Chapter 56: As We Are

I sat in a tree feeling my feet dangle as Castiel was walking around admiring all the floral like he did most mornings. We had been in this jungle for a week or so now with no form of communication to reach Dean and Sam and I was beginning to feel antsy. Every once in a while Castiel would disappear only to come back mumbling on about the philosophies of life making me wonder just what he was up to. Anytime I asked him he just told me it wasn't important and cover it up by pulling me into passionate kisses which usually silenced my curiosity. Though I was beginning to grow bored and knew we had to stop the Leviathans despite his silent protests.

"Cassy we should go see Dean and Sam." I said looking down towards him while I saw his shoulders tense up saying, "You know we angels believed when humans were created they wouldn't live as long as they have and they call cockroaches resilient."

I frowned hopping down the tree coming up beside him saying, "Cassy we still have to kill those Leviathans… if you want me to go alone…"

"No." he said suddenly making me stop seeing him look around nervously saying, "This place is safe… no humans… no angels… no demons… and no Leviathans."

"We can't stay here forever… they need our help." I said frowning while he shook his head saying, "I know it's just…"

He was quiet for a moment as if fighting an internal battle before saying, "The Leviathans have captured Kevin the prophet and they are killing angels."

My eyes widened saying loudly, "Is that where you've been disappearing to?!"

"Yes." He said making me cross my arms saying, "Why didn't you tell me we could have done something."

"Evelyn it's dangerous if they… if you…" I could see the worry and frustration pass over his features as I put my hand over his mouth saying, "Okay, I get it you were just trying to protect me."

He frowned saying, "I am sorry for not being honest with you it's just what happened."

"It wasn't your fault you didn't have control and I've forgiven you but Sam and Dean are our friends, Hell the only family we got at this point and they need us too." I said seeing him nod feeling him grab my hand before the lovely scenery disappeared around us.

Looking around we were sitting in the Impala as Castiel went to mess with the radio while I stepped out going to the door to a broken down cabin knocking.

The door opened seeing Dean standing with Borax in his hand splashing it in my face as I spit it out saying, "Lovely to see you too Deano."

"Evelyn… where the hell have you guys been?" he asked putting the bottle down as I shrugged saying, "Some tropical paradise I don't really know but we are here… Cassy is in the car and I think you should talk to him."

He looked past me nodding as I strolled into the cabin seeing Sam sitting beside his laptop looking frustrated.

"Hey Sammy boy." I said seeing him jump slightly looking up towards me standing as he said, "Evelyn, we were worried that something had happened."

"I'm quite alright…" I began seeing a summoning spell on the other side of him saying, "Who are you trying to summon?"

"Crowley for his blood but it seems he is busy right now." Sam said making me tense up slightly but relax happy he didn't know about Castiel still.

After a few more minutes Dean and Castiel walked in seeing Dean look towards me almost sadly but straightened up looking behind me closing my eyes saying, "Crowley is behind me isn't he?"

"Hello darling." I heard making me nod turning around stepping towards Castiel as he glared towards me saying, "So angel boy is back together again how sweet wish I got a postcard."

Castiel looked over at Crowley in worry feeling him grip my arm pulling me farther away from him as Crowley looked towards Sam and Dean saying, "Vengeance aside I've come to withhold what you asked for since it's clear that your angel is working at half capacity."

I made a face while he laughed saying, "I'm not an idiot plus if I tried to attack you I can only imagine what kind of cosmic aftermath that would have in store for me."

"What are you getting out of all this, you don't do anything without it benefiting you." I said while he scoffed replying, "I get Dick off the map of course, he already knows enough anyway I just hope you use mental boy to even out the playing field."

Crowley snapped his finger showing a vial of blood in his other hand dropping it down on the table before disappearing feeling the tension in the room lift.

With Crowley's, Castiel's and an Alpha's blood they were able to make the weapon as I watched them quietly, Castiel had run off again feeling too much pressure in the room while I stayed with the brothers. After a few minutes Castiel appeared between them with sandwiches saying they were safe for consumption watching Sam and Dean look at him worried. I could see Castiel was on edge he often fidgeted when he was or he would babble to avoid a fight but that only seemed to spark it more with Dean.

"Why was Crowley hinting to bring you along so much?" Sam said seeing a hint of fear pass over Castiel's features replying, "Crowley is wrong, Evelyn and I will be waiting for your return."

"We will?" I asked seeing Castiel nod replying, "Yes we will."

Sam and Dean looked towards him concerned but I knew if Castiel didn't want to do it he wouldn't and they didn't understand he was just trying to keep me away from the Leviathans. We watched them leave as I sat down on the couch getting comfortable while Castiel stood near a window looking out at the forest behind the house.

"Cassy when Crowley said you should go why did you get so upset?" I asked turning towards him as he was quiet for a moment before saying, "He is just trying to get rid of me though you love me other demons don't take so kindly to me and want to see me dead."

"Well true but the way he said it made me think you know something that you're not telling me." I said inquiring him more as he turned to me saying, "Having those things inside me was horrible, I never understood how taking a vessel felt to the owner until I was one of them."

I frowned as he turned towards the window again saying, "I saw it all happening, screamed on the inside until I felt weak watching the horrible things they did to you but I was helpless to awaken until your crying plea gave me enough strength to break through… I… I never want to feel that again."

"You won't… once they are dead they can't hurt either of us anymore." I said while he shook his head saying, "The mere knowledge of knowing what happened makes me wish I hadn't survived at all."

I glared lightly towards him standing up pushing him against the wall seeing his eyes fill with fear for a moment making me loosen my grip saying, "Don't talk like that, we need you Cassy… I need you."

"You were surviving just fine when I was gone." He said quietly making me frown saying, "Is that what you really think?"

"Shall we play Sorry?" he asked not meeting my eyes as I sighed backing up from him saying, "Sure Cassy… can't do much else."

Sorry this chapter took so long coming out, hope everyone is staying safe and healthy!