I've somewhat dreaded this. It's a given and, frankly, I wondered if I should have tried to spare her from this. Of course, we have to provide for Ryuuko and bills are starting to mount. What forced this, especially, was the fact that my hours at my work were cut back and Aikurou can only help so much, thus Nui will have to pick up the slack. If I had any other choice, she wouldn't have to but we all knew this was to come.
She's submitted applications and, just recently, she was called for an interview in the upcoming two months. I went through a few motions with her, along with lamenting that she had to do this. Ryuuko, however, remained oblivious to what was going on but she did grasp that Nui might not be at home when either of us would be. Hopefully, her future employers won't make her work long hours to meet demands.
Quietly, I wonder if I should find someone wealthy and get married just to secure a constitutable future. Of course, while I had the thought, I would find that to be far worse in comparison, as I'd probably be selling ourselves to a long life of misery. Likewise, I figured that the idea would make little sense as we don't live in any sort of dark or primitive ages where marrying into money was the thing that everyone did. For the longest, Ryuuko was the sacrifice for someone's rage but, honestly, I wish I could be the sacrifice to give Nui a much better life. I suppose life was cruel to me because I couldn't, so I hadn't the choice but allow her to surrender herself.
Two months came and went, leaving Nui to leave for her interview the first thing in the morning, while Ryuuko waved goodbye before I carted her off to school. I could, subtly, feel my heart start to crack and thought, I'm so sorry, Nui, please forgive me.