Chapter 41: Rusted Silence

He began taking slow steps towards me as I stood up trying to get between him and the others causing him to laugh saying, "So cute when a little demon tries to protect hairless apes."

I fought back the shakiness to my voice saying, "You don't look so good… I think your vessel is going to explode."

It was true, the black liquid was leaking out of his ears and nose and I could see it begin to appear in his eyes as he looked towards the others then back at me saying, "We'll be back for you."

He disappeared as I let out a shaky breath looking towards Dean and Bobby saying, "We have to find Sam and figure out where he went before it's too late."

"Too late for what?" Dean asked making me shrug saying, "Something bad, doesn't that always seem to happen to us."

"Good point let's go." Bobby said as we walked out of the room making our way through the facility hearing Sam cry out in pain around a corner.

Dean ran forward seeing Sam in a trance but he snapped out of it once Dean grabbed hold of him looking at us confused. Dean quickly caught him up as we made our way outside the facility seeing Castiel in the distance walking towards a water reserve. I ran ahead of them as he began walking through the water seeing black liquid leak down his body the further out he got.

I stopped at the water's edge feeling the others had caught up to me watching his body submerge then black liquid erupted from his body spreading through the water making my eyes water. I stared at the water for a while where his body disappeared seeing Dean bend down beside me pulling out Castiel's trench coat handing it to me.

"He… he's really gone…" I muttered hearing my voice crack feeling Sam come over giving me a comforting squeeze to my shoulder.

"We should get out of here… they may come back." Bobby said as we all nodded walking back to the Impala keeping my grip firm on his trench coat, this was all I had left.

I was silent the whole ride to Bobby's house just staring out the window feeling my heart slowly begin to crumble and break. The only thing that made me want to keep going was the fact those things were still out there and I intended to kill all of them for not only what they did to me but for Castiel as well.

"Evelyn." Dean said as my eyes averted to his in the mirror seeing him look towards me saying, "You shouldn't go running off, these things clearly are out to get you so we should stick together from now on."

I looked down at the still soaked trench coat saying, "I know… I don't even know how you even kill these things if they can even be killed."

Sam must have sensed the defeated tone to my voice because he turned around saying, "Hey don't talk like that if it bleeds we can kill it."

I nodded trying my best to give him a smile looking back out the window, we had a rough road ahead.

I sat at Bobby's kitchen table drinking a beer as Sam was passed out in another room while Dean and Bobby were outside discussing something. It had been hours since we got back and I worried about Sam's sanity along with my own.

I heard the door open watching Dean walk upstairs as Bobby stopped looking towards me saying, "I'm going to get some shut-eye since you don't sleep… mind watching the place?"

"You got it captain." I said tipping my beer towards him as he gave a small nod before heading upstairs too.

It grew quiet in the house as I sat at Bobby's desk flipping through books trying to find anything on Leviathans. I debated getting in touch with Crowley but I didn't feel like opening that can of worms right now. I then thought about praying but I realized without Castiel I had no one left to pray too and that left me with an unsettling feeling.

"So it's been a while but you're the only person I can pray to at this point…" I began muttering softly letting out a shaky breath saying, "God… I know you're not wanting to help us anymore and trust me I understand we do seem to stir the pot way too much but Castiel… he… he didn't deserve any of this so if you could find it in your Godly heart to bring him back or at least make sure he has peace it would sure be nice of you."

I looked up meeting the usual silence making me sigh looking back at the book, figures he would be silent, seems he always has been.

Morning eventually came seeing Bobby was the first one up making breakfast followed by Dean who looked sad but rested. After a few more hours Dean went upstairs with Bobby to wake Sam up as I decided to follow them not wanting to sit staring at books anymore.

I stood quietly listening to Sam tell Dean he was seeing Lucifer and how he kept thinking he was still in the cage which unnerved me. He knew he wasn't okay despite Dean's protest that everything was fine making me wonder if he would try and run off again. I watched Dean and Bobby walk out as I sat on the bed beside Sam while he kept gazing to an empty spot in the room.

"What is he saying?" I asked quietly not looking towards Sam but seeing him turn to me out of the corner of my eye replying, "He's curious why we are still working with you."

I snorted replying, "I wonder that sometimes too."

"Hey you've been helpful, more than any other demon and you have done nothing to betray our trust, unlike the other demons we've talked to. You are our friend Evelyn, I hope you know that." Sam said making a small smile crack across my face saying, "Thanks Sammy boy, and if you need advice for your Lucy problem just ask."

Dean got wind of a swim team attacking each other and figuring this was the first report since the Leviathans got loose it had to be them. With Sam's mental state Dean decided he would stay with Bobby while I went with him to learn more information in the meantime.

The drive was mostly quiet since Dean was too preoccupied with worrying about Sam while I was busy worrying about the Leviathans that could or could not be involved in this case.

"I can't believe you're wearing that." Dean said suddenly making me turn my eyes to him crossing my arms replying, "It's all I have left of him."

"Well, technically it's Jimmy's trench coat." Dean replied giving me a sideways glance as I wrapped the trench coat tighter around myself replying, "Doesn't matter, plus my fashion sense isn't none of your concern officer muscle shirt."

I could hear him laugh softly for a moment saying, "Sammy would be captain flannel."

I let out a little laugh as he laughed harder making me smile, that's right I did have people around I could lean on. Though the pain of losing Castiel possibly forever would never heal at least I had two deranged and broken brothers as well as a grouchy old man for company so I supposed that counted as something.