Chapter 05

What if people don't live forever? What if people leave behind unfinished business? It's hard to wrap our head around the idea of what happens next when we're gone. And it's absolutely sure that neither Lex nor Clark ever imagined that their unfinished business would put Kara and Lena under the same roof.

"Come in, come in, please"

Lena says as she brings in the little suitcase that Kara brought with her. The blonde doesn't have a lot of personal belongings. Contrary to Lena, she doesn't have dozens of shoes, or fancy clothes. Most of the things she has, they are things she got from Clarke & Lex.

Sadness spreads over her when Kara thinks about them. Because just like Lena, she blames herself for their death. They weren't supposed to be on the road so late, but they went out to get ice cream for Kara. The blonde had the cravings for it, and they wanted to please her appetit. Because of her, someone she cared deeply died again, that's what Kara tells to herself, and that's the torment she's having in her mind when the other woman brings her back to reality when she calls her name.

"Kara, please come in…"

The blonde blinks when she realizes that she hasn't moved at all. She's standing in the entrance of the penthouse while Lena is moving her suitcase into the guest room. How is that she's here in the first place? Kara wonders, and once again, she gets lost in her thoughts, recalling their conversation after the funeral…

"It was a nice funeral… I wasn't expecting so many people to come…"

A Luthor's funeral, filled with people who had nothing bad to say about the deceased person is nothing that Lena has ever experienced till now. In a way, it eases her pain to know that Lex was loved by someone else besides Clark.

"Yeah, they have lots of friends. The people around here loved them too. They all came, but…"

"But…?"

They stare at each other, Kara is not sure if she wants to ask or if she has the right to ask. But, she doesn't need to because Lena has a pretty good idea of what is happening inside Kara's mind…

"It was too naive for you to think that my mother would come. You didn't have to invite her."

"He was her son. She deserved to know, she…"

"She killed Lex a long time ago in her heart when she kicked him out of the family.

Lena says such words with a bitter voice. Deep down, just like Kara, she was expecting to see Lillian in the funeral. But, Lillian didn't show up, she hasn't said a word to Lena since she got the news about the death of Lex. And, Lena has no idea why she's disappointed about it. What was she really expecting? That Lillian would show up and act like a real mother? That she would be there and mourn the death of her son like any normal human being?! Lena mocks herself for even imagining such things.

"Forget about Lillian. We have more important things to discuss…"

"We do?"

Lena raises an eyebrow when a confused Kara looks at her. 'Does she really have no clue about the 'big' notorious matter she's carrying?' Lena wonders, but, regardless if Kara is playing dump or she's really just so oblivious to the situation, Lena decides to get straight to the point when she asks about the baby.

The blonde softly rubs the belly of a few weeks. It's too late to disrupt the pregnancy, and even if it wasn't, she would never be able to kill anyone by choice, especially a baby. So, the only option is…

"I'm going to give birth to this baby, Lena…"

"And then what?"

Kara sighs because she has no idea how to reply. And, when Lena starts to ask one question after another, Kara's mind fills with doubts and question marks. Can she raise a child? Can she take care of another human being? She doesn't have any money or support system to ensure the well-being of the baby. And, to be honest, Kara is not sure if she can become a mother neither.

Girls grow up playing the house, dreaming about becoming mothers, getting the happy family and the fancy house. But, that has never been the case for Kara or Lena. They didn't dream this, they didn't ask for this for them. However, they are here now, with a baby on the way and, without a clue of what to do with respect to the actual situation.

"I don't have all the answers, Lena. I don't know what to think or what to feel. All I know it's that I made a promise. I promised Clark & Lex that I would give birth to their baby. And, that's what I will do."

It's very noble what Kara wants to do. But, it's unrealistic to think she can do this alone. Lena wasn't there for Lex, every time he needed it. She regrets that. And, she's not gonna commit the same mistake with his child, so…

"I wanna help. I'm going to help."

And, that's how right now, Kara is standing at the entrance of Lena's penthouse. Because somehow, in Lena's book, helping Kara during the pregnancy means to welcome her into her home.

Lena moves in all directions. She's nervous. It's the first time she welcomes anyone at her home. Not even Lillian or her CFO and only friend, Sam, have ever put a foot in. Lena never imagined that welcoming someone she barely knew into her home would be such a big deal for her but it is. Kara finally steps in and each step of the blonde, it makes Lena's heart rate to raise to the sky.

' What the hell I'm supposed to do now?! ' Lena wonders. Should she offer her a cup of coffee? Of course not! It's not recommended caffeine during the pregnancy. Maybe a soda then, she can drink soda, right? Lena frowns because she has no idea what is safe to offer. If she has no clue on what is the most appropriate beverage to offer for a pregnant woman then how is she supposed to help?

Not having the right answer it's something new for Lena. She's super smart so why can't she figure out this? Panic sets in Lena and it doesn't get unnoticed by Kara...

"Lena, are you feeling okay?"

The blonde wonders why the dear Luthor looks so pale. Did she get sick during the trip? Or worse, is she having second thoughts about this? If Lena is already regretting the arrangement, Kara will not force her to help.

"I shouldn't be here, should I? This is your home, you don't know me... I should go…"

Kara's first impulse is to run away. She doesn't need to hear Lena saying the same words her foster sister Alex said to her years ago. She doesn't need to get kicked out again from a home which is not hers. So, she turns around, ready to run away again like when she walked away from the Danvers years ago. But contrary to that time, this time, someone stops her, wrapping her by the wrist, forcing her to stop running.

Kara turns around and looks at the most beautiful green eyes she has ever seen. 'Have her eyes always been beautiful?' Kara wonders as she gets entranced on those beautiful emeralds.

Sharp and soft all at once. Lena's eyes are something else. Green like the grass that revives after a cruel winter. Green like the forest of Midvale. Kara gets lost in Lena's eyes, remembering Midvale's forest, a place she loved so much, a place she called 'home'. And somehow, those beautiful green eyes which express so much more than what the dear Luthor is ready to say, they feel like home, especially when Lena finally finds her words and says...

"Don't leave, please…"

It was a whisper, a plea that Lena wasn't sure why she offered in the first place, but when she saw Kara ready to leave, the words came out of her mouth before she could process the meaning of them. Begging, asking for something, it's something Lena hates. She doesn't like to admit when she needs something she can't provide herself. But, she has recently lost Lex and right now, she cannot afford to lose anything else, so…

"Don't leave, Kara…"

From before she can remember, no one has ever asked her to stay. 'Stop running!' Kara's inner voice yells so loudly that Kara is compelled to stop. For the first time, Kara stops running away and Lena softly smiles because both of them need to hold onto something and that 'something' is each other even if they're not ready to admit it.

"I'm sorry if I made you feel unwelcome in my home, that has never been my intention."

"But, you look conflicted about my presence here... Am I right?"

Admitting discomfort or weakness is another thing Lena hates, but somehow she feels she can allow herself being vulnerable around Kara and maybe that's why she decides to be completely honest about her inner fears.

"It's true that I feel conflicted. But, it's not because I don't want you here, it's because I have no clue of what beverage I should offer you…"

Kara raises an eyebrow. ' She's joking, right? ' The blonde asks herself if all this drama started because of a beverage, she doesn't believe it till she sees Lena making a google search for 'what beverage to offer a pregnant woman'. And, while Lena concentrates on finding the best answer for her dilemma, Kara chuckles because it's cute… Lena is really cute when she overthinks and worries so much about so little details like this one.

"Juice… no, maybe milk… do I have milk?"

Kara loudly laughs as she hears Lena's rambling. As humiliating as it can be for Lena to admit she has no clue of what she's supposed to do, it's a big relief for Kara to see she's not the only one clueless during the pregnancy.

"Don't laugh, Kara. It's not funny!"

"I'm not laughing at you, Lena. I'm just chuckling because I find it cute how much you worry about such small things like what I can or cannot drink. It's cute really, you're cute."

Lena's cheeks get painted with pink. Blush spreads over the pale cheeks of the dear CEO because this is the first time someone has called her 'cute'. And, to be honest this is not gonna be the first time that Kara will make her blush because later that night, after a sweet cup of cocoa and a marathon of tv series, Kara falls asleep on the sofa, besides Lena.

Kara's tired head drops over Lena's shoulder and the dear CEO stiffens when she feels the warm contact. Lena holds her breathing. Should she say something? Should she move? Lena has no protocol to follow in a situation like this one, and it gets worse when, in between dreams, Kara hugs Lena's arm.

She should wake her up, she should remove herself from the sleeping blonde but Lena does nothing else besides stare at Kara while she sleeps. The blonde is gripping on her hard, like if her life was depending on it. And, realizing that someone depends on her, that she's accountable to someone other than herself, it makes Lena smile because someone needs her, really needs her. It's a new feeling she's liking really fast. It also means she's not alone. She doesn't feel alone anymore. And with the warm feeling of having someone at her side, Lena falls asleep too.

We don't live forever. Leaving unfinished business is something we might not be able to avoid. But, maybe that's for the best. Maybe that's what the Universe has planned so, others can continue what we started. And, maybe… just maybe… Clark & Lex real unfinished business was to bring these two together.