"It's not very strong yet," Kellie said, "I'm not sure you can feel her…or him…"
"That's okay," Jason said, "I'm just happy to share this with you."
Kellie buried her head in Jason's chest.
"What is it?" Jason asked, tipping Kellie's head back up to look at her.
"It's nothing," Kellie said, her tears falling again, "Just hormones even though I told this little one that the emotional mood swings were off limits."
Jason continued with Kellie towards the kitchen.
"When you felt the baby move outside Charlies this afternoon," Jason said, "You mentioned something about it making the pregnancy seem more real to you. Would it be a safe assumption that you're still struggling with the idea of having baby?"
"Yeah," Kellie grimace, "I feel awful about that and umm…you know what never mind….You bought flowers?"
Kellie was distracted by the breakfast table being very simply set with two place settings and a vase of flowers filled with pink, white, and orange Gerber daisies and carnations.
"Should I be worried between the milkshake and fries…"" Kellie asked as Jason pulled a chair out for her.
"I just wanted to make tonight special for you," Jason said as Kellie sat down. Jason knelt down to look at Kellie, "We've been dealing with a lot and we really haven't had time for just the two of us. Carly reminded me that I still have to remember to make you feel special. But if you don't like the flowers…"
"No, I love them," Kellie said, "They're perfect. You even got the colors right. The sunset looking effect."
"I had some help," Jason said.
"Carly," Kellie asked.
"Yes," Jason said, "She was actually trying to schedule a vacation for us otherwise. Which I am all for. But I think we need to figure that one out ourselves."
"I agree," Kellie said, "I'd like to go somewhere just us. I'd suggest the island but with the Zika virus warnings for pregnant woman down there."
"We'll figure it out," Jason said, standing up and getting the fries and burgers out of the oven.
"Is there anything I can help you with?" Kellie said.
"Just relax," Jason said, "Consider me your servant for the evening."
"That has lots of interesting possibilities," Kellie replied.
"I will happily let you explore that later," Jason said, putting a plate with fries and burger in front of Kellie.
After Kellie and Jason finished their meal and Jason was cleaning up the dishes, Kellie came up behind Jason and wrapped her arms around his waist.
"I think the rest of this can wait," Kellie said, kissing Jason's neck, "But I have a few ideas to explore with the whole idea of you being my servant for the rest of the night. Not mention I have my own surprise for you."
"You'll still have to wait," Jason said, turning around to face Kellie. He kissed her, "As much it kills me right now, I'm not quite done with what I had planned yet."
"You are starting to drive me insane tonight," Kellie said, kissing Jason, trying to convince him to change his mind.
"I promise afterwards, you can have your way with me for the rest of the night and however long into tomorrow," Jason replied, reluctantly, "I'll be in the family room in a few minutes. Just wait for me in there."
"You mean don't distract you," Kellie said, running her hands under Jason's shirt, "Just rinse the dishes and leave them in the sink for now."
"But if I don't finish them now," Jason said, "You'll try to beat me to doing them later."
"Leave them," Kellie said, trying to take Jason's shirt off.
Jason shook his head before carrying Kellie to the family room.
"Somedays I swear you'll be the death of me," Jason whispered in Kellie's ear. Jason sat on the couch while settling Kellie on his lap.
Kellie kissed Jason. A several moments of kissing, Jason stopped.
"We still need to finish our conversation from before dinner," Jason said, "The one I let you get distracted from when we came downstairs. About you struggling with being pregnant and something else."
"It's nothing," Kellie said.
"I don't think it's nothing,"Jason said, "I don't think it's good for you keep whatever you're feeling about the situation with Helena and being pregnant bottled up."
"I really don't want to have this conversation," Kellie said, "or admit to…"
"Admit to what?" Jason said, "Whatever it is, you can tell me. That way we can work through it together."
"I'm…" Kellie started to say and shook her head, tears threatening to fall, "This isn't fair to you."
"What don't you think is fair?" Jason asked.
"Part of me's angry," Kellie said, closing her eyes, "That Helena's plan worked and I am pregnant. I didn't want to have any more kids, Jason. I don't know what to do with that. But I don't want to be angry about it either."
"Kellie, there's no good reason I can think of that you can't or shouldn't be angry," Jason said, "Hell, I'm angry for you."
"Wait I thought you were like totally unrattled that I'm pregnant and happy with it," Kellie said.
"I love you and our child and I'm thrilled that she or he exists," Jason said, "That doesn't mean I'm not angry at the circumstances surrounding that and what Helena and those doctors did to you. I'm angry that they took away your choices about your body and they put your life at risk in the process. When Monica told me that you could actually be pregnant and the risks that were involved for you, between you possibly having an IUD and then how sick you already were, I was terrified I wouldn't get to you in time, that I'd lose you or you'd lose the baby."
"i almost lost it in the cabin, Jason," Kellie said, "When I realized that I was pregnant. I damn near panicked at the thought of losing another child in that place. Thank God, Obrecht was there to piss me off into getting out of there."
"And you're safe now," Jason said, "And you get to be angry or mad or upset about everything that's happened to between Helena and Garrett and maybe even Shiloh."
"But it seems," Kellie started to say.
"Just tell me this," Jason said, "Are you angry at our kid?"
"No," Kellie said, "It's not her fault. But I don't feel all the maternal connection with the baby or mom feelings. Charles said the best revenge I could have on Helena is to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy and our child. I don't even know how to start, particularly the being pregnant part."
"He's not wrong," Jason said, "As for how you feel about how you're connecting or bonding with our child, I think you're being too hard on yourself. I know that since we found out about the baby, your first priority is that she's taken care of. And you almost always refer to the baby as girl, any he references are an afterthought. You've got me doing that."
"I don't know why I automatically refer to her as a girl. But in my head I know there things I should be thinking about for her," Kellie said, "Like a nursery and the stuff she'll need, even maternity clothes at some point."
"We've got time," Jason said, "We've had other things on our minds. And she is completely safe inside you for the time being. All that other stuff, we'll get to when we need to. As for whatever you feel like hasn't clicked between you and baby, I wouldn't worry about it. I think that it'll just click when you're not thinking about it or expecting it. Doesn't matter if it's in the next few weeks or the first time you hold her."
"I hope it's before she's born," Kellie said.
"It'll happen," Jason said, "Your little comments like that are how I know."
Jason kissed Kellie. She was distracted enough not to notice Jason slip one arm to the side and open the side table drawer. He pulled out a jewelry box. As the kissing between them continued, Jason got distracted and almost set the jewelry box down on the table.
"Wait," Kellie said, moving slightly away from Jason, "I had my own plans for us tonight..."
"Hold on," Jason said, bringing the jewelry box where Kellie could see it, "I have something for you."
"Jewelry?" Kellie asked as Jason opened the box to reveal an Amethyst teardrop necklace with diamonds that complimented Kellie's wedding bands, "That is gorgeous. But I don't understand."
"We got married before we figured our relationship and where we headed," Jason said as Kellie a little stunned, "or if we want the marriage to be forever and more than just for your protection. Our marriage has been real in all the ways that matter to me for awhile now. I'm hoping that you feel the same way."
Jason took the necklace out of the box and set the box to the side.
"I love you, Kellie," Jason said, "and our life together. I want you to know I want to be your husband in every sense of the word, including committing our lives together. I guess what I'm asking is if you'll be my wife for the rest of our lives?"
"Yes," Kellie blurted out, still in shock and mostly speechless, "I'd love that more than anything. I don't even what else to say right now."
"There isn't anything else you have to say. You said 'Yes' and that's most important part," Jason said, repositioning Kellie slightly, turning her so he could put the necklace on her, "Since we already have wedding bands, I thought the necklace was that something could represent this moment, this commitment. Unless you think you need to have a vow renewal. We can do that too."
"No," Kellie said as Jason finished clasping the necklace around her neck, "This is perfect. I don't need a second ceremony. I just need you."
Kellie kissed Jason, "You don't have more reasons to delay or distract me do you, husband."
"No," Jason said, pulling Kellie tight against him.
Before Kellie could think about what she originally had planned for Jason, she was distracted by the kisses he placed down her neck and the feel of his hands on her. The next thing she knew they were completely lost in each other for the rest of the night.