Chapter 20: Kill This Loneliness

Once we all caught our breath Balthazar escorted us all back inside as Castiel said, "You need to give back the weapons you stole from Heaven."

He laughed replying, "No I don't think I will."

"At least give that boy his soul back, it's not yours to take." I said seeing him smirk replying, "Bold coming from a demon."

"Bite me asshole." I said seething while he chuckled saying, "Maybe another time my dear."

"We settle this now." Sam said suddenly lighting a lighter watching him throw it seeing Balthazar was trapped around holy oil making him frown.

"Now you're going to give that kid his soul back." Dean said sternly seeing Balthazar sigh defeated snapping his fingers replying, "There, boys as good as new, you guys really underestimate how powerful even one soul can be."

He looked over at Castiel watching as he walked towards Balthazar breaking the circle saying simply, "Now we are even."

I watched Balthazar disappear as Castiel turned towards us seeing his eyes linger on me for a moment before saying, "I must report to my followers, if there are more weapons from heaven around we must find them."

"I can help Cassy." I said perking up while he nodded replying, "I will keep in touch."

He suddenly disappeared as I looked towards Sam and Dean saying, "If you guys need me please don't hesitate to ask, okay Deano?"

I saw Dean look towards me nodding as I smiled giving a peace sign before appearing again in the villa I'd been living in. Letting out a relaxed sigh I snapped my fingers as the fireplace lit itself grabbing myself some ice from the freezer to hold on the back of my neck wincing slightly.

"Are you alright?" I heard behind me turning quickly to see Castiel standing quietly making me smile replying, "I'll live, not every day you get tossed around by an Archangel."

He walked up towards me stopping right in front of me as I looked up into his dark blue eyes instantly getting lost in them. His arms wrapped around me as I relaxed into his touch wrapping my arms around his neck snuggling my head into his chest letting out a noise of comfort.

"I don't want you helping the Winchesters so much, Sam is not himself and I worry he will do something rash." Castiel said still holding onto me feeling his grip tighten for a moment making me pull away saying, "I can handle myself Cassy, plus I promised I would look out for them and I don't intend to stop."

He pulled away holding my shoulders staring at me intensely saying, "You could die."

I shrugged saying, "Maybe but I'll be doing what I feel is right, I'm tired of being left in the dark by Crowley or sitting around feeling like I'm useless."

I heard a defeated sigh leave his lips before he pressed a kiss onto my forehead closing my eyes missing his touch but he pulled away saying, "I must go."

Suddenly his touch and warmth were gone being left with nothingness making my head fall in defeat as I looked towards the vodka from earlier, yep everything is back the way it used to be.

I sat down staring at the fireplace for what felt like forever when I felt a sudden presence in the room saying, "So many visitors today, it must be my lucky day."

I didn't look up as he walked around to face me seeing Crowley give me his usual calm stare saying, "We have to talk."

"I'm all ears boss." I said taking a sip while he grabbed some scotch saying, "As you've obviously been aware Sam is out of the pit and Dean is back in the game."

"I may have become aware yea." I said sarcastically seeing his lip twitch before saying, "I have reason to believe they will try and kill me."

I laughed saying, "Man I was wondering when you'd piss them off."

"Yes well desperate times and all, I refused to give Bobby his soul back and being the king of Hell means I have a lot of enemies." He said while I replied, "I can handle the other demons boss, but please don't ask me to hurt the hardy boys."

His eyes stared into mine hearing him sigh saying, "You've grown fond of them, I'm not surprised really especially for that angel boy. I'm not naïve darling I can tell even when I'm buried deep inside of you."

I rolled my eyes turning away from him while he said, "Don't worry love I won't ask you to hurt them but be careful because if they pit you against me I won't back down."

I gave a ghost of a smile saying, "Yes you will, your forgetting I know you so well boss."

His hand reached for my hair hearing a defeated sigh escape his lips before taking a sip of the scotch replying, "We shall see love."