Chapter 10: Saving Grace

I kept my distance from the Winchesters the last few weeks feeling like after our last encounter it was for the best. It wasn't that I wanted to avoid them it was more I didn't want to be near Castiel after what he said and I hated myself for it. I was a demon, a soul broken and deranged from Hell that didn't have feelings and he was an angel of the lord a devoted son to God.

I spent my time just trying to get myself straight again, but that, of course, all changed when I was summoned once more by the Winchesters.

They were looking around the hotel room until I said quietly, "Hello boys."

Dean was the first to see me coming up beside me saying, "Where the Hell have you been? You just run off after Famine was taken out."

My eyes narrowed towards him saying, "I'm so sorry I wasn't aware I was bond to be there always."

"Evelyn, are you okay?" Sam asked seeing the worry in his face making my fist tighten for a moment saying, "Yes Sammy boy I'm just peachy now why have you summoned me oh Winchesters."

"To talk." I heard behind me feeling my body tense up hearing the gravel of Castiel's voice.

I felt him walk past me beside Dean and Sam feeling my hairs stand on end saying, "What do you want to talk about?"

"We died and went to Heaven and when we were there we learned something interesting." Dean said seeing the hardness on his face making my hand twitch saying, "What did you find?"

Sam looked almost sad turning his attention to me saying, "Your daughter's Heaven."

Sam Flashback

Dean and I were running from the angels going through different doors until we made it to an old-style house as if we went back in time. It was quiet for a moment until we heard soft humming coming from upstairs following the voice hearing a baby coo.

Walking up the stairs we saw a woman dressed in old fashion clothes, she had long flowing golden honey hair with awe-striking crystal blue eyes. She was holding the baby softly in a rocking chair humming to her with a smile on her face.

"Excuse me…" I said taking a step towards her but she seemed to not hear me as the baby turned its eyes to my voice.

"She can't hear you, she's just a hallucination for the baby." We heard behind us seeing Zachariah standing there while Dean and I got defensive.

"You saying this is that baby's heaven?" Dean asked confused seeing him nod replying, "Oh yes, she was baptized so naturally this is where she went but of course she's stuck as a baby since that's when she was killed."

"Shouldn't her father be here?" I asked confused while he shook his head saying, "Nah he wasn't as important to the baby plus he's rotting in hell, where his whore wife should be too since she killed her."

I felt my heartstrings being tugged looking down at the bundle in the woman's arms frowning saying, "Why are we in here."

Zachariah laughed saying, "Oh just a reminder of who you have your loyalties too is all."

"I've never seen this chick before." Dean said pointing to her while he laughed saying, "Oh Dean but you have, maybe not like this her meat suit is a bit more new age."

I began actually listening to what the woman was humming as I felt my body tense up saying, "Dean… that's Evelyn."

Evelyn

"Grace…" I said softly as Dean's eyes became hard saying, "You killed your daughter and your husband why?"

I felt my fist begin to shake as my eyes went black causing Dean and Sam to both fly to the wall stuck seeing Castiel begin to walk towards me but stop for a moment saying, "What happened?"

I felt tears threaten to fall feeling my body shake as I stared at the boys seeing anger on their face replying, "Fine you want to know about me then I'll talk."

"My name really was Evelyn and I was married to a man named Thomas, we met young and you could say he swept me off my feet. We were both church-going folks, that age most were, the kind of people that pray every day and believe God always has a plan for us and is always met with good intentions." I began looking over at the boys suddenly feeling sadness overwhelm me.

"All I ever wanted was to be a mother, I prayed every day to God begging him to show me mercy but my prayers were met with death and blood. I had miscarriage after miscarriage every one more painful than the next. One of the last ones died early on but I had to carry him to term because my body couldn't handle another being cut out of me." I said seeing the sadness pass over their eyes making me laugh sadly, "My husband, of course, blamed it all on me, he would beat me, rape me, anything he could do to get me pregnant again. He always said it was the whiskey that made him angry but after so much death we both felt the bitterness growing in our hearts. I became desperate, knowing I couldn't escape my husband's wrath since he was a liked man in our town."

I began pacing saying, "That's when I heard tales about a crossroad demon, now being a woman of God I felt very against it at first but I was desperate and God clearly had been ignoring my prayers for a long time. When he came I was more surprised than anything, how one little prayer to a demon did more than God ever could."

"Getting only 10 years out of life was worth that?" Sam said surprised making me smile stopping replying, "Getting even a year with a child would have been worth it knowing they were alive and happy."

"After a few weeks we found out I was indeed pregnant, everyone called it a miracle when she was born, Grace the angel that came from Heaven. After she was born I began to find a way for her and me to leave my husband, I feared for our lives and I didn't want to die knowing she was stuck with a monster like him." I said stopping for a moment feeling my body shake harder as I swallowed hard, "One night I left to give money to a fisherman who would take us far away, where we could start a new, I made my way home seeing a light still on and my husband with Grace in his arms."

I felt my tears begin to fall despite myself, "He was crying as I saw the empty whiskey bottle at his feet taking a step farther seeing my baby Grace wasn't moving anymore. He said he couldn't live without us and if that meant taking her away he'd rather her die, he suffocated my Grace as she slept."

I saw the horror pass through all their eyes feeling my body get angry as my eyes turned black, "I didn't think twice, I took his shotgun and blew his brains out taking my lifeless child in my arms as I wept for what felt like hours. Despite the deal I prayed to God to give me another chance to make this right, to bring her back to me but I was met with emptiness deciding that God was dead. I hanged myself having nothing left, I already damned my soul to hell and since I had nothing left I didn't see what the point of waiting any longer was."

I let go of my grip on them as they fell to the ground still not moving feeling Castiel come up beside me as he said, "Evelyn… I am sorry."

I laughed sarcastically looking at him with a dangerous look saying, "Sorry? I'm just a demon remember, I don't need pity from an angel of a lord who doesn't care."

The boys went to speak but I didn't give them a chance as I transported to a place far away from them too ashamed of myself to let them feel sorry for me. I decided to find a liquor store and drink the whole thing until I forgot it all again.