Chapter 34: Promises

Castiel

I dared not look them in the eyes feeling the shame consume me knowing I betrayed my friends time and time again. Dean demanded the truth but I hadn't the heart to give it as he assured me he knew what I was doing was wrong which I didn't disagree with.

"Cassy…" her soft voice said coming forward causing my eyes to close, she was in pain and it consumed me as her eyes met my own as she said, "Why are you doing this, why didn't you trust me to talk to me."

"I'm doing this for you… for all of you, I must stop them from starting the apocalypse again." I said towards her seeing her frown replying, "I could have helped you… why did you leave me in the dark?"

"I didn't have a choice, they would have killed you." I said seeing the hurt and anger bubble up inside her while Dean stepped forward saying, "Any other surprises you'd like to share for the class?"

"I… I was the one who brought Sam back from Hell." I said knowing they would eventually find out seeing the shock pass through all of their faces while Sam replied, "Well you did a pretty sloppy job bringing me back without a soul."

"I didn't realize at the time that you came back that way, I didn't have a choice." I admitted truthfully but at this point, I didn't think they'd believe anything I said.

"You did have a choice and you must have known something was wrong when you didn't tell us in the first place you sensed something was off." Dean said angrily but I kept quiet because I knew he was right.

My eyes moved up sensing demons as I looked out the window seeing a large dark cloud of them approaching seeing the other also noticed. They whispered amongst themselves before turning towards me saying I was to be left to deal with later.

I watched them all begin to walk but saw the hesitance in Evelyn's movements as she looked towards me while I looked down saying, "I am sorry."

She walked closer to me for a moment saying softly, "Sorry is just not going to cut it this time Castiel."

I winced at the use of my full name knowing she only did that in certain circumstances and this wasn't a pleasant one. I didn't look up to watch her leave hearing the door close knowing that I may never get that door open again.

"Well, that turned out exactly like I thought it would." I heard Crowley say destroying the holy fire line as I stepped out still staring towards the door as he said, "Don't worry I don't plan on going after any of them, I think you did enough damage, friends, and love just hold you back."

"Get out of my sight." I said feeling my fist tighten as he laughed saying, "You want to know the difference between you and I Castiel, I know what I am."

My eyes shifted to see he had already disappeared standing in the same spot for a while contemplating my next move. Eventually, I found my way to where the boys and Evelyn were quietly watching from the shadows as Bobby put up angel wards but they were sloppy. The house eventually grew silent as Evelyn walked outside taking her spot on one of Bobby's trucks hugging her knees hearing a defeated sigh escape your lips.

I couldn't help myself appearing out of the shadows knowing she felt my presence but refused to look in my direction as I said softly, "Evelyn…"

"Why are you here?" she asked still not meeting my eyes while I walked closer seeing her body tighten into itself as I said, "To explain why I'm doing this."

"You want to open Purgatory and steal the souls to make yourself powerful enough to kill Raphael, I get it." She said making me frown replying, "Yes but my intentions are based more than just that."

"What could possibly be more important?" she asked finally turning her head to look up at me as I hesitantly went to touch her but stopped myself not wanting to push her boundaries saying, "You are Evelyn."

She scoffed turning away saying, "How could I a demon possibly be so important to an angel."

I gave her a hard look saying, "You're not just a demon, you were a person who was wronged and has gone through more pain than anyone I know. You care about people more than you care for yourself but that also makes you a target and so I intend to do everything in my power to be strong enough to protect you."

"Crowley is just going to use you and then double-cross you." She said hearing her voice falter for a moment, she must have started crying.

"Not if I do it to him first, I just want you to trust me and know that my intentions are good." I said seeing her wipe her face saying, "I can't stand the thought of you getting hurt either you know… I… I care about you Castiel… more than I should but I can't be left alone in the dark anymore, it's just too painful."

I gripped her hand gently feeling her body tense for a moment as I said, "I promise when all this is over I will never leave your side, you will have me completely and unconditionally."

The tears began to fall as I went to wipe them away watching her face lean into my touch as my heart ached knowing I was causing her such distress hearing a shaky sigh leave her lips as she said, "We will just have to see when the time comes if you keep your promise."

I pulled away from her as she tried to get her posture back saying, "You should really talk to Dean, he's also broken up too."

"I intended too once I made sure you were alright and understood my position." I said seeing her nod her head replying, "Just make sure you're doing this for you too… don't throw your life away for me."

I gave her a sad smile saying, "Don't worry this is for the both of us."

My visit with Dean didn't go as easy as Evelyn's conversation, he was angry and it was rightfully so but I just wanted him to understand I was doing this for them too. He felt threatened and as much as I wanted to believe he wouldn't actually hurt me at this time I wouldn't stop him. I ended back on the bench I've spent so many days and nights praying to a father who never answered my prayers. All I could do now was wait and hope after all this everything would be as it should.