Chapter 33: Heaven Forbid

Castiel

Appearing in the Impala I was greeted to Dean driving while Evelyn was sprawled out in the back humming until I arrived. My eyes looked over at her seeing a small smile appear on her face, I liked it when I could make her smile.

"I am currently looking to see if Crowley is truly alive." I said bringing my attention back to Dean, "I'm not even sure how he's still alive, he must have replaced his bones with someone else."

"Don't worry, if he is we'll find him and kill him once and for all." Dean said hearing the assurance in his words while I watched him for a moment.

"Where is Sam?" I asked curiously just now realizing he wasn't in the car as I heard Evelyn say, "He's off fighting a Djinn, we are on our way to help him out, Sammy wanted to be a show-off and get their first. There is room for one more if you'd like to help."

I looked towards her, I knew she wanted me to be here for her not just for fighting but other more intimate things but I couldn't give that to her, not yet.

"No I must return to my search, but if you need me just call." I said seeing the disappointment flash in her eyes, I hated when I made her feel like this.

Disappearing from them again I reappeared in Crowley's compound making my way into one of the rooms seeing he had Eve's body pried open inspecting it.

"Did you know even though she's dead she's still producing eggs and her little creatures are still linked to her." Crowley said not looking at me as he zapped her body hearing a vampire tethered to the table howl out in pain.

He put down the weapon now facing me saying, "I'm still disappointed the Winchester's had to kill her, I would have liked to see how useful she would be alive. This makes finding Purgatory all the more complicated you know."

"What's done is done." I said simply not wanting to talk more on the subject of Sam and Dean as he eyed me saying, "I also want you to stop seeing them, especially my dear Evelyn."

My eyes looked up at the mere mention of her name feeling my fist tighten slightly at his words as his eyes looked up causing my posture to appear relaxed again.

"I want you to kill the boys, they are only going to get in the way." Crowley said as I retorted, "I will not kill Sam and Dean, do not worry about them."

"Tell that to the numerous demons they've destroyed that underestimated them, I'm not as stupid or naïve as them." Crowley said chuckling lowly while I said, "Just focus on finding Purgatory and I will promise they won't find you."

I began walking out hearing him yell, "Let them find me!"

I hid in the shadows of Bobby's house seeing Sam, Dean, Bobby, and Evelyn all gathered around clearly there was no Djinn.

"Guys I don't like lying to Cassy…" I heard Evelyn say seeing the sadness in her eyes while Bobby replies, "We aren't saying anything is certain but you can't help but be suspicious by all this. An old dog can learn new tricks."

I could see the conflict in her face, she was torn and I truly wished I could be honest with her but I made a promise I didn't intend on breaking.

Hearing the demon give away the location of another demon who could trace them back to myself and Crowley I moved quickly taking care of him. If ever there was a demon counterpart for Bobby this one would be him but he had to go so I could keep her safe.

I stood against the wall of the old house letting the warm light and soothing hums of the woman in front of me ease my worries. She was beautiful now but this, her true form was just as beautiful, her smile was filled with such warmth and I got lost in it. The baby in her arms cooed happily reaching towards her as she rocked the baby in her chair.

"My Grace… my angel… Mommy will always be here for you." she said softly causing my eyes to close.

"I thought I'd find you here." I heard a voice say behind me seeing the room grow darker turning to see Raphael standing alone.

"What do you want Raphael." I said looking away from him as he said, "I wish for you to pledge you're allegiance to me, help us bring Michael back and finish this silly apocalypse."

"No." I said simply walking out of Grace's heaven to the garden feeling Raphael follow ready to attack.

He easily outmatched me, but he didn't kill me I was given a choice to join him or die along with my friends.

I watched as the others walked into Ellsworth's home but I had made sure it was completely clean seeing them try desperately to find clues. Evelyn suggested calling to me for help but the others weren't so convinced yet she did quietly to herself. I couldn't go to her though, like so many other times she prayed for me, it was just too dangerous.

I watched as more demons stormed in saying Crowley sent them to say hi watching as they attacked them clearly with the intent on killing them all. I watched as Evelyn was grabbed around the neck being held to the wall hearing her silent prayers for me and I couldn't deny her any longer.

Going straight into the action I dispatched all of the demons seeing that they were all safe feeling Evelyn hug me tightly trembling for a moment. I wanted to embrace her but knew it wasn't a good choice as she pulled away and I instantly missed her warmth.

"I believe Crowley is alive." I said while Dean said, "Yea we got that impression too… glad you came Cas, we thought you might be working with him."

I gave a small smile towards them all hating myself for lying to them as I said, "Some dogs keep to old tricks."

"Cassy…" I heard Evelyn say quietly turning my eyes to her as she said, "Whatever you're doing just do the right thing."

I nodded towards her, this demon that turned my life inside out showing me the beauty in the little things, and though I hated when she called me Cassy I would never stop her because it made it something special between us. I suddenly felt angry at Crowley for trying to break his promise appearing beside him.

"Do not try to kill the Winchesters or Evelyn again." I said angrily while Crowley scoffed replying, "You're losing your touch angel boy, there is a bigger picture here. Just because you're trying to appear like a goody-two-shoes for those boys doesn't mean you're not anything less than a traitor. What are you afraid sweet little Evelyn will hate you if she knew how much you've betrayed her trust?"

I gripped him tightly slamming him into the wall saying, "If you ever go after any of them again I will destroy everything. You promised you wouldn't hurt her, she would be kept safe."

Defeated and broken I left Heaven knowing it wasn't a safe place anymore, I was alone and didn't know who to reach out to. I stood outside of Dean's home watching him rake but I couldn't bother him, he was starting a new life a happy life and he had sacrificed so much already. I teleported again to a beautiful beach as the sun was just beginning to set staring down at the figure in the sand.

She appeared sad seeing her hugging her knees tightly staring at the sunset, a silent prayer for me but I stayed still. I couldn't get her involved in this right now, not when Raphael would destroy anyone who got in his way. He already knew she was dear to me so I felt that if I kept my distance perhaps he would leave her be but my heart ached for her.

Suddenly a presence appeared to my side, "I see you're enjoying the view."

"What are you doing here?" I asked not meeting his eyes hearing him laugh saying, "I wanted to make a deal with you."

We both appeared far away from where she was looking around realizing we were in Hell as I watched the long line of souls marching to their fate.

"New and improved, no more messiness I run a tight ship but you Cas I think you should start a civil war in Heaven." Crowley said as I stared at the people walking saying, "Why is that?"

"Revelation my friend, lead it and with my help, we can find Purgatory." He said seeing the enthusiasm in his eyes while I walked past him saying, "Why would I help you do that?"

"Isn't it obvious… your angel friend will tear her apart and you're not strong enough to stop it without those souls." He said feeling my body tense up as he said, "I thought that would strike a nerve, I'm honestly not surprised she is quite a specimen to behold. He won't kill her, he'll destroy her."

"You are asking me to go against everything I stand for." I said weighing my options as he smirked saying, "Isn't she worth that?"

I closed my eyes for a moment, perhaps, for now, I could work with him and when the time came cut my losses and destroy him. Killing two birds with one stone seemed like the easier option but just how far down would I go in the process.

"You must promise she is kept safe, keep her out of this and do not let her know we are working together." I said seeing his smirk widened replying, "I can promise that."

After going over the details and starting the revolution I thought everything would work out but I sank farther down and felt the pain every time I lied to them, every time I lied to her. That's why when she called to me I was by her side instantly, I was tired of hiding from her when I wanted so badly for her to be by my side.

I was surprised to see Dean, Sam, and Bobby by her side, she didn't even want to look at me and I felt a pain hit through my chest.

"So we found a way to find Crowley." Dean said as my eyes turned to him, I had hidden every possible route to Crowley, had I missed something?

"What is that?" I asked seeing him light a lighter in his hand hearing him say in a defeated voice, "It's you."

The next part will also be from Castiel's point of view.