School just ended, but Damon was actually running late though he was probably just waiting to make sure he wasn't seen by Stefan more than anything, but I know Dami and knew if I needed him, he would risk showing himself to Stefan and ruining the plan to come to my aide; that is the kind of brother he is, I just wish he would show more of himself to others.
I don't understand why Stefan claims that Dami was such a monster, he just doesn't know how big his heart actually is and despite Damon claiming that he hates Stefan and only wants to make his life miserable which is why he is always showing up around him, I know he doesn't hate Stefan and is just being a big brother and wanting to check up on him, even though Stefan doesn't see that way.
I know deep down that Damon was only hurt by Stefan's actions at trusting our father, which I would have rather taken my chances with the vampires, when we had been human and if that wasn't enough, he used me, his little sister to force his own brother to turn, knowing Damon would never leave me and that was one of the reasons I don't want to see him, especially when he has yet to show any remorse to what he had done.
I wanted nothing more than to tell Dami exactly how I really feel about Stefan and tell him about every pain that had been inflicted to me because of him, but I know he would only blame himself when there was nothing he could of done to stop it, but that wouldn't stop him.
I kept myself hidden as Stefan disappeared, noticing that he was following that doppelganger bitch which wasn't at all creepy and obvious that he was following her as the bitch left her eight year old sister stranded, some sister, she was as bad as Stefan was to me, if not worse, when we had still been human.
I'm sure Damon wouldn't mind giving her a ride to her house, especially if I asked him to and he is sure going to love all the information I got about the doppelganger, not even needing Jessica, I could see it through my own eyes and not sure how happy he was going to be when he learns I got into her face and risked getting seen by Stefan, but I am sure he will gladly tell me.
"Are you sure that your brother won't mind you volunteering him to give me a ride home. I don't mind walking, I really don't. Besides if I was to ever volunteer either of my siblings for anything, even as simple as for getting a lift home, they most likely would leave me stranded just for kicks. Of course, I always got in trouble for being late and Mom never believed me," Jessica said, sadly, making me feel lucky that I had Damon.
I never realized how I took Damon for granted until she said that, because he didn't have to take care of me after Mother died and could of just let Father dump me on the maid, but he cared enough to not only to care of me, but raise me, something my Father didn't care to do and even after all these years, he has never left my side.
I never knew anything else and always just expected him to just do it and be there, not realizing that he could of easily given me up and left me aside when we became vampires, but he never did and not sure how I would have survived if he had.
Unlike me, Jessica doesn't really have anyone that was ever supportive of her and probably was the only one that has ever took the time to listen to her as she says that not even her own family was supportive with her, not like they were with the older sister; her sister was a bitch.
Though she still was not the only one with serious family issues, I still had unresolved issues with Stefan, some that not even Dami knows about, but not like I see Stefan telling him anytime soon, not unless he wants to keep all his limbs in place as that is exactly what will happen if he starts talking.
I glance at her sadly, wanting more than anything to ignore my own feelings, wishing I could just shut them up and take the easy way out, but Damon would kill me if I did, "He won't care and should be here soon. He takes pride in being fashionably late," I said, using the phrase Damon says, still funny even now and still did not understand it.
In many ways, he was worse than a girl when it came to being on time, not like I would ever say that to his face or anything because then he would want to kill me, in a brotherly way, but I swear not even a teenage girl takes that long in a mirror and was way too obsessed with his hair, it just wasn't healthy, but did find it amusing.
Not even a second later, I caught a glimpse of the blue Camaro cruising up the school, narrowly missing students all around him, skidding to a halt right next to where I was sitting with Jessica on the curb as we waited for him; I am surprised our teacher allowed us to wait outside instead of making us wait inside, though probably because we just left without telling her.
"Hey little cutie pie. Who's your friend," he said, though he knew exactly who this was, seeing as I had texted him earlier, telling him she needed a ride and was only just saying that for her benefit, so kept up with his little act for his sake, not wanting to scare her.
"This is Jessica Gilbert. Her sister ditched her, I told her we can give her a ride. Jess, this is my amorevole big brother Damon," I said, introducing my older brother and can already see the smirk forming on his face while I noticed Jessica waiting for my brother to be upset to me volunteering him to drive her home, but he could care no less as this wouldn't be the first time I volunteered him for carpool and if he wasn't upset back then, I doubt he will be upset now.
Vampire or not, despite what Stefan may claim, my brother was not heartless and even if I hadn't volunteered him, he would have taken her home because there was one line that he refuses to cross and children were it and though he doesn't realize I know, he has a soft spot for them and would never leave a young child stranded if he could help it.
"Not a problem, torta cutie. Nice to meet you, Jessica. So glad to see my sorellina making friends. Hop in and we can get out of here, unless you want to stay at school. I'm sure I can arrange for one of the teachers to stay and give you more work," he teased, lifting her mood up, making her laugh; that was Damon for you, he always knew how to get you to laugh, and that was one of the reasons I loved him so much.
I pulled Jessica along with me, sliding in the middle so that she sit up front with me before he made us get in the back, practically jumping on my brother's lap though he could care less and even pulled me closer as I noticed how relaxed he felt; I guess I wasn't the only one that was suffering from some separation anxiety while I had been in school.
"So ragazze, how was your day of learning," Dami said, with a mischievous smirk that I knew so well across his face as he tried to make conversation, acting like the perfect brother though in my mind he was, he just didn't see it and I blame Stefan for that for causing him to doubt himself as a good brother, but I couldn't ask for a better brother if I tried.
"Same old. I already know half of what we are learning, thanks to my last school and the teacher won't move me up in the lesson because they don't want me ahead with the rest of class. That's stupid, if you ask me," I whined, knowing I just needed something to complain about, already being bored in class, expect for my photography class; I really enjoyed that one.
"Don't worry, cutie pie. Big brother will see what he can do about that," Dami told me though know that was more of a show for Jessica as he had discussed this with me last night, wanting me to experience being a third grader and couldn't risk putting me too much ahead in class as it may bring attention to Stefan if a third grader was taking high school level classes; besides, the whole point of attending school was to have me be a child for once.
"How about you, sweetheart? Did you have a good day," Damon said to Jessica, bringing her into the conversation and could see he was trying to make her feel welcome who looked uncomfortable being with us, but I don't blame her, we just met and she was probably scared of my brother, he was a stranger to her; I would feel the same way.
"It was alright, it just feels weird being back at school again. Everyone kept staring," she said quietly and knew she meant her parents as I notice too that all day, all everyone seemed to do was stare at her but never approached her and wondered where her friends were, don't kids have their own friends in school?
I could see compassion written all over his face because like I said, he has a soft spot for children, "Yeah, I heard about the accident this past summer. I'm sorry, honey and four months isn't exactly enough time to heal, especially for a young child. My siblings and I have lost our parents as well and not a day goes by that we don't think about them," he said and though that was true, it was mostly anger that I felt, but she didn't need to know that.
"Yeah, it was my birthday and they went to pick up my no good sister who ditched me for a party. Elena says they died because they couldn't stand to look at my face any longer, do you think that is true," she asked hurt and made me wish that I had actually punched the girl even if Damon got mad.
What kind of sister is this doppelganger that she will blame her sister for their parent's death and tell her something like that, and if that wasn't bad enough, they died on her birthday, so not only will her next birthday will have her turning nine, it will also always be a reminder that her parents died that day and doubt she will want to celebrate.
"No honey, don't let what your sister said get to you, she is just being a brat, a spoiled one at that. They had no way of knowing that they were going to get in a accident and doubt they would pick your birthday to do it either. They loved you, same as they loved your brother and sister, don't ever doubt that," Damon said, feeling him pull me close, knowing that like me, he was thinking about our own parents, but we had very little happy memories with them.
I don't have any memories of my mother as Father sent away not even a week after I was born, but do remember that Damon told me that they weren't real close, unlike Stefan who was definitely what you would call a Mama's boy as Damon claimed which was why Stefan hated me so to begin with, because he blamed me for being the cause of our mother getting sick, but Damon said that despite what Father and Stefan said, I wasn't the cause, she just had a weak immune system, but that still didn't stop them from blaming me, despite what Damon or even the doctor had told them.
I know that I had been three when she died and that Damon didn't want me attending as he thought that experience would had been too upsetting for me though I personally think that he was just using me to get out of going himself, something he deeply regretted; he was supposed to give Mother's eulogy but backed out last minute.
"I know what we can do. How about we go have a little celebration for the first day of school. We can go to the grill, maybe play some pool. Do you have to be at home anytime soon or would you like to come with Ally and me to the grill, I know she will want an ice cream. We can call your Aunt if you want to let her know where you are, or maybe you can come out with us tomorrow. I doubt you girls are old enough for that back to school party" Damon asked as I perked up at the mention of being allowed ice cream.
I was curious to what he was playing at and I had no intention of attending some high school party anyway, especially when Stefan was going to be in attendance, though I highly doubt Damon would have allowed to me to go even if Stefan wasn't going to be there, he almost never allows me to attend parties with him when he goes, usually leaving me with a 'babysitter' while he is out.
I may have been alive for the last 145 years and technically being 154 years old, I was still a nine year old little child in Damon's eyes that needs to be looked after at all times and even if it benefited him, Dami would never allow me anywhere near such places, not allowing me to ever go anywhere on my own unless I had a 'babysitter'; I even still get bathed and have an 8:00 bedtime, no matter what is going on, but my brother hardly ever lets me get involved in vampire problems.
I watched as Jessica got real excited about being invited somewhere, making me think she was never invited anywhere, "I would love to and Aunt Jenna won't mind as long as I let her know," she said, as Damon passed her his cell phone and that was when it clicked to me what Damon was doing, he was trying to earn her trust, just like I was, but still no idea how how to act like a child, when I was never one before.
It was different with Jessica, then it was with Castria because at least she knew what I was, thanks to being a witch and didn't have to worry about lying to her about being human and knew that was going to be part of it and was going to have to do it as long as Damon has decided we were going to stay, knowing that I hated this town, though hated it more than he realized.
Sometimes I just wished that I was just a regular nine year old and all that I had to worry about was playing with dolls or whatever, instead of having to worry about all the lies I have to tell to keep our secret and having to keep Damon's secrets; I wish he would sometimes just treat me like a nine year old all the time and only tell me what I needed to know; it was like he wanted me to be a child and not be one at the same time.
Despite what Stefan or anyone says about him as they always claimed that Stefan was the one that would have married and had children while Damon would have remained forever a bachelor as that was what our Father would always tell everyone who would listen, Damon always wanted to marry and have children and even got close a few times, but Father always scared them off because he didn't approve, not caring how heartbroken Damon would be and leaving me to pick up the pieces.
I know that Damon always had a big heart, he just didn't let many people see his true self, not even Stefan knew, even when we were human as he was only that tough older brother who was the black sheep and a disappointment to Father, not the one that wanted love and a family of his own, and the only thing that stopped him from running away, was me; he would never leave me behind.
The first time Dami brought a woman home with plans to marry, I was four and when I first met her, I was jealous because to a four year old, all that I saw was she was taking Dami away from me and was leaving me here with the cruelty of Father and Stefan who wanted nothing to do with me.
I think it took him by surprise when I didn't take to her like he thought I would, especially when I started throwing fits and acting out as before she came for a visit, I was real well behaved and never acted out, at least not with him so it came to a shock to him when I started misbehaving for him when she was around.
It wasn't until after Father chased her away that I realized that Damon never intended to leave me behind while he got married and had always planned to take me with him, and she genuinely wanted to get to know me and not just because of my brother and he would have found a happy ending, if Father hadn't taken it away from him as she didn't meet his standards.
I listened as Jessica spoke to her Aunt on the phone, pretending like I couldn't actually hear what they were saying, already knowing that her Aunt was fine with her coming with us to this Mystic Grill that everyone seems to talk about, it was apparently a very popular hangout spot and also the only place in town where you could actually get something to eat; it seemed boring and would rather go to the park.
I wasn't really impressed by this Mystic Grill when we pulled up, it just looked like some rundown building and wasn't sure how it was still doing business with how beat up it was, and could see Damon wasn't exactly impressed too, and it was no wonder that we hated small towns, there was really nothing to do, they don't even have a movie theater; it was like they live in their own little world with no knowledge of reality, even I wasn't that naive.
Jessica was real excited and apparently hasn't been to an outing in a while, so humored her to spare her feelings of my distaste of some rundown bar that the older kids hang out at, pulling me over to a pool table, "Have you ever played before," she asked, seeing Damon getting drinks for us.
"Damon taught me how to play when I was younger, but it has been a while since we last played," I told her, which was because I haven't played since the 1950's and that was when movie theaters started becoming popular, and not sure how I was going to survive with knowing that the closest theater was at least an hour away, what town doesn't have a movie theater, it was like living in the dark ages!
"Yeah, I know pool isn't the most fun game, but it really is all that we have in this town. What I would give for a bowling alley or a roller skating rink, but sadly there is no money in the budget for such luxuries which is probably why the Mayor is always throwing so many town events," Jessica said, handing me a stick that was bigger than both of us; I hate being little at times, we couldn't even reach the pool table!
"I would kill for a movie theater and hating that Damon made us move home, I am kind of obsessed with going to the movies and it sucks that the only way I will get to go is have Damon drive me an hour away to get there, no way he is going to waste that much gas because of my hobby," I said sadly, already saying goodbye to my movie days, or at least until Damon decides we can move on again.
"It is true that we don't have an actual theater, but we have a mall that happens to have small theater inside and it is only twenty minutes away. It's small and not so popular as most go out of town to see movies, so it mostly used by the younger kids. We should go since we aren't allowed to attend the party, it's for big kids only. I wish we had one for the little kids," she said which I agreed with, wishing we could have one to, but a movie seems like a good idea.
I found myself getting excited about going to a movie and knew Damon wouldn't mind as long as I had a 'babysitter' with me, he never minds as long as I let him know what I am up to or leave a note for him to find, something I learned early to do, knowing it would only freak my brother out like I used to do when I had been a real small child and would wander in the woods on my own, something he didn't appreciate back then and not sure he appreciate it now.
"So what are you girls talking about over here. I hope it isn't boys, there will be no boys allowed" Damon said, jokingly and partially serious while we ewed at the thought and wonder if he realize he was talking to third graders that had no interest in boys and thanks to being turned so young, boys were disgusting in my eyes, with the exception of my older brother.
"I wasn't sure what you liked, so I got you the same as Ally bear, she loves chocolate and sprinkles, I hope that is alright," Damon said, handing Jessica her ice cream as she smiled at my brother who was being nothing but kind to her; her brother and sister must not show her any kindness, that is sad.
"Thanks, I love chocolate and sprinkles, it's my favorite. My evil sister is dull and will eat plain strawberry, she hates any kind of chocolate there is, sometimes I wonder how we are even related," she stated bluntly while I shared a look with my brother as we wondered how the doppelganger was a Gilbert when Katherine was a Pierce and I wonder if it was possibly if Katherine had a child that she gave up because there is no other way to explain it otherwise though Damon is convinced she was the last of her bloodline, I wasn't so sure.
The more I learned about this girl and how she treated Jessica, the more I hated her even more and it was no wonder that Stefan was so drawn to her, she was just like him, a spoiled brat that everything was handed to, while Damon and I had barely gotten his scraps, but she was definitely a descendant of Katherine, but how she was related to her, was a mystery, one I plan to solve, whether Damon decides to help me or not.
Amorevole: Loving
Ragazze: Girls
Torta Cutie: Cutie Pie
Sorellina: Little Sister