do, but though I trust my brother to keep me safe, how can he protect me from the memories that come with this place.
Damon wasn't taking me to the boarding house as promised because I wasn't quite ready to see Stefan and he was trying not to push me too much on that which I was actually grateful for as Damon was compelling a nice childless couple for me to live with while my brother was busy torturing Stefan though I wasn't allowed to choose them this time so who knows what he was going to compel them to do which always annoyed me when I didn't know what he compelled, but I know Damon would never allow them to hurt me as he would kill anyone who dared try to hurt me.
Anxiety came through me as we went through town and felt myself grabbing my favorite older brother's free hand, needing his comfort, "It's all right, cutie pie, I am not going to let anything hurt you, not even Stefan. I promise you that nothing will happen and will destroy anything or anyone that dares to even think about hurting my little torta cutie," Damon repeated, calling me by my special Italian nickname that he gave me as Dami went into his big brother mode and wrapped his one arm tightly around me, comforting me as I wasn't quite ready to see Stefan yet and glad Damon wasn't trying to push him on me yet because I don't think I could handle seeing him just yet.
I knew that we were going to be in Mystic Falls for quite a while and though I knew Stefan has been in Mystic Falls since the beginning of summer, he doesn't exactly know that Damon has been around or that this time, my favorite fratello has brought me with him and just in time for the comet, but I am not allowed to talk about that or he says I'll be in big trouble.
Damon has told me that though I may know why he has come back home to Mystic Falls, he doesn't want Stefan or anyone else to know what he is up to as Damon doesn't trust Stefan to not try to stop him, but has trusted me with all his secrets even when I was little as I have always been loyal to him and I know that Stefan has always hated that about me, resenting me for it while I always loved throwing it in his face.
"Dami, are you even sure that she is even in the tomb because I doubt she is actually in there, fratello, I mean she isn't dumb and doubt she is stupid enough to get caught even with the vervain," I said, curiously as I never really brought up the idea of that bitch not being in the tomb before even though I had expressed concerns, but also curious of what he thought as well
"Alexandra Marie, do you know something that I don't because if you do know something, then you need to tell me or you will be in big trouble," Damon told me sternly as he said my full name for the first time in almost 146 years and I think that was the first time that he has really gone into parental brother mode with me since we had been turned into vampires, not since I was seven and it was oddly comforting, but I didn't really have any proof that Katherine wasn't in that tomb, I just had my doubts about it and Damon has always encouraged me to speak my mind, even if he didn't really agree with my opinions or like what I had to say.
"No Dami, I don't know anything. I just don't think she is in the tomb and I have told you this before. Katherine isn't exactly stupid and wasn't a new vampire either so she knew how to clean up after herself, so obviously she must have had a plan on how to escape and you and Stef couldn't have been the only ones under her compulsion, and just because you saw her get dragged into the church, it doesn't mean she was dragged into the tomb.
I don't really have proof, Dami, it's just a feeling I have that she is out there, though she probably would have killed me by now if that was the case," I said, meaning the last part as a joke as it was only going to start another argument on how Katherine doesn't want me dead and making me feel that he wasn't even on my side.
"Alexandra Marie, how many times do I need to say this, she isn't going to kill you, sorellina and besides, do you really think that I would let her kill you? I would rather stake the love of my life before I would let her kill my little torta cutie and I know you have doubts, but don't worry, she is in the tomb," Dami said, sternly though his words left me very little comfort, it was flattering to know that he would kill his love before he would let her kill me.
I stayed silent, trying to enjoy the chocolate ice cream that Damon had got for me one town over as promised and wanting more than anything to just ask him to turn the car around with not really being quite ready to face my past and though I would never admit it to Damon, afraid he would just tease me for it, I was also scared of facing my dark past and I don't mean Stefan either, but going back to the place where my father did the unthinkable is more frightening than anything.
We passed the Salvatore Boarding house as Damon didn't want anyone knowing we were in town yet, especially Stefan, wanting to make a surprise entrance though he probably isn't expecting me to show up with Damon as I have avoided him for the last 145 years so we were staying out of town for a while to keep a low profile and stay off the grid as I was going to be attending school as a second grader so that I could blend in, playing the part of a girl that lost her parents in a car accident and was living in the custody of my loving older brother though those were more Damon's words than my own and Dami sure loves to embellish things, but that is just Damon for you and I so love that about him as he always has to make life entertaining for us.
Torta Cutie: Cutie Pie
Il Mio Grande Fratello Preferito: My Favorite Big Brother
Sorellina: Little Sister
Fratello: Brother