Chapter 52: My Baby Shot Me Down

It seemed as if in slow motion the demons holding me let me go as the whole parking lot was engulfed in light seeing them all lie dead around me while the others left as quickly as they could. I didn't move seeing him walk slowly towards me still wondering if this was all a dream.

He outstretched his hand towards me as I reached up feeling the warmth of his hand against mine knowing this was real gripping it tightly. I jumped up wrapping my arms tightly around him feeling him embrace me back gently taking in his scent.

"I thought I lost you…" I whispered sadly feeling him squeeze me tighter saying, "I know… I'm not even sure how I'm still alive."

I pulled away seeing him give me a small smile as Dean walked over to the both of us clearing his throat making me step back.

"Hey Cas." Dean said while Castiel gave Dean a sad look replying, "Hello Dean, why didn't you tell me that Sam was dying?"

Dean looked fearful for a moment replying, "Well you weren't exactly you… I take it you remember everything?"

He looked towards me with sadness for a moment saying, "I do and I also know we didn't leave on good terms Dean. I should have died and not come back that day, I don't even know why I stepped out into that water if it wasn't going to fix anything."

"You did the best you could Cas, maybe you were brought back to make things right." Dean said while I walked forward taking the trench coat off holding it out to him saying, "I believed in you Cassy."

He gave me a small smile taking his trench coat putting it on while I smiled back watching him walk ahead of us into the hospital to find Sam. Castiel came just in time taking care of a demon that was torturing Sam as I watched him touch Sam's head.

"You're not real." Sam said fearfully watching Castiel pull away confused looking towards us saying, "I'm sorry… he's too far gone."

Once we warded Sam's room we all headed back to Dean's hotel room knowing we couldn't do much else for the night. Dean was distraught but at least he wasn't blaming Castiel anymore just happy to have him back at least. He eventually decided to get himself some food and think of a new plan as Castiel sat quietly at the table looking down ashamed.

"I'm sorry for everything that has transpired since I left." Castiel said while I walked over to him kneeling down beside him saying, "Hey it's not your fault you were Mr. Amnesia for months, I'm more mad at myself for not trying to make sure you were truly dead."

"It would have been impossible to tell, Dean finding me alone was mere luck." Castiel said logically making me shake my head laughing while I stood up seeing him eye me worried as I brushed my hand along his jaw saying, "There is the Cassy I love."

He looked away saying, "Even after finding out I forgot you and got married you still love me?"

I felt my hand twitch straddling his waist hearing him inhale quickly while I said, "Well the idea of you with another woman makes me want to burn her flesh off and feed it to you…"

I felt him tense up against me with slightly worry as my features softened saying, "But you didn't know so I can't be too mad at you."

I heard him exhale slowly looking up towards me replying, "I am glad though I will not stop looking for ways to redeem myself to both you and Dean until the end of time."

I leaned in closer feeling his breath tickle my neck as I said huskily, "Good thing we have so much time until the end of time."

I went to kiss him when I heard the door unlocking moving back as Dean walked in looking between us, "Did I just interrupt something?"

"Of course not Deano I love this dry spell I'm in." I said with sarcasm dripping from my words while Castiel looked towards me saying, "You are lying."

Dean began to laugh as I joined in watching Castiel look between us confused but decided not to bother asking questions. Dean began to tell him about the Leviathans and now they can be killed while I listened quietly hearing the pain in his voice whenever he brought up Sam's name. After a while Dean finally decided to get some sleep as Castiel looked towards his sleeping form sadly.

"Evelyn…" I heard his voice say softly looking in his direction while he looked towards Dean troubled saying, "I may have a way to save Sam."

I tilted my head saying, "Why do I get the feeling I'm not going to like this?"

"I have to transfer all of Sam's hallucinations to myself." Castiel said looking towards me while I frowned saying, "What would happen to you?"

"Perhaps nothing but I could also collapse into a comatose state losing my mind in the process." Castiel said with honesty making me tighten my fist saying, "I just got you back and you want to do something like this?"

"You must look at the bigger picture Evelyn and I must redeem myself for all I've done, Sam's condition is my fault." Castiel said sternly while I shook my head saying, "I know but I… I can't lose you again…"

I felt him get up placing his hand on my cheek feeling his finger rub it comfortingly saying, "I know but I must do this, I was brought back for a reason and I must make amends just please don't tell Dean."

"I'm going to stay with you… should the worst happen and I'll find a way to bring you back." I said stubbornly seeing him smile softly pulling me into his embrace saying, "I would expect nothing less from a demon extraordinaire."

The next afternoon we made our way back to the hospital feeling the weight of what Castiel wanted to do bringing me down as he told Dean he had a plan. Once we made it to Sam's room he was huddled on the bed seeing bags under his eyes looking around fearfully making me frown. I knew Castiel was only doing the right thing and in his shoes I would have too but it didn't make it hurt any less.

"Dean, Sam's condition has gotten to severe for it to be fixed." Castiel said grimly but looked towards Sam saying, "There is a way to shift his problem to someone else."

I could see the lightbulb go off in Dean's head as he took a step forward saying, "Cas you can't mean… there has to be another way."

"Sorry Dean, it's better this way." He said then looked towards me giving me an apologetic expression before touching Sam watching red glowing veins begin to run up Sam's body and enter into Castiel.

Castiel pulled away seeing Sam look around confused while my eyes focused on Castiel seeing him look around in fear crawling to the corner of the room. I went over to him slowly crouching down while he huddled into himself in fear making me frown.

"We can't leave him here alone with the demons hunting him." I said looking over at Sam and Dean while they looked between each other as I looked back at Castiel staring at his fingers smirking.

"So your husband has fallen ill Miss Winchester?" the doctor said as I stood outside one of the doors saying, "That's right… so silly first his cousin then him but I intend to stay by his side through all this."

"Well here is your pass to come and go as you please no one will bother a spouse so dedicated to their husband." He said handing me the pass before walking away leaving me to walk into the room of the sleeping figure.

I stroked his cheek gently saying, "Don't worry Cassy, I'm not going anywhere."